Patrons of peace pants

Story:
Pretheyre; Kingdoms of Grey and Gold
The vast kingdom of Pretheyre and its constituent realms lay on the dangerous precipice of change. For over two centuries the lineage of the highest sovereign in the lands and bearer of the Auric Crown has guided the people in peace and prosperity, owing in many ways to the strong but beneficent nature of the royal line. But others attribute the successes to an entirely different, and altogether distant, source: the magocratic societies of Ravenfolk from the main continent who have subtly guided the peoples of Geridreon since time immemorial. But, regardless of which is more the case, a sudden silence that has fallen abroad has many beginning to consider that some tragedy may have occurred on the ancient continent across the sea. And from that, whispers of dark omens ahead and doubt in the further authority of the king begin to spread… and factions from all across the kingdom move in accordance with them.
You are, as yet, a small part in one such faction. You might belong to one of any number of factions. A knight of the Auric Order itself, a mage from House Myrddin’s pet university, a shadowy agent under House Ossimir, an adventurer’s guild member loosely employed by the young House Arascalon, or even from a faction entirely counter to the established bodies that govern the Prytheyric Isle… the list could go on. But from wherever you hail, and whoever you represent, you have been sent to the Lamelight region to investigate, report on, and aid in a number of odd goings on there. A resurgence of activity from the Feywild, religious and ideological conflicts, rumors of dark magic and cults, and not least of all the continuing political uncertainty in regard to a new family uplifted unceremoniously by the king himself to a seat amongst the Thirteen Great and Noble Houses. The Lamelight is far from the only region seeing levels of unrest, but all eyes are on it now. And soon to be on you as well!
General Information:

• A long-term campaign; currently at level 4 and expected to go to around level 12
• The campaign will be weighted more towards RP and story, with combat sprinkled throughout (I try to have at least one combat encounter prepped per session, but sessions entirely without combat will occur)
• Sundays weekly at 4 PM GMT+2 and lasting 4 Hours
• Looking for 1 player to join our group, 18+ and with experience playing D&D5e preferred
• We will be using Foundry for gameplay and Discord for voice chat
• Crafting and Downtime rules will be optionally available
• Further house rules will be discussed upon character creation

Character Creation:

• Character at level 4
• Ability Scores: choice of Point Buy, Standard Array, or Rolling
• HP at level-up: Average or Rolling (able to choose differently each time)
• Race/Background/Class: All official WotC content is allowed, plus a selection of content from pre-approved Homebrew sources

If interested and/or have questions feel free to message me directly to discuss things further!

For dinner, I plan to wear a polo shirt (buttons), long Khaki pants (slacks). But instead of black leather shoes I'd like to wear sneakers / black running shoes. Will that be ok?
Also, are long jean pants allowed?

hi reddit i’m losing my mind over this so pls help. so recently i’ve been having dreams about this guy in my class who i know and have talk to a bit. he’s had a girlfriend for three years and i just found out the broke up. we have a mutual friend we are both close to and she has told me multiple times this year that he wants to hang out with me and get to know me and that he thinks i’m super funny and cool. this dude has only come up to me a couple of times. so we’ve kinda talked but not really. recently my class went to the beach for the day. my best friend and i decided to go by our self’s and leave earlier then our grade was. i got a call from the mutual friend we will call her lily. lily is asking where i am so i tell her i’m already at the beach and i’m might meet up with them later. four hours later my bsf and i are leaving the beach and we drive past them so i send lily a pic of the group from the road and she immediately face times me. she’s saying like “hey stop by we wanna see you” well then the guy takes her phone and is like “ emily we really really want you to come hang out. we want you here” and i was like sorry maybe next time i felt really bad but we were supper tired. well fast forward to two days ago which was a week from the beach, i was at a bible study with the girls from my grade and i was catching up with lily and she was telling me during the whole day the guy, we will name dan, kept saying how he really wanted me there and he just couldn’t believe i didn’t want to come. and then he heard that i was there earlier and he “lost it” couldn’t believe i didn’t want to hang out with them. so the whole day he apparently kept saying he couldn’t believe i didn’t come out with them. remember this dude has talked to me maybe five times by choice. well i had a dream about him that week of the beach. a romantic dream. and i’m so freaking confused. i didn’t want to dwell on it bc he had a girlfriend and i felt really bad about it. then the night that i talk to lily abt the beach( that was the day i found out he and his girlfriend broke up)i had another dream abt him. like what does this mean?!? also when my class went on a class trip to rome we were in florence and a couple of girls got roses from the other high schoolers we met from spain(i wasn’t one of them). we are walking to the train and dan comes up right next to me and ask if i thought i’d any of the boys were cute and if i got any of their numbers. i said no then he offered to give me the numbers of the guys he got and i was like “no thank you none of them were my type” and so he goes what is your type? i proceeded to tell this man australian’s were my type. like wtf? so then i think he was naming some famous australian’s but i didn’t know who they were so i told him luke hemmings from 5sos was my type. ANYWAYS. super embarrassing but yeah. does anyone have advice or a solution or peace of mind or literally anything. like am i going crazy or does this guy kinda sound interested in me? cause idk. thanks!

Hi all, I keep getting the urge to reach out to my ghoster and send a closing message. I feel like this will bring me peace, but at the same time I'm kinda afraid of reaching out. I think the fears are probably irrational and from me overthinking but I'm afraid of the rejection I'd face all over again. I dont care if she doesnt respond, because obviously I'm used to not hearing from this person, but I'm afraid I'd receive a nasty message back. Has reaching out actually helped anyone find peace? Or is it a stupid action that will just cause me to relapse in my depression about this person? Thanks for bearing with me lol.

I’ve gained a lot of weight over the past few years, curious how people know whether to wear dress pants over or under the belly?

We’ve been together for a little over 10 years and have a 3 year old. After I had the baby, our relationship kind of suffered for a while. It didn’t help when his mom was diagnosed with cancer last year and he had to take care of her. I had a lot on my plate to handle, with him being tied up with her. We don’t live together. I’m the primary parent and he travels for work. My son and I were barely seeing him and he was no longer providing for us anyway. He used to provide everything but when I decided to go back to work, it’s like he became angry with the fact that he could no longer control my decisions. To top it off, our son was extremely sick on and off and had to have surgery. He didn’t even come, just sent his mom. To be completely clear, I have no issues with his mom. We’ve always had a great relationship. But when he was pressed with having to take care of both families, he became so mean. I tried so hard to get him to talk to me because I knew he was depressed, but every time he brushed me off.. acted like I was nagging him. The break up happened somewhat unexpectedly… he just blurted out that he needed peace and I wasn’t giving him any. I’ve been put through so much by just sticking beside him for so long.. how can he just give up on me when all I wanted was to be there for him? He calls and makes conversation which confuses me.. I don’t know what his intentions are with me. I basically told him to leave me alone if he doesn’t want me anymore.. he just replied ok.
How can I handle the break up and still allow him to interact with his child? I’m not doing well mentally and would prefer no contact, but I know it’s not feasible with a kid in the mix.

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Two Olympic wrestlers have been detained by police in India during the latest protest against the alleged sexual abuse of female athletes.
Two-time World Championship medallist Vinesh Phogat and her sister Sangeeta were also among the country's top wrestlers to be detained.
"Our people are not being allowed to march," said Mr Phogat, adding that the protesters "Requested with folded hands" that police let them go and that they would go peacefully.
Police claimed the protesting wrestlers had not followed their directions and that they had detained those who had tried to break the barricades.
Ms Malik - the first Indian woman to win an Olympic wrestling medal in 2016 - later tweeted that once she and her fellow protesters were released they would begin their "Satyagraha", a form of non-violent resistance, again.
The wrestlers restarted their protests in April, calling for his arrest.

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In 2020 I allowed a male to be around me. I did a lot for him, he did a lot for me. But every once in awhile, he would say something extremely hurtful to me such as anything that I was doing for him that he could get someone else to do it. Another dig was he needed to date someone who could spend as much money as he did or had as much money as he did, knowing I'm not a well-off or even a financially stable person. Another insult that he threw at me!
I did a lot of administrative duties for him, what he considered tedious paperwork but I enjoyed it, but he never appreciated it. He felt that throwing money at me, buying a car for me that he never actually gave to me etc showed his appreciation, but what I needed was for him to tell me verbally that he appreciated what I did for him. In his mind to do that made him look weak.
I gave this man full body massages either by hand or machine three times a day, 3 days a week! He would get a massage in the morning before he woke up, he would get another massage if he came to his home at lunch time. He would get a massage after his bath or shower in the evening. I would dry him off after his bath or shower. Basically he was treated like a king, but I felt unappreciated, dismissed, and ignored especially because he would cut me off if I ever said more than three words, which I found to be very disrespectful and after repeatedly telling him to not do it, I literally shut down (PROTECTING MY PEACE!)

Hey friends :) I’m working on a project for research and I’m looking to interview ambitious, career driven, hard working, healthy and goal oriented professional single women in their 20s and 30s, who want to lose weight and kept it off, so they can be happy, get a model thin, toned body, round booty, small waist, flat stomach, thin thighs, toned arms, smaller face, being happy with themselves, feel more at peace, love wearing clothes they also wanted + be more confident in themselves and body & show up when talking with people, start dating, get the boyfriend they always wanted, be more comfortable in their body, be more happy with working out and not feeling like it's something that had to be done with, show up talking with people, be more confident in knowing exactly what to eat, when to eat + how to workout to lose weight, build muscle, maintain their weight, have more energy throughout their day, create their own workout and meal plans and every week adjust them to lose more weight, build more muscle, maintain your weight so they don’t need any help anymore, be able to adjust their workout and meal plans to fit their lifestyle when events are coming up they want to attend to.
And the urgency for them to lose weight right now is that they are struggling with losing weight, keeping it off, having a flabby, not toned body, fat face, thick thighs, big belly, fat arms. Their butt is flat, which frustrates them. They have no confidence in their body and not feeling comfortable with their bodies, having low energy throughout the day, work 8-10 hours a day 5 times a week and after the day is done they are left exhausted. They have been unhappy with how they looked for many years, sad looking at pictures of themselves, often feeling like the clothes did not look right on them, which made them insecure and uncomfortable, very critical, very insecure about themselves and think in an extreme way what others are thinking about them.
They felt like they never saw anything happen with their body, only their condition got better. They always felt like they did not know how to workout or how to eat to lose weight, get stronger, healthier. They workout between 4-5 times a week, eating healthy in periods to not going to the gym at all and eat less healthy, not knowing what to eat, how to workout, having no routine, no matter what they eat or workout, see no changes in their bodies and keep going back to her old habits, feeling frustrated, it’s like if their don’t see results she loses the patience, motivations.
If this sounds like you, it would mean so much to me if we could chat 15 minutes tomorrow, monday, may 29th I would like to know what topics are of importance to you ☺️
If you are open to it, comment below and I'll shoot you a message to schedule the call.
In exchange for your time, I would be happy to answer any women's weight loss questions that you have for me.
Best, Tuan Tran

So, I’m guessing the first thing you did was look at my comments section? Trust me, I will look at yours as well! 😂😂
I’m a divorced, single dad of 1. Educated, and work from home. Even though I’m new to the work from home life I have very much perfected my business on top, party down below zoom look! 🤠
I’m 5’10 brown hair, brown eyes, average build. I’m mixed but totally white washed, and white looking. I love spending time with my son, big baseball fan( sports in general) music, and live show lover. The beach gives me peace, and overall enjoy the simple things in life.
I’m looking for someone to connect, and have a possible relationship with. Please be in the US, and within a reasonable distance to California. I would like someone who puts effort in, won’t ghost after a couple of days( why do people do that) and someone (this is a biggie) PLEASE be interested in phone calls, and video chats. I don’t understand how people want to pursue something, and don’t want to do either of those. If you’re looking for strictly texting then I’m not the man for you. Also be single please, and know what you want. No games or bullshit. Please be ready to exchange pictures early on, and let’s move off of Reddit. Hope to hear from you!

Last night I played DMZ with one of my friends and it was his first time ever playing. About a minute into our second game we encounter another squad at the far north end of Al Mazrah by Taraq. We saw each other at a distance and I, not being too keen on getting into a gunfight that early, immediately called out friendly/blue, and the other team agreed. My friend immediately almost fucks up the truce when he didn’t realize one of them was a human player and shoots at him as I frantically try to call him off, he stopped shooting and I directed us away from them toward the UAV tower for one of his missions. I had already described to him how most player interactions in DMZ go sideways due to either someone faking friendly or a trigger happy squadmate ruining it and then it immediately almost happens to us. This wasn’t the real issue though. A few minutes later we grabbed a vehicle to head south and on the way out my friend hits one of the squad we’d just called a truce with. I realized any hope of peace was lost at that point so I said to just keep driving south at that point and I asked him if he realized those guys were a real squad. He replies “Yeah, I was trying to hit all three of them.” “What? Why? They said they were friendly!” “Why not?” That right there watching him in his first hour ever playing the game mode made me realize there’s just two kinds of people who play DMZ and that’s just the way it is.

I, 21 male, am looking into becoming a flight attendant in the US since I have loved plane rides since I was much younger. I have 14 tattoos, all which are very easily hidden by long sleeves and pants, and 9 piercings. I have 2 nose piercings and the rest are on my ears. I’m dreading having to take out the ear piercings since I absolutely love them.
I have my industrial, which is my favorite piercing - a bar on the top of my ear, and I absolutely do not want to take it out but I could if need be. Am I allowed to wear a plastic bar at all or just no piercings whatsoever?
TIA♥️

Earlier today, I sat with my wife and told her I want to divorce. We've been together over 20yrs and we've had so many amazing experiences together, so it broke my heart to tell her, but I know it needs to be done. She was devastated of course, but it very quickly turned to anger. She said I was selfish, that she was disappointed in me and that she was so angry that she wanted to punch me. Then she told me to get out of her sight. Shortly after, she went to stay with a friend and over the last few hours I have had moments where I felt calm, peaceful, then excited, then depressed, and eventually I felt like throwing up. Now my mood is picking up again and I feel quite content. Is this a normal way to react? It's so confusing. I feel like such a mess right now. I could use some guidance or kind words.

I played 50 or so games I never played before and here are the ones that grabbed me, I have not finish all of them but I have played these for a good amount of time and still am playing

1. Abzu

It's a journey like exploration game developed by the same development team, it's a calming peaceful experience you can play at your own pace and just relax too

1. Ancient Enemy

It's a story based card game where you solve card stacking puzzles like solitaire to build your attack, defence and spells and fight enemies in one on one duels

1. Breathedge

It's a humor filled survival game where you are standard in space, just you and your chicken collecting resources and surving while following the story

1. Creatures in the well

It's a adventure game with the primary gameplay inspired by breakout, you go in roguelike levels and use your weapons to hit and deflect energy balls

1. DARQ

It's a Dark 2D puzzle platform in the same vain as Limbo and Little Nightmare with interesting puzzles and solid atmosphere

1. Faeria

It's a one v one card game where you make a deck from a variety of different cards and fight the enemies by building land for your cards to spawn in while managing card economy and your energy each turn

1. Horizon Chase Turbo

It's an Arcade racer very much like the old Sega arcade racers with stylised 3D visuals and a race by race format, the controls are really well done

1. Pillers of Eternity

It's a Party based RPG where you manage a party of many heros in Real Time strategy battles, with deep character creation and a wide selection of dialogue choices

1. Redout

It's a F-Zero like racer with great visuals and a real sense of speed

1. Rogue Legacy

It needs no introduction, tho I skipped stright to Rogue Legacy 2 the original still holds up great being one of the pillers of indie rogue like scene

1. Slain: Back from hell

It's a pixel art, 2D action platformer with a lot of gore, solid controls and Combat

1. Speed Brawl

It's a 2D hand drawn Brawler where the emphasis is on getting through a stage as fast as possible

1. Tales of Neon Sea

It's a 2D pixel art, narritive focused mystry game set in a cyberpunk world where you analyse clues to unravel the truth

1. The first tree

Is a exploration type adventure game again comparable to something like journey where you play as a fox

1. Torchlight

It's a Story based RPG with persistent enemy death and a combat like Diablo with a lot of different weapon and spell choices

1. Void Bastards

It's a First Person Shooter with a Rogue like formula where you load onto a ship with objectives in mind and a limit amount of time, you have to achieve the objectives and extract before your time or health runs out
These are the basic summaries just to get people familiar with the games, I don't want to go in depth about 16 games in one post, hopefully someone finds something interesting here

Hi everyone, so as you could imagine I’m a bit in shock and I don’t know how to proceed. I don’t know how to change my mindset to what I know deep down is the truth. For background I just turned 20 but I have 2 close friends from high school who just graduated this year, let’s call them G and B.
So G had his grad party last night which I attended and B was also there. Everyone there was just drinking and having a good time. As the night progressed B became more intoxicated. Me and him are close but I’ve always been closer with G so we’re not all that affectionate together which is why it was weird when he started hugging on me while I was sitting down. He has me sit with him on the bed where he’s being super touchy and close. I’m a bit shocked by this so when he started kissing me I didn’t immediately shove him off. I was drunk and I was like whatever it’s just harmless kissing. Which it was, until it wasn’t.
He began to touch me pulling up my shirt and I stayed silent but when he moved to unbutton my jeans I said “B we can’t”. He kept insisting it was fine and that no one was going to come in but I just kept saying that I didn’t want to do that since he’s a close friend to me. B just kept insisting and at one point while we kept going back and forth he just unbuttoned my pants anyways and took them off along with my underwear. At this point the reality of what was happening kicked in and I sobered up. He was on top of me and I kept saying we can’t as he fingered me. Then at some point without me knowing he had taken his pants down and I felt him line up to me. I kept saying we can’t and that he didn’t have a condom on but he went and did it anyways. I was having sex with him and I was in shock how it got to this point.
B kept going for a minute or so until my best friend started knocking on the door. B told me to stay there and pulled his shorts up and went outside to my best friend and G. I just laid there half naked under the covers in shock. My best friend came in and she saw my face and knew something was wrong. I sat there with my hands covering my face since I was mortified. I zoned what she said but it was basically that he feels bad and that I’m safe and I should just go to sleep. I put underwear on and I was left there in the dark.
A few minutes pass and B comes back in apologizing like crazy. It’s funny because I actually believed he meant it in the moment. Saying how he literally assaulted me and that he feels bad. I believed him until touching began again. I said no we can’t repeatedly I really did. But when he put a condom on and moved my underwear out of the way and pushed into me I think I gave up. I just stared at the wall opposite of me hoping it’d end soon.
My best friends trying to act like it was all fine which I want to be mad but at the same time I understand. I want it all to be fine too. These are my closest friends, he is one of my closest friends and I don’t want everything to blow up. I let him kiss me I welcomed it so maybe in some illogical way that was me consenting. I wasn’t held down but I didn’t say yes either. I just can’t convince myself it could be rape. I’m just so lost.

I think John Wick 4 ended perfectly with him dying in peace. If they're gonna make another John Wick movie, it should be a prequel. In the prequel, I want to know what was John Wick's impossible task that he had to accomplish and what was Santino's involvement in it. Then we can go back to the early days where they explain more of Wick's backstory like why he changed his name from Jardani Jovonovich to John Wick. And why was he orphaned and who trained him and how he came into the underworld. We can also explore the brotherhood between Koji, John and Caine in their younger days. Also keep in mind that we have never seen John Wick in his prime so that'd be badass to see. I'll be a 100% for it as long as Derek Kolstad is writing it.

Hi
How are you?
You know how you want to be bowled over and think, whoa, I think I've found my exact match who just fits me so well, it's like we're made for each other?
Yeah, let's find out.
We're not talking perfection or anything, just a really great match that makes our lives seem like our own little Heaven on earth. At least we try and make it that way every day.
With that in mind, here's who I am and what I'm looking for.

• I'm attractive and keep in shape. I'm not everyone's cup of tea, but most women have described me as attractive, some have said handsome, more than a few have said hot. I'll take it. And some not so much. They probably needed glasses ;)
  
• I'm confident and assertive without being an a-hole or a d-bag.
  
• I work hard and smart. I don't like to waste time. Unless it's intentional in a sit on the porch and enjoy the evening air kinda "wasting" time.
  
• I believe a man should provide. Am I going to shower you with gifts and you be my little sugar baby? NO. Will I work and provide while you stay home if that's your dream (as long as staying home involves you working and doing your part)? Yes. If you want a career, will I work with that and we split household duties? Yes. Will I surprise you on occasion with a thoughtful gift or something I think you'll cherish? I will. But if you're looking for a life of luxury and a meal ticket, I'm not your man.
  
• I'm funny and witty and have a great sense of humor. I should do stand up. I have my moments and I'm fairly certain you and I will share many belly laughs and tears streaming down our faces moments. Or seeing that cute little smile cross your face because I blurted out something you found funny, witty, endearing or even a little crazy in a good way. I'm cool like that.
  
• I'm a Christian and my faith is important to me.
  
• I'm a good blend of thoughtful and considerate but won't put up with your crap and will put you in your place.
  
• I'm on the dominant side and will lead you well. Not the overbearing, you be my doormat and I'll degrade you as I wipe my feet on you. I mean, I could be, but I'm not sure how well you'll keep my feet clean. We seem to have names and titles for everything. Hard dom, soft dom, this or that. I'm just dominant. In the best way.
  
• I'm right wing. Conservative. A little populist. Traditional. Old school. However you want to say it.
  

Here's what I want in you:

• You're fit and attractive. Not in a if I squint my eyes and the sun hits you just right you look kinda ok, but cute! Attractive. Hot. I find your face and body appealing. I mean, give me something to work with. I do like a woman with a flat or toned stomach. I could love you to no end and be committed like no other, but I can't get it up for a chubby or fat girl. Sorry. We all have our things. Please be committed to keeping the best body you can and staying in shape. Whether that's healthy(ier) eating, working out, whatever it takes. Just don't let yourself go and be a woman who loves looking good for her man!
  
• You're naturally obedient. Or submissive if you prefer that term. You're a woman who when your man makes a decision, you support and obey it. You treat your man's word as law.
  

Now, a quick note: I like a woman who shares her ideas and opinions and sees if something holds water when I say what I want done. Not in a sarcastic tone or questioning way, but tactfully and politely. If there's something you wrestle with, let me know. Ask if I've considered this or that, or give me a different perspective to consider. Or just as good, offer an alternative. Say I want to obey you and I will, but would be ok if I... (fill in the blank with your alternative idea) to try and get that same result for you?
Something like that. And if you're the quiet type and just want to obey without much input, I can work with that.

• You're a Christian and/or very open to learning and following what God says in the Bible. It'll be our guide, our road map for living our lives.
  
• You are very, very pro-sex. You can be a virgin or very experienced. If the former, you have no hang ups about sex because I won't be in a dead bedroom. Hopefully you have a very high sexual drive. That's relative, as what's "high" to one person may not be to another, but you're committed to meeting your man's needs.
  

Note: Be willing to talk about sex and answer any number of questions. Ask any you have. Sex is essential in a great marriage, and we need to know if we're compatible with our desires and preferences and what we expect or are looking for. If you're less experienced or a virgin, no worries. There are still things to talk about.

• You're looking for a serious and long term relationship. Marriage, eventually. Because I am.
  
• You're on the conservative side politically. Great relationships can be had with each other on opposite sides, but it does make it harder and more work.
  
• You love to please and cater to your man. It makes you feel good to serve and help and find ways to do things that makes your man's life better in every way.
  

This is getting long and you're not reading fast enough.
You should already be thinking of what you're going to say to me and stand out from the other women.
Hints: I love honesty. It's essential to me. I love longer replies (not just the first ones, but any). Not every one has to be some mini-novel but you get what I'm saying. I love details. I mean, I don't need the "I had this sandwich at 12:32 and it didn't sit well with me, and my boss has this habit where he walks the hall and I keep my door partially open so..."
More like you just fill me in who you are, what you believe, what you like or love, what you want in relationships, anything. "I love swimming, I try to go 2-3 times a week and mountain biking is almost my thing. I went on this trail the other day and it was..."
Or "OMG you described me to a T. You mentioned being obedient and loving to serve my man and I'm like, hey, if he only knew! I'm throwing up a hand here and making my way to the front of the line so you notice me because (fill in the blank with things you love to do)
OR the super honest route:
"You know what, there are prettier girls (I'm doing ok in that area, though ;) and I don't have all of what you're looking for but I do have (list the things you have) and most would probably win if you compared us in some of the things you listed, but I can say that no one will outwork me, no other woman will be as committed to you, or do her best to make your life better in whatever way I can, or love you like crazy (we'll get there) or not let myself go and try and look good. Those things I can control. So if you're looking for an "average" girl but who can offer extraordinary in some ways, and treat you like a king, you may want to write me back. We could have the best relationship!"
You get the idea.
I work odd hours sometimes.
So if you write me (and you should), don't disappear if you don't hear from me right away, or even in a few hours. I will find you. I will write and we'll begin our first chapter in what is hopefully, a wonderful romance that fills us with joy, love, happiness and a peace because we've found that right match for us.
Message or chat. Hit that button and tell me about you. Age and location and anything you want to share. Be willing to trade pics very soon.

How I relate (or don't relate) to all types

1. I tend to find corrections for things, and when I feel triggered by something, I may find ways on how to improve things. It's almost a natural tendency. I see a typo, I correct it in my head. I see that the menu in a restaurant is poorly designed, I propose ideas for improvement. I really fear being a bad person so I have to approach sensitive situations in a proper manner, or I may regret it after many years, as I tend to remember every bad experience, and I often end up regretting because I'm not careful enough. Much of my anger is internalized and while I don't appear critical from outside, I'm very self-critical, mainly because I see myself as rather flawed and everyone else is better than me. If I make a mistake, depending on the mistake, I may calmly fix it in one go, try to get over it by myself, or feel like a horrible person because of what I have done in the outer world. At my worst, I tend to see myself as flawed, defective, dysfunctional, and possibly mentally ill. At my best, I become more joyful, productive, and independent. I relate to the SP variant of 1 the most. I am not much of a hard worker, as I play hard, but I have some OCD-like tendencies such as checking to ensure everything is OK, and ruminating to find solutions because if I don't fret, I may easily forget and the problems will eventually find me harshly. That's why I'm so insecure because of my forgetfulness of important stuff. Writing down my worries has started helping me but I'm doing such a disgrace to myself because I really appear outwardly anxious, and everyone will be repulsed by that trait alone even if I have 50 desirable traits. I really need to practice self-compassion.
2. This isn't one of the types I consider myself, but I may really appear like a type 2 from an outside observer. I really care about being well-liked, and I would hate to be the one who is globally disliked. I am not really proactive when it comes to helping others but when there's an help request, I may reluctantly take the opportunity to help the other person because it's the good thing to do. Not helping may cause conflict and as a result, feeling defective and anxious. I am almost never seen as manipulative or possesive though so 2 (and 8) are not the types which I regularly consider. Relationships are important but it wasn't my main focus throughout my life as I was more directed towards curiosity and intellectual interests rather than people and relationships, and I pride myself on my individualism.
3. One of my biggest fears is being seen my others as a loser, and seeing myself as a worthless loser as well. I'm not really proactive and single-minded when it comes to being goal-oriented but I have my moments when I was more goal-oriented and accomplishing instead of just drifting, I feel happier and more productive. I care about external image but I may be forgetful about actually maintaining it, prefering to spontaneously adapt it instead. I may care a lot about social status, so I end up forgetting what is actually good for me, and whether or not I should actually pursue such popularity or success. I may be blinded by the prestige and fame as a result, and I end up feeling ashamed and dissatisfied with my own position even if I am just as accomplished, the grass is always greener on the other side. I care a lot about self-improvement and being the best version of myself, and I do the same thing for others. At my worst, I can really envy others and see everyone as high-class entrepreneur while myself as a village idiot who is completely defeated in life. Considering my ideal self, I become more competitive with myself and less with others, and I highly appreciate others' successes. I haven’t really considered myself as showy, and I can sometimes be too humble, but I can be rather showy when I’m trying to “prove” something or when I want ot appear cooler.
4. I am preoccupied with my identity and my flaws almost every day, to the point that I considered depression but it’s not the case. I have alwasy felt like I was less capable than others, so I felt different from others. Maybe because of my shorter height (which is just average actually) and I romanticise being tall so much that I have considered height surgery. I really envy others who seem to have an easier life because of their height, personality, status, location, or successes. I have even envied others who are not inhaling tobacco smoke as if second-hand smoking makes you inferior to others, mainly because of health risks. When I see heart disease statistics, I may envy others who don't need to worry about heart disease as much as I do because of unchangeable correlations, but I noticed that it's just hypochondria. I don't try to make others suffer but I really make myself suffer. I am utterly obsessed with enneagram/MBTI because I want to relate my identity in a bite-sized form and I also want to improve myself, and have fun relating to memes but I just can't seem to find my own type because I fit into basically everything, or nothing. I don't emphasize melancholy purposefully, but I really see myself as a melancholic old soul even if others disagree with my perception entirely. I think I relate to 6 more than 4 but SP 4 is still possible.
5. Throughout my life, I struggled with feeling less capable and more inept than others even if proven otherwise, mainly physical abilities, so I enjoyed PE classes more when I can be free to do whatever I want instead of playing a team sport. I really enjoy calisthenics and swimming as forms of exercise to improve myself, my health, my self-image, and to fight my negative emotions. I wasn't very talkative because I simply didn't find the right place for conversation during middle school. I was also bullied so that's why I felt weak and insignificant, which it added up to my low self-esteem. I have seeked information and saw it as more important than my physical needs, and I remember reading a science magazine and getting off the table ot read more and when my mouth is empty, I eat again. My interests may have been impractical but also very interesting. I became more talkative, social, and expressive over time but I'm still prizing individuality and independence. I really liked my alone time, sometimes more than socializing, so I may sometimes feel superior to others who don't really like alone time at all. I guess I have gathered information because 1- it's interesting, fun, and I love trying new things, and 2- I felt the need to feel more capable, if I can't be physically capable, then I'll invest in my brain instead. (which is actually fading and nowadays, I really value physical activity and sports, though it's still brain over brawn but more like having both)
6. I have felt like I'm a rather weak person because of my height, getting bullied, and many other factors. I was always safety-conscious but I'm combating this tendency by seeking new risks. I definitely wasn't the person who had done too many dangerous things but I have to admit that I have done them more than I initially thought. I tend to appear outwardly anxious but I hide my anxiety as much as possible to appear more desirable and approachable, but it just makes me more anxious until I actually appear outwardly anxious. I have always tried to find new ways to handle anxiety, such as writing my worries down, embracing worry instead of trying to fight against it, doing something I fear to feel confident, and many others. I have loads of fear of punishment, and while I may see myself as a diligent rule-follower, this is not always the case, in fact, I was quite rebellious at many times, especially if it didn't involve people. I was pretty conflict-avoidant though with people to not get into trouble but I was relatively unconcerned with seeking support from others unless I'm really anxious about something and even then, I primarily rely on myself first, then I turn into outer sources such as the Internet and then, I resort to other people around me. At my worst, I can easily be worry-driven and unable to see anything beyond it. At my best, I feel more relaxed, optimistic, joyful, and willing to try ot everything. I may avoid doing certain stuff because sudden worry can ruin the enjoyment of the moment. I am also rather indecisive and wanting to try out everything but at the same time, needing to choose the best option because it feels like we'll never come to the same place again. I also tend to be in extremes pretty often even though I would like to be more moderate in things.
7. I have to admit that I can be rather pleasure-seeking at times, and forget the essentials because of that. My grades used to suffer because of that but I relied on my ability to get things done fast last-minute to keep myself up. I put a lot of emphasis on positivity but I can end up being too negative myself, and feel lke being negative is wrong. I have a reputaton for being great at hard things but with easy and menial stuff, I may mess it up. I have had my rebellious moments mainly to discover something new with insatiable curiosity, such as drop-testing my items, mixing various bathing stuff, trying out private servers, and fascinating space simulators. However, while I'm considered as adventurous and curious, I'm not considered optimistic and always upbeat, which is far more important for being a 7. At my best, I am up for anything, and my ideal is to just have fun instead of being concerned about winning/losing. Basically, I work hard and play hard. At my worst, I criticize myself for not being careful or responsible enough. During my whole life, I pursued my interests and while I cared a lot about doing what I should first, I just end up instinctively do what I want first. Satisfaction and contentment is important, and I fear being deprived and trapped in pain, such as prison or death. While I'm not aggressive in a conventional sense, I may quietly do "stuff" to get what I want in order to avoid conflict but then, I may feel guilty if I feel like I don't deserve it.
8. This isn't one of the types I regularly consider. I'm way more likely to be an SX 6. But I absolutely hate doing things just because someone else told me to do it out of nowhere. It's such a disgrace for me, and it makes me feel inferior. Other than that, I can't really relate to 8's, maybe SO 8 is possible but nothing else. Oh, and I can be rather intense but not directly aggressive, and I don't express anger outwardly either.
9. I can be pretty conflict-avoidant because I don't want to feel defective, a bad person, or just ruin the enjoyment and peace. I am considered as adaptable, and I see myself in many types at once. I am more overly peaceful than overly violent, and I care a lot about likeability. I just hate hurting others and it makes me feel evil when I hurt them purposefully. When I hurt others accidentally, it may cause self-criticism about my ability to get along with others, and consider myself as mean or rude or selfish. But I don't relate to many of the 9 traits. For example, I'm more likely to maginfy some problems, and minimize others instead of being consistently minimizing. Which I can be positive, I can also be rather reactive and have a loud voice on accident. I sometimes feel lazy about starting because of my pleasure-seeking attitudes. I also relate to the stress arrow of the 9, as my mind starts racing out of nowhere. As for the 3 arrow, at my best, I become more productive and finally able to take action. I'm also pretty interested in things which are disturbing but I don't really talk about them to my friends unless it's already the topic, and even then, I may shift it into something more pleasant and joyful instead. I only really talk about my deepest negative reactions and fears with my family whereas with my friends, I prefer keeping things pleasant as much as possible, and hide any flaw to the point that I can be rather internally anxious about it.

Don't get me started with God...
Anyways this is my huge truama towards religion...here it is👇
People of Christian faith always blame me or say something really terrible then the people that's not really of the so-called Faith
My pastor (from a another church ) told me that my rape it's gonna keep happening until I give my life to God.
And my sister friend from church basically told me that I let him rape me.
I really wanna cry because it like thoses people like that are only faking like they really care, just to force me to get into their faith.
Imma tell you how many times I've been raped... And etc...
I was raped 3 times (3 different times from 3 different guys), sexual corecion 3 times.. and to be honest I think I miss counting...I think it's more... I just don't wanna stop and actually think about each incident.
and for the rape part just add one more for ex bf.
Most of my rapes was basically by strangers and ( only a couple people that I basically saw in my neighborhood alot or someone I hangout out alot–(But I didn't really know them ….
The only person that I really knew was.… was my ex, bf..
( My ex bf is the only person I basically knew before he raped me.)
(And I truly feel like GOD DON'T CARE.. ABOUT RAPE OR ANYTHING LIKE IT.... )
(I HONESTLY JUST STAY IN THE FAITH BECAUSE I SO SCARED OF GOING TO HELL...
WHICH MAKES ME THINK THAT I HAVE
RELIGIOUS TRAUMA SYNDROME....
(IN NOT SURE... BUT IM BASICALLY SCARED TO DEATH TO LEAVE YE FAITH...(BECAUSE OF FEAR OF HELL....)
BUT I HONESTLY DON'T THINK THE BIBLE GOD CARES ABOUT RAPE... I REALLY THINKS THAT HE CONDONES IT.... AND OR DO ALOT OF GENOCIDE STUFF...
(Like I free like... My only free will now is my true opinions about GOD... And most of my opinions about him is not good....)
But I stay in the faith so I would go to hell...
And I have night terrors.....(while I'm awake..)
Because I get so scared and paranoid that I'm dying and thinking that The GOD of the bible is gonna send me to hell...
(So I constantly pray forgiveness... And pray for my ex bf ( that I really believe raped me..)
I pray for my ex--- (because in the bible is says this:
MATTEW 5:44
I SAY UNTO YOU,LOVE YOUR ENEMIES
AND LUKE 6:28
Bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you.
So I don't just that... (I pray for my rapist... And I pray that he'll be ok and etc... By God..
(I really think my religious truma is getting worse.....)
Now I hear voices in my head... Like screaming people...(sorry if I starting to sound crazy..)
(I'm so scared..)--- I really feel like no matter what I do... I feel like I'm unforgivable....
And since I'm so scared that I might die... (I basically stay up all night...until 5am...---(around 5am...that's when I feel safe... And that's when I think GOD is not gonna hurt me..
And plus:👇👇👇
Yeah... And it completely sucks....(this Christain GOD is literally taking my joy away from life.
(Every since I gave my life to GOD/Jesus.)--- I HOPE TO DIE EVERYDAY ------BECAUSE OF HOW MISERABLE MY LIFE IS NOW.---( I GET SO SCARED AT NIGHT THINKING THAT IMMA DIE---I ASK HIM FOR FORGIVENESS LIKE EVERY SINGLE SECOND.)---AND I FORCE MYSELF TO STAY UP ALL NIGHT STARTING FROM 9 OR 10PM. ALL THE WAY TO 5 OR SOMETIMES 6 AM.
I FEEL SO SCARED AT NIGHT TIME BECAUSE THE SKY IS DARK AND FEEL LIKE IF I SIN... IMMA GO TO HELL THAT NIGHT.
BUT IN THE MORNINGS I FEEL MOSTLY SAFE AND I BASICALLY DON'T WORRY AT ABOUT THE WHOLE GOD THING..(BUT INSTEAD I ACTUALLY KEEP HOW I ACTUALLY FEEL ABOUT GOD–(THAT I DON'T LIKE HOM AND ETF, IN MY MIF BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE THAT STILL THE REAL ME VERSES BEING A ZOMBIE AND SERVING GOD.---(I FEEL SAFE THINKING LIKE THIS—BUT ONLY IN THE MORNINGS THOUGH.
AND SOMEDAYS WHEN ACTUALLY WATCH VIDEOS OF PEOPLE THAT STOP BEING CHRISTIAN AND TURN COMPLETELY AWAY FROM THE CHRISTIAN GOD, ---THEY SEEM SO HAPPY AND IN PEACE AND I REALLY HOPE TO BE LIKE THAT ONEDAY WITHOUT FEAR OF GOING TO HELL.
THOSES VIDEOS GIVES ME COMPLETE PEACE/ AND HOPE IN MY SOUL WHEN I IMAGINE GOD OF THE CHRISTIAN BIBLE IS NOT REAL AND STUFF…..---(BUT WHEN IT NIGHT TIME---I FEEL LIKE IM IN HELL ALL OVER AGAIN..---SCARED TO DEATH I STAT TO PRAY TO JESUS AND START ASKING FORGIVING MY SINS…..
AND THIS GOES ON EVERY NIGHT....(EVER SINCE I GAVE MY LIFE TO GOD/JESUS.)---MY LIFE HAS ACTUALLY BEEN HELL .. LIKE FOR REAL.---(MENTALLY)
AND SOMETIMES I CAN'T LOOK AT LIGHTS ON THE CEILING BECAUSE —(I DON'T HAVE MY GLASSES RIGHT NOW, AND THE LIGHTS LOOK REALLY BLURRY,---(AND I STARTED TO THINK IM DYING BECAUSE OF HOW BLURRY MY VISION AND HOW THE LIGHTS LOOK LIKE… —( WHEN I WAS AT THE POOL WITH MY TWIN SISTER, I HAD FUN UNTIL I NOTICED THE LIGHTS IN THE BUILDING LOOKED BLURRY)----I GOT SO SCARED I COULDN'T EVEN HAVE FUN AT THE POOL AND I WANTED TO LEAVE IMMEDIATELY!!!---THIS IS BASICALLY THE FIRST TIME I HAD MY EXTREME ANXIETY ATTACK ABOUT GOD IN THE MORNING.---I NEVER REALLY HAVE ANXIETY/FEAR OF HELL UNTIL NIGHT TIME… BUT THE FIRST TIME IN THE MORNING WAS AT THE POOL WITH MY TWIN SISTER….--(WHEN I SAW THE LIGHTS ON THE CEILING LOOKED BLURRY)
THIS IS COMPLETE TORTURE!!!!!!
I WANT MY REAL LIFE BACK!!!!---BUT SINCE IM SOOO SCARED OF GOING TO HELL I JUST STAY IN THE FAITH.
(Even though deep down I would wanna leave SO BAD)--LEAVE COMPLETELY AND NEVER TURN BACK.
IM SO DEPRESSED NOW, I'M LOSING WEIGHT, AND LOSING ALOT OF NIGHT SLEEPS,----I ONLY SLEEP IN THE MORNINGS NOW.😭😭😭😭.
TW: DEATH THOUGHTS/NOT SUICIDE THOUGHTS THOUGH!!!
I'M SO MISERABLE I HAVE THOUGHTS OF WHAT IF I DIE--THEN MAYBE THIS TORTURE WOULD BE OVER.
I honestly don't feel like I have a choice:( if I walk away from the Jesus God)
Then I go to hell.
I just want this to be over....

How I relate (or don't relate) to all types

1. I tend to find corrections for things, and when I feel triggered by something, I may find ways on how to improve things. It's almost a natural tendency. I see a typo, I correct it in my head. I see that the menu in a restaurant is poorly designed, I propose ideas for improvement. I really fear being a bad person so I have to approach sensitive situations in a proper manner, or I may regret it after many years, as I tend to remember every bad experience, and I often end up regretting because I'm not careful enough. Much of my anger is internalized and while I don't appear critical from outside, I'm very self-critical, mainly because I see myself as rather flawed and everyone else is better than me. If I make a mistake, depending on the mistake, I may calmly fix it in one go, try to get over it by myself, or feel like a horrible person because of what I have done in the outer world. At my worst, I tend to see myself as flawed, defective, dysfunctional, and possibly mentally ill. At my best, I become more joyful, productive, and independent. I relate to the SP variant of 1 the most. I am not much of a hard worker, as I play hard, but I have some OCD-like tendencies such as checking to ensure everything is OK, and ruminating to find solutions because if I don't fret, I may easily forget and the problems will eventually find me harshly. That's why I'm so insecure because of my forgetfulness of important stuff. Writing down my worries has started helping me but I'm doing such a disgrace to myself because I really appear outwardly anxious, and everyone will be repulsed by that trait alone even if I have 50 desirable traits. I really need to practice self-compassion.
2. This isn't one of the types I consider myself, but I may really appear like a type 2 from an outside observer. I really care about being well-liked, and I would hate to be the one who is globally disliked. I am not really proactive when it comes to helping others but when there's an help request, I may reluctantly take the opportunity to help the other person because it's the good thing to do. Not helping may cause conflict and as a result, feeling defective and anxious. I am almost never seen as manipulative or possesive though so 2 (and 8) are not the types which I regularly consider. Relationships are important but it wasn't my main focus throughout my life as I was more directed towards curiosity and intellectual interests rather than people and relationships, and I pride myself on my individualism.
3. One of my biggest fears is being seen my others as a loser, and seeing myself as a worthless loser as well. I'm not really proactive and single-minded when it comes to being goal-oriented but I have my moments when I was more goal-oriented and accomplishing instead of just drifting, I feel happier and more productive. I care about external image but I may be forgetful about actually maintaining it, prefering to spontaneously adapt it instead. I may care a lot about social status, so I end up forgetting what is actually good for me, and whether or not I should actually pursue such popularity or success. I may be blinded by the prestige and fame as a result, and I end up feeling ashamed and dissatisfied with my own position even if I am just as accomplished, the grass is always greener on the other side. I care a lot about self-improvement and being the best version of myself, and I do the same thing for others. At my worst, I can really envy others and see everyone as high-class entrepreneur while myself as a village idiot who is completely defeated in life. Considering my ideal self, I become more competitive with myself and less with others, and I highly appreciate others' successes. I haven’t really considered myself as showy, and I can sometimes be too humble, but I can be rather showy when I’m trying to “prove” something or when I want ot appear cooler.
4. I am preoccupied with my identity and my flaws almost every day, to the point that I considered depression but it’s not the case. I have alwasy felt like I was less capable than others, so I felt different from others. Maybe because of my shorter height (which is just average actually) and I romanticise being tall so much that I have considered height surgery. I really envy others who seem to have an easier life because of their height, personality, status, location, or successes. I have even envied others who are not inhaling tobacco smoke as if second-hand smoking makes you inferior to others, mainly because of health risks. When I see heart disease statistics, I may envy others who don't need to worry about heart disease as much as I do because of unchangeable correlations, but I noticed that it's just hypochondria. I don't try to make others suffer but I really make myself suffer. I am utterly obsessed with enneagram/MBTI because I want to relate my identity in a bite-sized form and I also want to improve myself, and have fun relating to memes but I just can't seem to find my own type because I fit into basically everything, or nothing. I don't emphasize melancholy purposefully, but I really see myself as a melancholic old soul even if others disagree with my perception entirely. I think I relate to 6 more than 4 but SP 4 is still possible.
5. Throughout my life, I struggled with feeling less capable and more inept than others even if proven otherwise, mainly physical abilities, so I enjoyed PE classes more when I can be free to do whatever I want instead of playing a team sport. I really enjoy calisthenics and swimming as forms of exercise to improve myself, my health, my self-image, and to fight my negative emotions. I wasn't very talkative because I simply didn't find the right place for conversation during middle school. I was also bullied so that's why I felt weak and insignificant, which it added up to my low self-esteem. I have seeked information and saw it as more important than my physical needs, and I remember reading a science magazine and getting off the table ot read more and when my mouth is empty, I eat again. My interests may have been impractical but also very interesting. I became more talkative, social, and expressive over time but I'm still prizing individuality and independence. I really liked my alone time, sometimes more than socializing, so I may sometimes feel superior to others who don't really like alone time at all. I guess I have gathered information because 1- it's interesting, fun, and I love trying new things, and 2- I felt the need to feel more capable, if I can't be physically capable, then I'll invest in my brain instead. (which is actually fading and nowadays, I really value physical activity and sports, though it's still brain over brawn but more like having both)
6. I have felt like I'm a rather weak person because of my height, getting bullied, and many other factors. I was always safety-conscious but I'm combating this tendency by seeking new risks. I definitely wasn't the person who had done too many dangerous things but I have to admit that I have done them more than I initially thought. I tend to appear outwardly anxious but I hide my anxiety as much as possible to appear more desirable and approachable, but it just makes me more anxious until I actually appear outwardly anxious. I have always tried to find new ways to handle anxiety, such as writing my worries down, embracing worry instead of trying to fight against it, doing something I fear to feel confident, and many others. I have loads of fear of punishment, and while I may see myself as a diligent rule-follower, this is not always the case, in fact, I was quite rebellious at many times, especially if it didn't involve people. I was pretty conflict-avoidant though with people to not get into trouble but I was relatively unconcerned with seeking support from others unless I'm really anxious about something and even then, I primarily rely on myself first, then I turn into outer sources such as the Internet and then, I resort to other people around me. At my worst, I can easily be worry-driven and unable to see anything beyond it. At my best, I feel more relaxed, optimistic, joyful, and willing to try ot everything. I may avoid doing certain stuff because sudden worry can ruin the enjoyment of the moment. I am also rather indecisive and wanting to try out everything but at the same time, needing to choose the best option because it feels like we'll never come to the same place again. I also tend to be in extremes pretty often even though I would like to be more moderate in things.
7. I have to admit that I can be rather pleasure-seeking at times, and forget the essentials because of that. My grades used to suffer because of that but I relied on my ability to get things done fast last-minute to keep myself up. I put a lot of emphasis on positivity but I can end up being too negative myself, and feel lke being negative is wrong. I have a reputaton for being great at hard things but with easy and menial stuff, I may mess it up. I have had my rebellious moments mainly to discover something new with insatiable curiosity, such as drop-testing my items, mixing various bathing stuff, trying out private servers, and fascinating space simulators. However, while I'm considered as adventurous and curious, I'm not considered optimistic and always upbeat, which is far more important for being a 7. At my best, I am up for anything, and my ideal is to just have fun instead of being concerned about winning/losing. Basically, I work hard and play hard. At my worst, I criticize myself for not being careful or responsible enough. During my whole life, I pursued my interests and while I cared a lot about doing what I should first, I just end up instinctively do what I want first. Satisfaction and contentment is important, and I fear being deprived and trapped in pain, such as prison or death. While I'm not aggressive in a conventional sense, I may quietly do "stuff" to get what I want in order to avoid conflict but then, I may feel guilty if I feel like I don't deserve it.
8. This isn't one of the types I regularly consider. I'm way more likely to be an SX 6. But I absolutely hate doing things just because someone else told me to do it out of nowhere. It's such a disgrace for me, and it makes me feel inferior. Other than that, I can't really relate to 8's, maybe SO 8 is possible but nothing else. Oh, and I can be rather intense but not directly aggressive, and I don't express anger outwardly either.
9. I can be pretty conflict-avoidant because I don't want to feel defective, a bad person, or just ruin the enjoyment and peace. I am considered as adaptable, and I see myself in many types at once. I am more overly peaceful than overly violent, and I care a lot about likeability. I just hate hurting others and it makes me feel evil when I hurt them purposefully. When I hurt others accidentally, it may cause self-criticism about my ability to get along with others, and consider myself as mean or rude or selfish. But I don't relate to many of the 9 traits. For example, I'm more likely to maginfy some problems, and minimize others instead of being consistently minimizing. Which I can be positive, I can also be rather reactive and have a loud voice on accident. I sometimes feel lazy about starting because of my pleasure-seeking attitudes. I also relate to the stress arrow of the 9, as my mind starts racing out of nowhere. As for the 3 arrow, at my best, I become more productive and finally able to take action. I'm also pretty interested in things which are disturbing but I don't really talk about them to my friends unless it's already the topic, and even then, I may shift it into something more pleasant and joyful instead. I only really talk about my deepest negative reactions and fears with my family whereas with my friends, I prefer keeping things pleasant as much as possible, and hide any flaw to the point that I can be rather internally anxious about it.