My (21M)friend is in a relationship and I (21F) now have feelings for him which I cannot say.
So we have been friends since our teenage. He used to be so introvet around everyone but we are really close to each other as I am the only friend he has. There is a (21F) girl who used to like him from their first semester so now they are in relationship for more than a year.
After them being in relationship I lost my connection with him due to my feelings. He used to share everything that happened with his new girlfriend with me so it became harder for me. I didn't know I had strange feeling for him like I have been left out alone. Now a days we dont talk often and our relationship has changed drastically.
I used to think of him as a friend for life but don't know if it's gonna last for the next 2 or 3 years. I'm scared to say about my feeling to him perhaps it's gonna ruin more and be complicated. What can I do about it? How can I move on? Any advice to leave it and move on?

hi. so i (18f) met this girl (let’s call her A) on tiktok in april 2022. she was my age . we began talking romantically in july (started officially dating in september) and we talked every day. she lives in canada and i live in the USA so it was online. however she would not facetime me. she would send me videos of herself talking a lot though. every time i would bring up facetime she would start sobbing and she only ended up telling me that it was because her ex boyfriend shot himself on facetime with her. i understood, of course, and i believed her because she would sob every time we would discuss it. flash forward to february, this girl (lets call her K) follows me on tiktok and starts talking to me and trying to be my friend. so i was fine with that and we would text and occasionally facetime. A and i broke up in february but K told me she was getting messages from A about how distraught she was over the breakup and we got back together. the facetime thing started to be more and more of an issue for me and 2 weeks agoi told her if she ever wants to meet she would have to facetime me because no way is anybody in my life going to go let me meet up with someone i’ve never facetimed. and she wouldn’t do it. she would break down crying and i understood but i told her that we shouldn’t be together because facetime is a need for me. we flirted for a little and then we stopped talking for a few days. yesterday i texted her and saw i was blocked. K had been texting me and i called her and i noticed how much her voice sounded like A’s (which i had noticed before but brushed off because they had different phone numbers ) and so finally i checked the area code on her phone number. it wasn’t a Canadian one it was a florida area code which is where K lives. i gently and calmly told K that she needed to tell me if she was A and that we could figure it out and discuss it. eventually she told me that her and her best friend had been catfishing me. her best friend, A was doing sexual things with me and sexting and sending nudes and she was the one sending videos and pics of her face. however K was the one calling me for hours daily and texting me. she told me occasionally A would text me because they had a shared imessage account. i’m sick to my stomach. i blocked them both. how do i move on? how do i cope?

Playing support in low master is really suffering. Many games are not even playable and it is super easy to go back to diamond. I tried to learn many advanced mechanics but none of these helps me to save a losing game. Can someone from higher rank explain how you managed to escape low master?

This post was inspired by u/garbageslutt 's post a few days ago. Since I have a little time on my hands, I've decided to reflect on my undergrad experience here and share a couple of opinions on the courses I took. Hopefully, future students will find this post helpful. For each course, I will share the course average, my opinion on the difficulty (on a scale of 1-5 with 5 being the most difficult) and my opinion on the overall quality of the course (also on a scale of 1-5 with 5 indicating a course I enjoyed a lot). My difficulty ranking is relative to other courses on this list, and your experience may vary depending on the instructor.
YEAR 1 (Fall 2019-Winter 2020, fall term fully in person, winter term online after March)
ECO101H1-F (Average: C+, Difficulty: 3, Quality: 3.5)
This is probably an unpopular opinion, but I enjoyed this course. The course material was pretty interesting and the lecturer (Michael Ho) was pretty good. Concepts were straightforward and the math required was pretty trivial. The only downside is that the tests were quite long and a little unreasonable for a first year course.
HPS120H1-F (Average: B, Difficulty: 1.5, Quality: 3)
I took this course to satisfy my BR2 requirement and wasn't expecting much out of it. The course was less boring than I expected though. The course instructor (Fermin Fulda) was very knowledgeable on the subject and the evaluations were fair. I didn't really enjoy the last part of the course material, but that's just because I don't really enjoy biology at all.
HPS210H1-F (Average: B-, Difficulty: 1, Quality: 2)
I also took this course to finish my breadth requirements. This course was very boring, but very easy. The lecturer (Brian Baigrie) mostly reads off his slides (which are just paragraphs copied from his book). He wrote the course textbook himself, but forces us to buy it using Tophat. This course was basically a "pay to get good marks" course.
MAT137Y1-Y (Average: C+, Difficulty: 5, Quality: 5)
This was the hardest first year course I took by far. The material was very interesting though and the instructor (Asif Zaman) was amazing. The problem sets are hard, but we got a lot of time to do them, so its manageable if you start early.
MAT223H1-F (Average: C+, Difficulty: 2.5, Quality: 3)
This is one of the easiest math courses I took in all four years. The material is pretty boring but very important for upper year courses. My instructor was a pretty monotone grad student. Tests were fair and straightforward as long as you did the practice tests posted. This was one of the few courses where the posted practice tests were harder than the actual tests (instead of the other way around).
CSC108H1-S (Average: B+, Difficulty: 1.5, Quality: 4)
A very beginner friendly (and practical) introductory coding course. I went into the course with no programming experience and got a really good mark. The instructor (Paul Gries) was very nice and very active on Piazza. Assignments are long if you've never coded before, but we got a lot of time to work on them. Workload is manageable if you start assignments early.
ECO102H1-S (Average: B-, Difficulty: 3, Quality: 2.5)
This course was very boring and made me change my mind about taking more ECO courses in the future. The instructor's (Nathaniel Vellekoop) lectures were okay, but pretty boring. Like ECO101, the tests were unreasonably long.
MUS111H1-S (Average: B, Difficulty: 1.5, Quality: 3)
I took this course because I had background knowledge in classical music. The course was okay, but I found MUS207 to be more interesting (I'll talk more about that course later). Exams were fair and the essay was marked quite leniently. I'm not a good writer and I got a decent mark in this course.
STA130H1-S (Average: B, Difficulty: 1.5, Quality: 3.5)
This course is an introduction to R, which is used quite frequently in upper year STA courses. It isn't that important because R is covered/reviewed in upper year courses, but its a good introduction for students with little/no coding experience. The instructor (Liza Bolton) was good at explaining concepts and I enjoyed her lectures. The only thing that sucked about this course was the mandatory two hour tutorials that were pretty useless.
YEAR 2 (Fall 2020-Winter 2021, online)
ACT240H1-F (Average: C+, Difficulty: 3.5, Quality: 3.5)
The whole course is on the time value of money. If you understand the first third of the course well, you should be able to get a decent mark. The test format is what makes this course tricky. The tests are long and mostly multiple choice. One wrong intermediate step and you may get 0 on a 10 point question. Regular practice to ensure computational speed and accuracy is key to success in this course.
MAT224H1-F (Average: C+, Difficulty: 5, Quality: 3.5)
This course was surprisingly difficult for me (I guess I'm not much of an algebra person). It's easy to underestimate the difficulty of the course because a lot of the concepts are similar to those in 223. The course moves at a much faster pace than 223 and is pretty proof heavy.
MAT237Y1-Y (Average: B, Difficulty: 5, Quality: 5)
My thoughts on this course are pretty similar to my thoughts on 137 (probably because the coordinator was the same). The jump from 137 to 237 is much less overwhelming than the jump from high school to 137. The level of rigour for the two courses is roughly the same, but the notation in 237 is a little more messy. A good course to take if you enjoyed 137.
MGT201H1-F (Average: A-, Difficulty: 1, Quality: 3)
Highest course average I've seen in my four years here. The course is basically just high school accounting. Easy course with very trivial math.
STA257H1-F (Average: B-, Difficulty: 4, Quality: 3)
This course is not as rigorous as the course description suggests. If you took 137, you should be fine with the proofs. The instructor (Katherine Daignault) was okay, but I did not like here quizzes. There were a lot of "which statements are true" type questions with tricky wording. You need to be study definitions and concepts very carefully to do well on the quizzes. The tests were challenging but not unfair.
ACT245H1-S (Average: B-, Difficulty: 1.5, Quality: 2.5)
This is the easiest of the three second year ACT courses (and honestly quite useless). The first part of the course material (duration and convexity) never appears in upper year courses. The bulk of the course is on options, but all of the important option concepts (binomial model, black scholes) are not covered until ACT370. The only thing I remember from this course is "buy low, sell high, make profit".
ACT247H1-S (Average: B-, Difficulty: 4.5, Quality: 3.5)
This is the hardest of the three second year ACT courses. A good understanding of ACT240 and STA257 is required. The tricky part of this course is that there are a lot of new notations and formulas. Most of the formulas are not super complicated to use or prove, but its easy to forget certain formulas because you learn so many each week.
MUS207H1-S (Average: B+, Difficulty: 1, Quality: 3.5)
Another surprisingly interesting course. I expected the course to be about classical music, but it covered a lot more than that. The professor covered orchestral music in video games, film and television. Most of the required listening was enjoyable to listen to.
STA261H1-S (Average: B-, Difficulty: 3.5, Quality: 3.5)
This course was easier than 257 in my opinion. Level of rigour was roughly the same as STA257, but the quizzes were more straightforward. The instructor (Shariar Shams) was a good lecturer and very patient with answering questions in class.
YEAR 3 (Fall 2021-Winter 2022, fall mostly online with one in person final, winter mostly in person)
ACT348H1-F (Average: C+, Difficulty: 4.5, Quality: 3.5)
This course is a continuation of ACT247. The challenges are pretty similar to 247 (lots of formulas and notation). Knowledge of 247 is assumed, so you have to memorize all the new formulas in addition to the basic concepts covered in 247. I recommend doing a lot of practice problems to help with memorizing formulas.
ACT349H1-F (Average: B+, Difficulty: 2, Quality: 2)
I probably can't give an unbiased review about because it was my lowest undergrad grade. The course was not hard, but I wasn't interested in corporate finance at all. The prof (Jason Tome) wasn't very good either. Lectures are supposed to be three hours long, but he lets us out in under two and tells us to read the rest of the slides on our own.
ACT350H1-F (Average: B-, Difficulty: 4, Quality: 4)
I don't think I can give an unbiased opinion about this course either because the instructor (Silvana Pesenti) will be my PhD supervisor starting in September. The course material is a continuation of STA257. The lectures were pretty good, but I didn't like the textbook at all (and it wasn't followed that closely either). My only major complaint about the course is that there were not enough practice problems given. The final exam questions were reasonable but the test was a little too long in my opinion.
ACT390H1-F (Average: *, Difficulty: 1, Quality: 2.5)
This is a pass/fail course and you will pass as long as you do all the course work. The course was taught jointly by professor Samuel Broverman (who writes all the ACT study manuals) and Megan Whitehead (stats department career support person). There's no math in this course at all since this is a career development course. The course is very helpful for those looking for jobs since it covers things like interviews, resumes and cover letters. I personally wasn't very interested in the course since I'm leaning towards staying in academia. The course invites a lot of industry professionals to share their experiences. I didn't really pay much attention to those talks since they were online, but I recommend that you do if you're interested in staying in industry. NOTE: This course does not count towards the 20 FCE needed for graduation (I only discovered this after I finished the course).
STA302H1-F (Average: B-, Difficulty: 3, Quality: 3.5)
I think this course had a pretty good mix of theory and coding. Concepts were not too difficult, but the workload was high (lots of assignments). I also took this course with Katherine Daignault, and I think her teaching has improved. Quizzes were still awful, but slightly less wordy.
ACT370H1-S (Average: B-, Difficulty: 3.5, Quality: 4)
This course is a continuation of ACT245 (and much more difficult). The course mainly covers options at a medium level of mathematical difficulty. It is much more quantitative than 245, but a lot of the probability theory associated with option pricing (stochastic processes and SDEs) is not covered until ACT460. The course was very interesting in my opinion.
MAT246H1-S (Average: C+, Difficulty: 3, Quality: 4)
A really interesting course in my opinion. Its not very practical if you are not interested in mathematics, but I personally enjoyed the material. This is a proof heavy course, but the proofs are not super complicated. The midterm for this course was pretty easy. The final exam was much harder, but reasonable in length. Problem sets were not as hard as 137, but not easy either.
MAT334H1-S (Average: B, Difficulty: 2.5, Quality: 3)
The theory behind complex variables is very interesting, but the computations are a little tedious. The instructor was a grad student who lectured a little too quickly in my opinion. I was enrolled in a three hour 6-9pm lecture and it was hard to keep up after two hours. The textbook was okay though and it wasn't too difficult to fill in the gaps in my knowledge after class using the book.
STA437H1-S (Average: C+, Difficulty: 3.5, Quality: 3.5)
A very linear algebra heavy stats course. The course had a significant theory component and there were proofs on the midterm and final. Proofs are easier than MAT224, but you may find the course challenging if you only took MAT223. The instructor (Zhou Zhou) did review linear algebra in great detail in the first couple weeks in the course, so don't worry if your linear algebra is a little rusty. The final was worth 55%, so maybe stay away from this course if you don't like exams.
STA457H1-S (Average: B+, Difficulty: 3, Quality: 2)
The course material wasn't that bad, but the instructor (Tharshannah Nadarajah) wasn't that good. The course was entirely online and the pre-recorded lecture videos were just him reading off slides that he didn't make (you could tell he didn't make the slides because he struggled to pronounce some of the words on the slide). His tests were not super difficult, but they had typos sometimes (one question had a final answer with negative variance).
YEAR 4 (Fall 2022-Winter 2023, in person except PHY207, which was online with an in person final)
ACT451H1-F (Average: B-, Difficulty: 3, Quality: 3)
The instructor (Sheldon Lin) is pretty good, but I didn't find the material that interesting. Tests are open book, but they are pretty long. I suggest making a summary sheet of formulas that you are not planning to memorize. If you need to flip through all the lecture notes and the textbook to find formulas, you will not finish the test.
ACT460H1-F (Average: B+, Difficulty: 5, Quality: 4)
I also took this course with Sheldon Lin. I found this course much more interesting though (and much harder). A good understanding of stochastic processes is required. The course covers option pricing at a pretty high mathematical level (this course is also a cross-listed grad course). There are quite a few eng-sci students in this class and they're all pretty smart, so don't expect any curving up. Only take this course if you are interested in the material and confident in your mathematical abilities. There weren't any proofs on the tests, but I found stochastic differential equations to be quite confusing.
MAT244H1-F (Average: B-, Difficulty: 2.5, Quality: 2.5)
I also found this course to be pretty boring. It's an easy one though (just as easy, if not easier than MAT223). I mainly studied from the textbook and did really well in the course. The textbook is pretty detailed and an easy read.
MAT337H1-F (Average: C-, Difficulty: 5, Quality: 3)
A very heavy workload course. There were four problem sets, each with about 10 graded problems and a longer list of ungraded problems (only 3 of the graded problems actually got graded though). 80% of the midterm and final questions were from the list of ungraded questions (we were told this ahead of time) so you actually need to do the ungraded questions unless you're really good at writing proofs on the spot. The instructor (Ignacio Uriarte Tuero) was not bad and the lectures were recorded. First half of the content overlaps significantly with 137/237, but the problems are much harder. The last part of the course (series of functions) was very difficult in my opinion and I didn't really fully understand it.
STA314H1-F (Average: B-, Difficulty: 3.5, Quality: 3.5)
This course had a mix of theory and coding. There were four assignments, a midterm and a final exam. The assignments had some proofs (most were not too complicated) and coding. The last two assignments were much more coding heavy than the first two, but the instructor (Xin Bing) did provide starter code to help us out a bit. Lectures were pretty good in my opinion. Midterm was mostly straightforward except for the multiple choice. The multiple choice had multiple right answers and we got the mark iff we selected all the right answers and no wrong answers. Final exam was pretty challenging, but not unfair.
ACT452H1-S (Average: B-, Difficulty: 3, Quality: 3)
The course is a continuation of 451 and taught by the same instructor. I don't have much more to say about this course.
ACT455H1-S (Average: *, Difficulty: 4.5, Quality: 3.5)
This is the last course in the life contingencies sequence (247, 348, 455). Instructor was the same as 348 (Andrei Badescu). Lecture notes are a little messy, but he will explain what he wrote during the lecture. Tests are pretty fair and reasonable if you do the problems in the study manual. Usually, one of the problems will be taken directly from the study manual.
ACT466H1-S (Average: C+, Difficulty: 3, Quality: 3)
This course is somewhat related to the loss models courses (451/452), which is why I didn't enjoy it that much. Instructor was Andrei Badescu. I already shared my opinion on his teaching so I don't have much more to say about this course.
APM346H1-S (Average: C+, Difficulty: 3, Quality: 1)
My highest undergrad grade and also my worst course experience. Material is fairly straightforward and you can learn in from the textbook. There were a few simple proofs, but the course is mostly very tedious computation. The instructor (I.M. Sigal) was a horrible lecturer. I understood very little of his lectures. There were weekly in person quizzes, so we were kind of forced to go to his awful lectures. I kind of regret taking this course.
PHY207H1-S (Average: B+, Difficulty: 1, Quality: 4)
A very good bird course with very trivial (high school level) math. The course is online asynchronous with an in person final. Lecture videos were very good and there were lots of demonstrations (instead of just pure talking). Most of the course grade (~60%) were from various assignments (problem sets, final project, tutorials etc.) that had very high averages. Final exam was fair.
STA347H1-S (Average: C+, Difficulty: 3, Quality: 4)
The course was easier than I expected. The professor (David Brenner) was a great lecturer and made the course mostly computational. The prof did go on tangents sometimes, but he explained the main concepts very clearly. Midterm and final were mostly questions from his textbook (either copied directly or with minor modifications). The course has no assignments (40% midterm, 60% final).
COURSES I TA'D
MAT223H1-F (Fall 2021)
The course was basically the same as when I took it as a student in first year.
MAT135/136H1 (Fall 2022, Winter 2021, Winter 2022)
The two courses are very similar so I'll talk about them together. The two courses are application heavy calculus courses. They are not high school type math courses. You need to be able to do more than just simple calculations. You need to understand the concepts well enough to be able to apply them to unfamiliar problems. There are also writing assignments. If you're looking for a "more mathy" math course, look into 137 or 157 instead.

So I am a Canadian citizen living in Pakistan. We have decided to pack up and leave for Canada (a turn of events, happened suddenly).
I am currently studying in a very well-reputed university in Pakistan and I believe it is accredited since a few people went to UofT in their third year and everything carried over. Similarly, I know someone that went to the University of Alberta in their second year all her credits transferred over.
I am aware that fall admissions are closed. I want to apply for spring. The information is slightly arbitrary among every On unis site. I had a few queries I wanted help with:
1) I am a POL major and have taken mostly general courses such as Intro to Pol, Intro to Comp Pol, Intro to Pol Phil etc. Is it safe to assume I will be getting Credit hours carried over? I have studied 60 CH thus far and even if 60-70% carry over I will be content. The admission office is taking their time so just wanted to know what to expect.
2) I have a pretty crap CGPA, for lack of better words. I am standing at around 2.55 right now. This is mostly because I had math and econ courses that I messed up bad. I have got good grades in courses related to my Major. I will be sending in my A levels (grade 12/13 here, not high school, credits transferred for this too) report which also has great grades save for a D in Econ. Can I make a case in my supplementary essay that I took Econ since the job market in Pakistan is weird and familial pressure pushed me towards an Econ major until I finally decided to go with my heart and pick POL, will this be a justification for my GPA that might help admissions?
3) I have solid high School, A levels grades and a very good SAT (does it even count), I believe these might help me get in and then can I expect all my above C grades to get transferred for TMU?
4) Is it true that I will be starting from a CGPA of 0?
5) Lastly, what is the general scene for transfers at TMU? I have always loved the Uni and the campus whenever I visited and would love to be a student there. Should I keep my hopes high or is it near impossible due to my CPGA? I have solid extra curriculars too if they make any difference at all.
Many thanks in advance. I hope my babbling made sense.

If you've ever gotten bullied before you've probabally heard the dumbass advice everyone gives where they tell you " Just ignore them". Ignoring your bullies doesn't actually work, that's such a stupid thing to say. If there are no consequences to bullying you than your bullies are never going to stop.
On the other hand you've probabally heard the other dumbass advice where people tell you to get agressive. Beating your bully up will stop him from bullying you but chances are, if your getting bullied, you don't actually know how to fight. And even if you did know how to fight and you started a brawl in the middle of your school everyone will just look at you as a toxic alpha male with a fragile ego.
The actual solution to stop someone from bullying you is to quite literally gaslight them into thinking they are disgusting for bullying you". You need to make them feel embarrassed in front of everyone for trying to hurt you.
And now i'm not saying you should act all confident and be "HEY LOOK GUYS, HES TRYING TO BULLY ME, AHAHA. WHAT A DUMBASS". I'm saying you should act exactly like an innocent bystander in GTA would act if he just got punched out of no where. When someone does something to you, you need to pull back and shout "OMG EWWWW WHAT, WHAT ARE YOU DOING, WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO US, STOP BEING WEIRD, GET AWAY FROM US!!"
This is how you actually stop someone from bullying you

So, my N father recently retired from the practice of law. He’s always been relentlessly critical and judgmental, but it’s gotten worse than ever bc now he has time to over communicate regarding whatever opinion he’s urging on me, trying to persuade me to agree to avoid triggering N injury.
One example is he tells me that I look old (10+ years older than my true age) when wearing a beard. So I finally sent a note drawing a boundary over discussing my physical appearance. I was extremely careful with tone and closed it with a loving expression. I didn’t expect it to be well received, given that he’s a N. True to form, it quickly turned into him telling me to cease communications with him.
Here’s what he wrote:
Key Message 1:
I admit that I do not really understand your reaction to my comment that shaving your beard made you look younger; to us. You did send us a photo, that seemed to invite a comment. Since the comment bothered you, perhaps it would be best if you did not send us photos on the subject. You certainly look fine either way. We love you with or without a beard. And I am old, so being told I look old does not bother me at all. I have done well on my weight. I wanted to get down to 185 and this morning I weighed 184.
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After responding that I didn’t invite the abuse by sharing of photo of myself with him, and related back n forth, including that he should feel free to disinherit me (as he always threatens when we get into a heated argument), he wrote this:
Key Message 2:
Given how you feel do not communicate with me any further. Your comments are bizarre. I sent you a text message advising that I would not make any further comments about your appearance issues and you respond with a blistering reply. I guess you have forgotten who paid for your college and grad school expenses and lots of other costs.
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And then finally, this:
Key Message 3:
I hope you save copies of your tirade so that perhaps the day will come when you will see how disrespectful you have been towards your father who has pretty much always done right by you.
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I’m almost 53 now and this still continues unabated when I am in relationship with my father. I know this is the right thing, but it still causes me so much pain and agony bc I love my father and am profoundly saddened by how limited he is, as well as lonely. And then there is the fact that he’s getting up there in age.
Can some of ya’ll relate? Indeed, I trust many of you can!

Hi, i recently got a used Tandberg/Cisco C60 Codec.
The problem is that it hasn't been resetted, so i can't access to the web interface because there's a password i don't know.
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I wanted to hard reset it, but in this guide it says that i have to connect to a serial cable, but how? Where? Should connect it from the COM1 port on my codec to a USB on my PC with an adapter and try to send the commands? Which software should I use?
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Thanks,
RepubblicaTech.

Looking at it now, actually standing on the edge, it really is a long way down. Being here reminds me of those times in the playground, ready to travel down the slide, feeling so high up that I was like the king of the world. Yeah, that's how it feels right now, alright. King of the fucking world. The river rushes by below, its perpetual noise almost overpowering my car radio blaring through the open driver door. All I have to do is let go and take that last step. The last thing I'll ever have to do. Jump. Why is it so difficult? I want this, I need this. Yet everything inside is screaming 'STOP!' Just shuffle forward, close your eyes, and forget everything that came before, because everything ahead is rendered null in this one single action. Just jump. It's that simple, Tim. Just jump.
"Hey!"
A shout sounds out over my shoulder, calling to me. I turn and see the guy poking his head through the open window in the opposite lane from my parked car.
"You okay, man?" He yells over my blaring radio, face full of concern. His intervention is unwelcome. I never did like good Samaritans. "Don't do it, there's so much to live for…"
"Oh, are you talking to me?" I reply, wiping the sweat from my forehead, still perched on the bridge's ledge. "I'm fine! Just practicing my yoga poses!"
The man in his car pauses for a moment, confused, before saying something else that I don't quite get over the sound of the nearby river and Metallica blasting through my open door. Then, he slowly pulls away. Gone forever down the road. I take one last look at the river below before I step away from the edge and get back into my car, turning the volume down from its maximum setting.
The mood is ruined.

I'm trying to create the greatest thing ever and it's such a burden trying something so ambitious
In 2015 I watched Sword Art Online as my first mainstream anime. Judging by the clips I've seen of it, I thought it would be like a romantic adventure masterpiece. I had an ideal version of what kind of feeling it would bring, when I have dreams I sometimes get this indescribable feeling of love that I'm always disappointed to lose when I wake up. At times, watching the series would actually bring that feeling, but it would also make writing mistakes so bad that I swore it felt like a third grader was writing it. By the time the Aincrad arc ended it pretty much killed off all its potential. I genuinely believed it could have been the greatest work of entertainment of all time and I still kind of do. Being the incredible visionary I am, I vowed to create a series with the intention of doing what it failed at, bringing an absolutely remarkable sense of wonder and beauty.
Of course after seven and a half years I've been getting all sorts of new ideas, and at times I'm not sure if I should do what I'm thinking now, or stick to what felt natural before. I'm wholly motivated to bring the product I have in mind, but as time goes on the idea would probably get murkier and murkier. Make no mistake, what I am chasing here is an absolutely astonishing acheivement and I will stop at nothing to get there, but God damn is it hard. I've set the bar so high and it's hard to satisfy what I wanted. It's hard to fulfill that goal in every moment of the series, and I often have writer's block while writing it.
I have written about three versions of the series so far, and it drives me crazy at times not making what I saw in other series'. In addition to SAO came many other works and I'm struggling with the inspiration and original vision. Whenever I speak of this it never appeals to anyone like other series have to me. I truly believe I have an incredible power to share to the world and it's so painstakingly confusing how I can bring it out.

Ok, is this petty? Yes. I live in petty. It really bothers me that there is not a consistency between the common rooms/dorms. I don’t want them to look identical, but it just feels like they did not get the same level of care.
For example, only two of the houses (Slytherin and Hufflepuff) have 14 dormitories, aka enough for both of the gender selections for all 7 years. Gryffindor has 7, Ravenclaw has 8, and in both of them they have two fifth years, so it’s not like you can argue that maybe there is 1 door for both genders, and the door is smart enough to know which one you want. It’s just a small immersion thing that bothers me a little bit. Like, where would you sleep when you come back next year? For two houses I know. For two I don’t.
It also bothers me a little how some houses feel more flushed out than others. Ravenclaw has three distinct areas to sit (if we could sit), plus that secret tower area. Slytherin has a few seating areas, plus the windows where you can potentially meet the giant squid. Gryffindor has that really cool back stairwell, plus multiple sitting/lounging areas. Hufflepuff really just had the main sitting area and then you were in the dorms. There wasn’t a whole lot for you to engage with in their common room. Yes they had the kitchens near by, but everyone can go into the kitchens, so it’s not that big of a perk.
Also, the bathroom situation bothered me a little. Ravenclaw and Gryffindor have bathrooms (Gryffindor’s is only female, but it’s something). Slytherin has a bathroom outside the common room, which is a little impractical but again, it’s something. Hufflepuff… you better hope you don’t have to pee in the middle of the night because if you do you’re breaking into the prefects bathroom.
Again, it is small potatoes and I get that, but I just wish someone paid more attention to make sure each house got the same treatment. It feels kind of like the game favoured Ravenclaw and slytherin, Gryffindor got some attention because that’s Harry’s house, and Hufflepuffs got the short end of the stick, per usual. I just wish that someone would have said, hey here’s the basics each house has to have, and then went from there. Again, it’s petty, and I know that, but it is something that I find affects my house choice.

I've been a bit of a journey as of late. I started playing Djmax on ps4 2 years ago, and the momentum from my enjoyment of that led me to getting back into DDR. After realizing just how much I prefer Benami music to Djmax, I decided to give iidx Infinitas a shot with keyboard over the past three days. My conclusion is that it's awesome and I'd like to get into it more.
My birthday is right around the corner, bout a week or so, and I think I might buy myself something nice, so have been thinking of getting a good controller for iidx. I have two questions:

1. I have heard that Phoenixwan is a good choice, but the gamo2 website where I see it selling is out of stock, how often does it restock? I also saw one on ebay for 650 bucks, and that ain't happening.
2. The FPS EMP 2 is in stock and is also cheaper, is that controller still good or good enough for a beginner like me, or is the difference in quality between that and the phoenix dramatic enough that it's worth waiting?

Any advice or other info that would be helpful to my purchasing would be really appreciated, thanks.

Our shop is appointment only and has been for at least a year, the website is extremely simple to use.
I had a guy call asking what our openings looked like for a specific barber, I looked at my schedule and told him her openings, he then asked if I would book him for a opening he wanted, and I said "yeah if you just go to our website _____ and click the ____ location and the barber you want, it'll show you her availability and you can select the time you want, the only reason I ask you to do it on your end is because we need credit card information for our cancellation policy" to which he responded "forget it I'll go somewhere else" and hung up on me. Like? I'm sorry I've already done more than most of the barbers would by checking the schedule for you, I have a client in my chair and you are taking time away from their appointment having me hold your hand through the whole process. He wasn't new, he knew how to make an appointment and was being a lazy ass. I wasn't short with him, I wasn't telling him that he's sucking up my haircut time, I just told him it would be best if he did it because nobody likes to give card details over the phone! Most of the other barbers at the shop wouldn't even check the schedule for you and would send you to the website. I'm tired of Sunday people.

hi everyone. (f21) for starters this was not a recent event, in fact it was over 5 years ago but recently I have been reflecting and made a realization that I was groomed in my first real relationship.
In the fall of 2016, I was f15 when I met my first “love” (I don’t even know if it was real love) when he was m18. We met through Instagram and then we found out that we lived maybe 20-30 mins apart so then we began to meet up. At first I never thought the age was an issue because at this time I was going through a really rough patch. My grandmother passed away about a few weeks ago before I met him. (Let’s call him Steve) and I was in a desperate place of wanting someone to love and listen to me. I thought steve was perfect for that because he did. We had so much in common and played video games together. However, I had to hide his age from my parents and friends because he told me I should and I did. I told people that Steve was 17. We started to date at the end of 2016. At first I thought it was fine but little did I know he would turn into a completely different person. He ended up controlling me, my life, my friendships, my outfits and my interests. I couldn’t like or wear certain things. He needed to know where I was at all times, and if I didn’t text him back in a certain period he would become this angry beast and just scream and call me all different names like: “b!tch”, “wh**e”, etc
In 2018 I finally called it quits with him. But he would not leave me alone. At this point he was 20-21 and he had no life, I was his life. (He dropped out of highschool, had no job, no career goals or anything. He would mooch money from his 60 something year old mother who worked 2 jobs.)
Finally in April of 2019 I was DONE. I was so scared to leave before for good because he would use threats against me and try to manipulate me back and it always worked. I was now 17 at this time. I was in a class with one of my friends and he knew about this relationship and he let me vent about it. One afternoon in our class he saw me super distressed and asked to see my phone. I gave it to him and he blocked Steve on the app we talked on and powered down my phone.
I was shocked at the time cause I was terrified if Steve would yell at me for not telling him I left or was blocking him. It took a few hours to pass when it finally hit me,
I was free.
Since then I’ve been able to process a lot with the help of therapy and my relationship I have now. Steve did indeed groom me. He knew what he was doing. He knew he was dating a minor. He took my teenage years away because he controlled them and I never got to have my own experiences. I am lucky enough to have had a huge support system at the time of us separating for good. My friends held my hand through it all and helped me take my life back.
Also, For legal sake I can’t say he didn’t do anything sexual to me because he did. Even though the age of consent in my state is 16 and I was around 16-17 at the time of some “events” occurring (we never had actual s3x so thank god. ) but we did do other things and they were forced. I never wanted to do them but he did. I am still processing those as well because to do this day I struggle with intimacy at times because of Steve.
I’m now 21, like I said and Steve would be almost 24. I don’t know where he is or what he’s doing because after I blocked him he started to disappear off social media and the internet. I did track him down on discord and eventually I told him how he hurt me and we did have a bit of closure but now I see it in a whole other way.
And if Steve, If you’re somehow seeing this.. I want you to know that I am doing so much better and I am happy knowing that a rock bottom of my life was with you because now I’m shining.
Thank you for reading this and apologies if it was too much for some. Gr00ming is not okay and it can hurt and leave scars. I have a lot of traumas from it but I am growing stronger each day. I am a survivor.

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I'm in my late 20s trying to study after finally being medicated. I have been using Anki, which is quite useful, but it lacks the ability to provide a comprehensive overview or any structured approach. Additionally, it can become monotonous, and I find it challenging to complete more than 3 out of my 15 decks per day. I'm looking for alternative methods to study and memorize information more efficiently. I experimented with mind mapping software, but creating mind maps on the computer takes a significant amount of time. I also tried doodling, but the results weren't neat, and I'm uncertain about how effectively my mind will retain the information in that format. I've also been doing some speech-revision where I repeat phrases of things to remember but unsure whether it will stay in my memory banks.
I'm striving to optimize my studying approach to enhance efficiency and effectiveness in memorization, given the limitations of my focus. It would be greatly beneficial to receive input from individuals who have successfully passed their exams, as I currently feel stuck and unable to progress. I believe gathering various perspectives and ideas could potentially help me overcome this hurdle.

Hi all,
I've been doing some playing and thinking and I've come to realise that the single biggest downside of Wildlander is that it tries to embody something neither Requiem or Skyrim are built to do. There was an earlier post about Vigilant/Paladin viability that got my gears churning and I think what unifies many of the common complaints in this community are to do with roleplaying direction being at odds with what we expect from Requiem, and particularly Skyrim as it was conceived of over a decade ago.
Very often do I see the critique of RP being a loose fit for this modlist, the lack of midgame requiring people to minmax their characters efficacy against poison, elements, magic, etc. to take on enemies beyond bandits and draugr, therefore requiring players to know of unique items, quests, or spec well into trees that demand prior knowledge to play as. Valid, I think. And of course, then come along many other players insisting that this is in fact a very accurate representation of how it would actually be like to be in Skyrim and take on true danger in the wilds. Dragons *should* obliterate any but the finest fighters, Dremora *are* the elite guard of hellish Gods, Falmer *are* ancient and spiteful and poisonous, Dwemer automata *are* eternally defensive of their mountainous citadels, and so why wouldn't they be tough as nails to kill? Also, a valid assessment.
Aside from the obvious adjustment of some enemies' skill levels to more gracefully bridge this transition to midgame, I think, coinciding with the latter argument for RP in Wildlander (which I find more convincing and interesting and should be (is?) persued by the dev team), a stronger focus on that aspect, of living, not thriving, amidst a terrifying world should be persued.
This is where I think tension arises among Wildlander players. Skyrim, Requiem, the current modlist, although admittedly less-so than others is still too close to the (in my opinion, abhorrent) Skyrim philosophy of 'be anybody, go anywhere, do anything'. Wildlander out of all modpacks best tackles this fundemental problem, focusing heavily on the 'be anybody', somewhat on the 'go anywhere', but light on the 'do anything'. Players expect 'do anything' to be as highly enshrined as it is in vanilla, alas it is not, and so there are disagreements. I believe I have a design direction in mind that can remedy this, albeit probably ones on the mind of the dev team already.
Specifically, that is to focus heavily on an element of Skyrim only cursorally touched on in vanilla: being nobody. With RP we can already do this, but as long as gameplay prompts us towards a certain direction (In vanilla and wildlander: enter dungeon -> acquire loot and levels -> enter more difficult dungeon -> acquire better loot and even more levels) players will always feel unease at Wildlander not following what this cycle exactly, being more of a fight enemy -> lose -> learn cycle that better fits your character being a true nobody, not a main character awaiting player control.
A fleshed out, detailed simulation of peasantry, low social mobility, weakness, would dethrone this fundemental aspect of Skyrim's design and lure players out of the above trap. The cycle I described works with vanilla philosophy but not with Wildlander's. The option to open a market stall, to enlist as a farmer, a *common* soldier, a courier, a lumberjack, a hunter, run away with a village girl, have children, raise them in your family's homestead, share stories about nearby ruins, come to the Jarl with dangers, etc. would shake the foundation of Skyrim to the point where I suspect the players would see more clearly the vision Wildlander goes towards.
Of course, this is speculation, and I frankly don't want to imagine the sheer amount of effort this would take to enact, not to mention I'm preeeetty sure Dylan & Co. already agree with this. I'm probably just gushing about my personal dream game that might be too at odds with Skyrim philsophy to even work in a game that, surprise-surprise, is built to uphold that very philosophy. A man can dream.

Can the PCUSA reverse its decline and start growing again?
My view, as a lifelong member of PCUSA churches:

1. In theory, yes. Upgrading the quality of sermons to make them more informative and practical, adding programming that is relevant to people’s lives, and maybe having higher standards for membership (more than just doing a quick new member class and being added to a membership roll) could turn things around.
   
2. In practice, no. PCUSA churches are now led by pastors and governing bodies who are too far embedded in left-wing politics and too far removed from experiences that expose them to the lives and needs of professional people (particularly married men) to be able to lead churches to turn things around. Church leaders are too prone to have an event or sermon about, say, Palestinian rights or apologizing for oppression of transgendered people, rather than something that’s directly relevant for working professionals.
   

Thoughts?

Hi everyone! I have an interview tomorrow with my university’s case comp committee to be an academic delegate for the 24hr discipline.
This is my third time trying out for this role, I struggle with public speaking and am trying to get better at it which is why I think I haven’t been able to crack it so far.
I’ve been doing my research on everything I need to know in order to successfully solve a case (framework, structure to answer questions, etc) but if anyone has any tips/ tricks on how to make myself stand out in an interview that would be much appreciated!
I really want to work in consulting after I graduate and have been told that case comp experience on my resume can be super handy when applying to work at a big 4 so I really want to give it my best shot! TIA :)