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2015.05.22 19:56 Kaibakura onewordeach

Improv, one word at a time.
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2016.05.03 00:32 tacobellscannon AskOuija: Get your answers one letter at a time

AskReddit, Ouija-style.
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2012.03.19 06:38 fonknasty Ꭰeath Ꮹrips

𝙳𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚑 𝙶𝚛𝚒𝚙𝚜 𝚒𝚜 𝚊𝚗 𝙰𝚖𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚎𝚡𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚊𝚕 𝚑𝚒𝚙 𝚑𝚘𝚙 𝚐𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚙 𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚖𝚎𝚍 𝚒𝚗 𝟸𝟶𝟷𝟶 𝚒𝚗 𝚂𝚊𝚌𝚛𝚊𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚘, 𝙲𝚊𝚕𝚒𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚊
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2023.06.04 22:00 AutoModerator Sevrer Rules

Rules:1 Yall Can Leak shit i dont care but genshin only 2 no nsfw or gore content posting this automatically ban 3 respect others no matter what religion or etc 4 no impersonating 5 you can swear but you cant use n word or use it in a bad way hurting others.
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2023.06.04 22:00 Atyzze "I Am a Rock" by Simon & Garfunkel.

The song uses metaphor to describe emotional isolation. The speaker describes himself as a "rock" and an "island", both commonly known symbols of solitude and resilience, suggesting he has chosen to isolate himself from emotional interactions with others. The lyrics describe a self-imposed emotional fortress, where friendship and love, associated with pain and tears, are unwelcome.
Moreover, the speaker finds solace in intellectual pursuits such as books and poetry, which serve as further defenses against potential emotional pain or vulnerability. The ending lines reiterate the notion that by isolating oneself and not allowing feelings to come into play, one avoids the pain and sadness often associated with interpersonal relationships.
Overall, the lyrics express a melancholy and somewhat cynical view of relationships, underlining a strong desire for emotional self-preservation through solitude. It could also be interpreted as a commentary on the human tendency to retreat and isolate in response to emotional trauma or disappointment.
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2023.06.04 22:00 pk46833 Finished FFX for the first time

FFX is my childhood dream game and got the chance to play it recently the remastered version which had many issues tbh. I just finished it today and Oh boy the ending broke me. They way Tidus jumped without saying anything and the end credit scene made me very emotional. I want to believe he is still alive and Yuna can meet him again. Don't know the FFX-2 story yet so please no spoilers. FFX is a beautiful game I highly recommend it to all who are into RPGs and haven't played it yet.
Issues with remastered version - 1) Green screen issue at the time of cutscenes truly breaks the immersion and had to replay the section just to see the cutscene again. Sometimes had to boss fights again just to see the scenes. I tried Nvidia setting which I found online but it didn't help either.
2) Character models randomly disappears. Mostly happened with Yuna where only the lashes and necklace was visible, quite a scary scene tbh.
3) The 3rd model used for Tidus and Yuna doesn't look that good compared to PS2 version. They seems lifeless but as I played for the first time I got used to it.
This game came a long time ago but they never fixed it and it's not like it's a free product so they didn't do it, we paid money yet still had to play a buggy version.
Issues with FFX - 1) lack of skip button because of it had to listen to the dialogue over and over again when faced with the issue of green screen or I loses a fight.
2) Sometimes the turn didn't make sense. For example In the fight with Ject inside Sin. Ject had too many turns like 5-6 totally drived me nuts and when you lose the fight or the green screen issue then go through the dialogues again.
3) I find it a little bit grindy. I haven't played much games so don't know may be skill issues but also don't have time to grind for hours. I had to resort using the inbuilt cheats provided in it using the all items cheats(this helped the most in filling sphere grid and rikku's mix OD) and the all skill cheats(which I regretted later as got confused with it).
Still with all the flaws it's a very good game and am happy to finish it. Since my childhood I only saw the cutscenes and only dreamed about the story of it and it didn't disappoint in any way but sure broken my little heart TwT.
Share your experiences about it.
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2023.06.04 22:00 autotldr China's defense minister defends intercepting U.S. destroyer in Taiwan Strait

This is the best tl;dr I could make, original reduced by 69%. (I'm a bot)
China's defense minister defended sailing a warship across the path of an American destroyer and Canadian frigate transiting the Taiwan Strait, telling a gathering of some of the world's top defense officials in Singapore on Sunday that such "Freedom of navigation" patrols are a provocation to China.
The Chinese warship intercepted the USS Chung-Hoon and the HMCS Montreal on Saturday as they transited the strait between the self-governed island of Taiwan, which China claims as its own territory, and mainland China.
U.S. Defense Secretary Lloyd Austin told the same forum Saturday that Washington would not "Flinch in the face of bullying or coercion" from China and would continue regularly sailing through and flying over the Taiwan Strait and the South China Sea to emphasize they are international waters, countering Beijing's sweeping territorial claims.
The U.S. has said a Chinese J-16 fighter jet late last month "Performed an unnecessarily aggressive maneuver" while intercepting a U.S. Air Force reconnaissance aircraft over the South China Sea, flying directly in front of the plane's nose.
In the pursuit of such, Austin said the U.S. was stepping up planning, coordination and training with "Friends from the East China Sea to the South China Sea to the Indian Ocean" with shared goals "To deter aggression and to deepen the rules and norms that promote prosperity and prevent conflict."
"China seeks to develop a new type of major-country relationship with the United States. As for the U.S. side, it needs to act with sincerity, match its words with deeds, and take concrete actions together with China to stabilize the relations and prevent further deterioration," Li said.
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2023.06.04 22:00 eunjimylove [WTS][WW] Various Girl Groups Photocards + Merchandise

Hello everyone,
I'm clearing some stuff that I have for sales. I'm able to ship it worldwide as well. Payment is through Paypal. As I'm selling on multiple platform, please note that some of the items may not be available and this post will be updated to keep track of it. If there is any questions, you can PM me here or on instagram (@wjsnlovers)
Shipping of items will be via Registered Airmail / Qxpress (for selected countries). Shipping price will be calculated upon purchase.
For Photocards:
Flat discounted rate of 7 USD (Full tracking (Qxpress) for USA, Australia, Canada, EU, UK) / 5 USD (Registered Airmail) - Shipping will be subsided for May 2023 purchase.
For Albums:
SEA: from 8 USD onwards
Other countries: from 10 USD onwards
If you need EMS shipping, please inform me when you are purchasing. Items will be shipped from Singapore.
WJSN
  1. WJSN Special Album Applemusic Round 1 Fansign Photocards - 6 USD each
  2. WJSN Special Album Beatroad Fansign Photocards - 6 USD each (Set @ 60 USD)
  3. WJSN Special Album Soundwave Round 1 Fansign Photocards - 6 USD each
  4. WJSN Special Album Soundwave Round 2 Fansign Photocards - 6 USD each / Luda & Soobin Error card @ 4 USD each
  5. WJSN Special Album Applemusic Round 2 Fansign Photocards - 6 USD each
  6. WJSN Special Album Ktown4u Fansign Photocards (Dayoung) - 6 USD each
  7. WJSN 2022 Concert Wonderland Official Goods - Random Photocard Pack Photocards - 3 USD each
  8. WJSN Special Album Starship Square Jewel Case POB Photocards - 7.50 USD each
  9. WJSN 2023 FanConcert Codename: UJUNG Official Goods - Random Photocard Pack Photocards - 3 USD each
Loona
  1. LOONA MyMusicTaste LOONAVERSE : FROM Concert Photocards Trading Cards - 3 USD (Individual) / 4 USD (Unit PC)
A Pink
  1. A Pink 4th Gen Membership Keyring @ 10 USD
  2. A Pink 4th Gen Membership Bag @ 15 USD
  3. A Pink 6th Gen Membership Kit @ 30 USD
  4. A Pink 10th Mini Album Minirecord POB @ 7.50 USD each (Set @ 30 USD)
  5. A Pink 10th Mini Album Soundwave POB @ 7.50 USD each
  6. A Pink 10th Mini Album Makestar 2.0 POB @ 7.50 USD each (Set @ 30 USD)
  7. A Pink 10th Mini Album Platform Version @ 8 USD each (Set @ 15 USD)
  8. A Pink Eunji Remake Album Minirecord POB @ 6 USD each
IVE
  1. IVE 1st Album Soundwave POB @ 9 USD each
  2. IVE 1st Album Ktown4U POB @ 9 USD each
  3. IVE 1st Album MMT POB @ 9 USD each
If you are buying a lot from me, I will be able to ship to you everything together and a 10% discount. No additional charges for purchasing album + photocards together. It will be inclusive. You can negotiate the prices if you think it's high on your end. I'll review it when you PM me to meet both our ends.
Please take note that the price here is exclusive of the paypal fees when you are purchasing from me unless stated.
Delay in shipments are to be expected due to COVID-19.
Pictures of the albums can be found here
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2023.06.04 22:00 kc1138 Inappropriate Motors : Reddit, Facebook and YouTube

Hello.
My Story
I worked for an Auto Company. My plant closed in 2008. Despite us having a guarantee to have a product line until 2011. This was made when we ratified our most recent contract first. The company decided to close us down to keep a Right to work factory open in Texas, and a plant outside the country in Mexico. And then came begging for handouts from Congress.
I had to move to a new plant in 2010. You had people from all over at this plant. Some from a nearby city had "city" mafia shirts printed. New people didn't know the story. Our union negotiated for us to get money when we needed to move. These people had the goal to shut this place down to get more money to move. Yeah, I know.
After a year or two. I noticed a strange trend. You had all these young, attractive women on jobs they should not have. I noticed one running around with a repair stamp and bypass key she should not have had. Management was showing her how to hack into the computer with someone else's login to mark defects as repaired.
This is a huge violation of our quality policy. Not to mention our ISO obligations to sell product overseas.
I turned the proof of the stamp being used to mark defects on the Matrix/Manifest, to my Alternate Union Rep. But found out later it was his stamp. So it vanished. Much like his duty to represent the membership. Before this blew up. You have union people who could not get moved to jobs they posted. As the contract demands. Because someone's girlfriend appeared to be camped out on a easy job. When they finally did get moved. Many quit on the spot.
In the fall out of this scandal. It seemed the Assistant Plant Manager was shoved out the backdoor. My boss was moved out of management into Engineering. One boss was removed and sent back to work for the union. Story was he was sleeping with one of his Team Leaders Wife. A Business Manager was moved back in to management. And he was replaced with 3 people. One for each shift instead of one for whole department.
Later on, I think they were starting it up again. And there were other quality issues. My health started to go bad. I lost my Gallbladder. I was diagnosed with Hashimoto Syndrome, meaning my Thyroid was losing function. But after I lost my job due to health issues. The symptoms changed. I no longer seemed to need 4 or 5 meds I had been taking. I still have health issues. But I think it's from what I was must have been drugged with and the meds fighting it.
I am trying to stream to earn a living. It's probably just a fool's errand to keep me busy while my health seems to get worse. But trying to get the word out. In hopes, it doesn't happen again.
I could really use the help. To spread this word.
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2023.06.04 22:00 StrivingJarl Metallix Uprising - Unseen Adventures (Part 3)

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13 AS:
Tails Adventure:
Once again going on his own adventure, Tails arrives at Cocoa Island, helping out the residents, building more machines and gadgets, and generally relaxing a little. But suddenly, an army of imperial birds called the Great Battle Kukku invade the island for unknown reasons, and start causing chaos.
Determined to stop them, and with plenty more gadgets to use, Tails sets off to stop the army, help the locals, and save the island from any more destruction. Throughout his journey, the young fox encounters Battle Kukku XVI (Also known as Speedy), where the two often compete in speed and gadgets. Only for the latter to get frustrated at being beaten by some young mutant fox.
Eventually, Tails reaches their Battle Fortress, bringing the fight right to their leader, Great Battle Kukku XV, and their mechanical mastermind, Dr. Fukurokov. That’s when the young fox finds out why they’re here. After learning about Tails’ incredible gadgets and intellect, they wanted to kidnap and use him in their quest for world domination.
Obviously, the young fox doesn’t take kindly to this, and promptly defeats them, along with Speedy, and sends their warship crashing down into the ocean, alongside much of the army. And after repairing the damages done to Cocoa Island, the day is saved, and while Tails feels a bit guilty about bringing such danger to these people, they reassure him and let him know he’s been an incredible help to them. A true hero.
Happy to hear their kind words, Tails hangs around Cocoa Island a little longer, building some defense mechanisms and machines to make sure nothing bad happens once he leaves. And after saying his farewells, the young fox heads off for another adventure…

Sonic Blast:
While Tails is off on his own adventure, Sonic is relaxing at South Island, with the white Chaos Emerald in his possession. But he’s then ambushed by Robotnik in another mech, alongside a small company of Badniks, who wants the blue blur’s gemstone. And despite some slight annoyance at being disturbed, the hedgehog accepts the doctor’s challenge.
However, during the scuffle, Sonic accidentally drops the Chaos Emerald, as he, Robotnik, and the Badniks start playing hot-potato with it. Eventually, the doctor loses his patience and attempts to shoot the hedgehog with a laser beam, while he’s trying to get the gemstone. Though, instead, he unintentionally hits the emerald, shattering it into a couple of pieces, and destroying all the Badniks, alongside pushing Sonic and Robotnik away.
Once he recovers from it, Robotnik manages to take the broken Chaos Emerald pieces, and heads to his new Silver Castle base, interested in seeing how this happened and if he can use it to his advantage. As for Sonic, he gets back up, and chases after the doctor, wanting to repair the gemstone and stop whatever plan he has in store.
As for Knuckles, the Master Emerald alerts him of the white Chaos Emerald breaking, which surprises him. And fearing what this means for the massive gemstone, along with the rest of the emeralds, the Echidna decides to go after Robotnik as well. Soon enough, he meets up with Sonic, and the two team up to stop the doctor again.
Once Robotnik gets to his Silver Castle, he studies the broken Chaos Emerald, and finds out that the laser beam cracked it due to the structural integrity of the gemstone being torn apart from the energy. And while the broken shards don’t seem like much, the doctor theorizes that they may contain even more power than before, now that the energy inside them has no limits anymore without being fully formed.
Eventually, Sonic and Knuckles reach the Silver Castle, and fight against Robotnik’s new mech, which is powered by the emerald shards. And despite it’s power being much greater than they expected, the combined teamwork of the two heroes sends the machine to the scrap heap, alongside the base.
So, with another plan down the drain, Robotnik decides to leave with his remaining forces, and Knuckles is able to figure out how to restore the broken Chaos Emerald to normal. With the day saved, the Echidna heads back to Angel Island, and Sonic leaves with the gemstone in search of another adventure…

Sonic 3D Blast:
Robotnik hears rumors about Flicky Island, where a unique race of colored Flickies reside. They are said to come from another dimension, and can create warp rings to enter it, or go to any part of the island. Thinking this could be useful in finding the Chaos Emeralds, the doctor goes to conquer the island with his forces.
Immediately, he starts turning the Flickies into Badniks, and studies their power in order to create his own warp portals. Some time later, however, Sonic and Tails arrive at Flicky Island after picking up something strange on the jewel radar. They learn the doctor’s up to no good again, and set out to stop him like always.
In particular, Sonic keeps Robotnik busy, while freeing all the Flickies from their Badnik shells, and Tails searches for the Chaos Emeralds on his own with some gadgets. Eventually, after exploring the different regions of the island, the two heroes arrive at Robotnik’s Panic Puppet base in order to end this madness.
But during their supposed final battle, Robotnik uses the energy he took from the Flickies to teleport to another dimension. Luckily, the Flickies create a warp ring to allow Sonic to chase after the doctor, Chaos Emeralds in tow. There, the REAL Final Fight begins, as the doctor uses his Final Weapon to attack the blue blur.
However, while it’s not an easy battle, Sonic is able to defeat Robotnik without ever having to go Super, and escapes the collapsing base with the help of the Flickies. The island is saved, and the doctor’s gone alongside his forces. Sonic asks the Flickies to send the Chaos Emeralds away as well, before departing with Tails…

Sonic R:
While leisurely enjoying the sights of a big city, Sonic and Tails see an interesting event advertised on a gigantic screen. The World Grand Prix, where the contestants compete in 5 different race tracks for a nice cash prize, and to show who’s the best racer. The young fox is interested in joining, but the blue blur isn’t, since races aren’t really a challenge for him.
Though, when they look up the current contestants, they find that Dr. Robotnik, Metal Sonic 2.0, Metal Knuckles, and Egg Robo are competing. Thinking this is probably another scheme of his, Sonic and Tails join immediately, along with Amy once she learns what’s going on, and Knuckles unexpectedly enters the fray, feeling that he might be needed here.
Naturally, Sonic is right in that Robotnik has something to gain from this World Grand Prix. He thinks the Chaos Emeralds are hidden in the race tracks, and decides to join in the race alongside his Metal series robots and Egg Robo, while also having Tails Doll as surveillance. Hence, everyone competes in some Super Sonic Racing.
As the races go on, the heroes and villains manage to get 3 Chaos Emeralds each. But the last one is hidden in a strange, colorful crystal island floating a little above the ocean, known as Radiant Emerald. The last Chaos Emerald and race is located there, so all the contestants give it everything they got to win.
In the end, Sonic and his friends get the last emerald, which leads Robotnik and his minions to attack them. But sadly for him, the doctor’s machines get wrecked, and he ends up retreating once again in a huff. Then, once they scatter the gemstones again, the heroes go their separate ways as the winners of the World Grand Prix…

Sonic The Hedgehog 4 (Episode 1):
Plenty of time has passed since Robotnik’s last scheme, and Sonic has decided to once again explore the world on his own. However, while relaxing at an island with familiar sights, the blue blur is attacked by some of the doctor’s old Badniks and machines, which means he has to get back into the action.
As for Robotnik, he’s initiating a grand project by sending some of his old machines and Badniks to keep Sonic busy, while he sets up his new Mad Gear Zone, and searches for something. Though, it’s not certain what the doctor is up to. But Sonic doesn’t care, as it’s probably something bad like always.
Hence, Sonic goes across the different areas of the island, smashing Badniks and taking Robotnik down whenever they encounter each other, before arriving at Mad Gear Zone. Then, after another scuffle, the doctor retreats to his E.G.G. Station in space, with the blue blur using a spare rocket device Tails gave him to follow.
On the space station, Sonic faces Robotnik in his new Death Egg Robot, which ends up causing major damage to their surroundings. So, once the doctor’s taken care of, the blue blur flees the exploding station, and heads back down to the island, successful in saving the day again…
Or did he REALLY save the day?

Sonic The Hedgehog 4 (Episode Metal):
Though Robotnik’s machines and space station have been destroyed by Sonic, he’s been successful in the first phase of his grand project. Making sure the blue blur doesn’t know about his real goal, and knowing where a certain artifact is on the island. But right now, his concern is a returning Little Planet…and with it…a returning machine…

Next Chapter
Archives
Unseen Adventures (Part 2)
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2023.06.04 22:00 Guistop Screen flickers for half a second and leaves black bars in some programs, after GPU upgrade

Hello! Recently, I upgraded my GPU from a RX 570 to a RX 6600, which I bought from a friend. After installing onto my PC (connected every cables right, checked if the PSU Cables was for the PCIe) and installing the drivers in my Windows, the screen started flickering for half a second and leaving black bars in programs such as Voicemeeter, Redragon Software and Windows Explorer. Could someone help me fix this? In my RX 570, this never happened, and I suppose this came from this card, but it was working perfectly fine with my friend's PC.
PC Specs: Motherboard: A320M-S2H Rev.x1 (Changing at the end of the year) CPU: Ryzen 5 1600 Six-Core Processor (Changing at the end of the year) GPU: ASRock RX 6600 8GB RAM: 1x16 GB RAM (Gonna add one more stick after the Motherboard and CPU upgrade) PSU: EVGA 750W 80 Plus Bronze Monitor: Benq Senseye3 G615HDPL VGA (Gonna change after the Motherboard and CPU upgrade)
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2023.06.04 21:59 webdev20 Pros and Cons of Node.js in Web Development

In the web development, Node.js has gained significant recognition. This JavaScript runtime environment is lauded for its speed and efficiency, but like any technology, it comes with its own set of strengths and weaknesses. Let's delve into the pros and cons of using Node.js in web development.

The Pros of Node.js

1. JavaScript Everywhere: One of the most significant advantages of Node.js is the ability to use JavaScript on both the client-side and server-side. This means developers can write both front-end and back-end applications in the same language, increasing efficiency and simplifying the development process.
2. Non-Blocking I/O: Node.js operates on a non-blocking, event-driven I/O model. This allows it to handle multiple operations simultaneously without waiting for tasks like database operations to complete, making it ideal for applications with heavy I/O operations.
3. Real-Time Applications: Node.js shines when it comes to developing real-time applications. Its event-driven architecture is perfect for creating chat applications, online games, and collaborative tools where real-time updates are crucial.
4. NPM Ecosystem: Node.js comes bundled with npm (Node Package Manager), the largest ecosystem of open-source libraries in the world. This repository of reusable components can significantly speed up development time and increase code quality.
5. Scalability: Node.js is designed to build scalable network applications. Its ability to handle many concurrent connections with high throughput makes it a great choice for microservices architectures and real-time applications.

The Cons of Node.js

Despite the numerous benefits, Node.js isn't without its drawbacks.
1. Not Suitable for CPU-Intensive Tasks: Node.js isn't the best option for CPU-intensive tasks, like computations and logic. Due to its single-threaded nature, such tasks can block the processing of incoming requests, slowing down the application.
2. Callback Hell: A notable challenge with Node.js is "Callback Hell." This occurs when asynchronous functions are nested within other asynchronous functions, leading to code that's difficult to read and debug. While modern versions of Node.js support async/await syntax to mitigate this issue, it still can be a challenge for beginners.
3. Lack of Consistency: The Node.js ecosystem is vast and ever-changing, which can be both a boon and a curse. New tools and updates are continually emerging, which, while good for innovation, can lead to a lack of standardization and consistency.
4. Young and Unstable API: The Node.js API is still relatively young and not fully stable. This means it can change frequently, potentially resulting in compatibility issues.
5. Lack of Strong Libraries: While the npm ecosystem is large, the quality of libraries can be uneven. Some important functionalities like working with databases, handling dates, or image processing lack strong, robust libraries, often making developers turn to other languages for these tasks.

Conclusion: Is Node.js Right for Your Project?

The decision to use Node.js depends on your project needs. If you're building a real-time application, need high scalability, and have a team skilled in JavaScript, Node.js can be a strong choice. However, if your application involves heavy computations or requires strong libraries for specific functionalities, you might want to consider other options.
Remember, every technology comes with trade-offs. Understanding both the pros and cons of Node.js is vital to make an informed decision. Assess your project requirements, weigh them against what Node.js has to offer, and you'll be well on your way to choosing the right tool for your web development needs.
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2023.06.04 21:59 Heartstxpper My Brother laughed at me breaking up with my partner

So I really don't know if this is the right place to put this but I just found out and I am BEYOND upset about this. (Also excuse bad format as I am on my phone)
So, I (16f) am a lesbian and I dated my now ex partner for 6 weeks and they broke up w me for mental health reasons that I totally understand. We are still friends and we have been for the last 2 years or so.
So when we broke up I was OBVIOUSLY upset about it and I was on my period so I was a bit of a wreck. It also might be worth mentioning I am nearly done doing my GCSEs so extra stress.
I was originally not gonna tell anyone but I really had to get it out so I told my irl best friend. She was comforting me and she rang me before I went to bed to ask about something (I can't remember what it was) and she was also asking me if I was okay and stuff.
As I was calling my best friend my dad called me to say I had to go to bed. So I hung up and went to brush my teeth. I came back upstairs to pack my bag for school and as my brother was downstairs I was crying (obviously) and he heard me when he walked up and asked what was wrong.
I struggled to get the words out and when I did he comforted me. I vaguely explained what it was and he was just comforting me.
The next day he had a youth group with one of our mutual friends and I had given him permission earlier to tell them about our breakup. He asked me how my ex broke up with me and I told him it was a detailed paragraph. He said that was kinda suspicious and I obviously defended them. Ex has had issues like this in the past so I didn't and will continue not to question it.
4 days later I am sitting in my room with my brother and he was telling his girlfriend about a random story my mum was telling us last night and he continued talking to her. I DID NOT give him permission to tell her we had broken up but he did it anyway because she thought she saw me in town so they continued to shit talk. This is how the conversation went:
Bro: I FORGOT TO TELL YOU BUT OP AND EX BROKE UP Gf: LMAOO, THAT'S SO FUNNY! DESERVED Bro: EX BROKE UP WITH HER. AND SHE WAS ALL EMO AND I WAS LIKE LMAO. I HAD TO HOLD IN MY LAUGHTER Gf: I JUST CHECKED, SHE DELETED HER PLAYLIST OFF OF SPOTIFY (I couldn't listen to the songs the same anymore) Gf: PMS Bro: CRYING DYING Gf: THAT WAS SO REAL OF EX Bro: PMS. SO REAL. APPARENTLY IT WAS BECAUSE OF MH. I WAS LIKE MMM NOT BUYING IT Gf: OH SURE (sarcastically) Bro: EXACTLY Gf: I WOULD HAVE BROKEN UP WITH HER TOO Gf: MAD RESPECT Bro: THAT'S HORRIBLE. THIS IS TOO FUNNY
And I had a full blown mental breakdown. I still genuinely love my ex a lot but it's okay.
I am so disgusted with my brother because the fact he was laughing at one of my biggest pains is just awful.
His gf and I always fight but I never new she talked about me like this. I won't act like I don't say awful things but I wouldn't laugh at her for something like this.
Apparently girlfriend was also talking to me with her brother and her brother told her that people like me would end up alone.
I told my ex about this and they too were disgusted. You really have to be careful who you can trust.
I have been considering ghosting people in my home city this summer and he's really making the choice easier and easier.
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2023.06.04 21:59 Niuriheim_088 Info Assistance

Info Assistance
Hello, I’ve posted this in the past on my old account, and some of you asked about my character’s story. At the time the Vol 1 comic wasn’t ready, and it’s still not lol since it's 350+ pages. But I do have a Novella adaptation I wrote that is available. If you wish to read the story, then feel free to do so, if not, then feel free not to. It's here in the “Void Foundation” section under “Seed of the Void”. Also note, the story has nothing to do with the image.
Now for the reason I made the post (also not related to the image), I’m writing a fanfic that involves multiple Verses including Overlord (my favorite anime), several others, & two I’ve created.
I would like your thoughts on two specific things.
  1. The first being that I would like your assistance on finding a balanced Verse that would be an interesting opponent to Overlord. So far, every Verse participating in this fanfic is either too strong for Overlord, or I just don’t have enough experience with them to perform a proper scale.
  2. The second thing being that who in Overlord, other than Lord Ainz, do you think is a significant player? What I mean by that is who do you think holds such weight over the Overlord Verse that if they didn’t exist, the story would have been wildly different?
These below are the current participating Verses. If you feel one would be a perfect matchup for Overlord then do let me know. If you feel there is a Verse that's not listed that would be a better and likely more interesting matchup then also let me know.
Participating Verses:
  1. Overlord
  2. That time I got reincarnated as a Slime
  3. The Misfit of Demon King Academy
  4. Berserk of Gluttony
  5. Bleach
  6. Fate
  7. Daily Life of the Immortal King
  8. Eminence in Shadow
  9. Naruto
  10. Black Clover
  11. Seraph of the End
  12. Seven Deadly Sins
  13. Destiny
Also, if anyone has any heavy knowledge on Overlord as a whole (Characters, Magic System, LNs, etc.), and doesn't mind sharing all of that with me, do let me know.
Lastly, if you have a Overlord OC, or even your own Verse and would like to participate in this project, just let me know.
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2023.06.04 21:57 Hexasulfur 11 g Dried Mushrooms: Experience log & Spaced out Dosing

8:02pm I ingested 4 grams of dried mushrooms at my desk, preparing myself to do some art or something. ‘It’s been a while since I’ve done this,’ I thought. 8:42pm I felt ‘absolutely fine,’ and, ‘was still glued to my phone like I always am,’ I reassured myself. I began leaning back in my chair, waving my hands in the air and smiling, than starring at the ceiling, watching the patterns distort. It only happened if I focused my attention on it. 9:30 I felt absolutely ecstatic. ‘I went into this with the right state of mind,’ I thought to myself as I cleaned the kitchen. I was feeling a burst of energy and confidence while taking out the trash in the dark. A lot of positive introspection and feelings of forgiveness and love towards myself and others ensued. 10:03pm I ingested 2 additional grams and was listening to more music. I was euphoric, felt that I could, ‘relate to the vocal elements really well,’ and was able to easily re-focus my attention and not get too distracted on any particular thought. 11:41pm I felt fiendish and decided to consume an entire 5 grams of shrooms on top of what I already had taken. Cleaning the bathroom proved difficult as I was zoning out now. 12:30am I went back into the kitchen and leaned onto the counter, pulling at my hair, messaging my scalp with my eyes closed. I saw complex 3D patterns colored like rainbow lasers. When I starred at the counter top, detail emerged and formed. 12:55am I felt that I was over half way through the experience. I watched some TV and saw Joe Biden rambling. And this was where it was most intense, I tried desperately to find something more positive to watch, but struggled. My positive mood shifted down, but the visual effects persisted. My ability to focus decreased. 2:07am I was well into the trip, anxiety precipitated due to my imagination being on autopilot and an awareness of bodily sensations that were perceived as muscle discomfort. This was fleeting though, as I was able to dismiss the hypochondria. 2:30am i went back to my desk and put my ear buds in. The device screen looked like there was an update/overhaul on the regular design of the screen/phone, but this wasn’t the case. In any even, I had a challenging time with my executive motor functions. Refilling a mechanical pencil became a cumbersome endeavor, but I eventually realized the problem was with the mechanical element of the pen itself and I opted to use a regular pencil. 3:06am it was now towards the end of the hallucinogenic effects. I had a few sips of 7up, beer and a saltine cracker to balance myself out and later drifted to sleep.
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2023.06.04 21:56 menschmaschine5 Prayer Request Thread - Week of Trinity Sunday

Feasts in honor of the Trinity rose up late in the first Millennium; interestingly the first feast to be observed which doesn't celebrate an event or a person. Instead, it celebrates a theological concept. Though it wasn't instituted as a feast throughout the Western Church until the 14th Century, it was popular in parts of Northern Europe well before then, including in England. That's why there are so many Anglican churches dedicated to the Trinity, and why traditional Books of Common Prayer count the Sundays which follow from Trinity rather than from Pentecost, in continuation of medieval English practice.

Important dates this week

Monday, June 5: Boniface, Bishop of Mainz and Martyr (Black letter day)
Thursday, June 8: Corpus Christi (not in any BCP, but nonetheless observed by many Anglicans, especially of the Anglo-Catholic bent)

Lectionary from the 1662 BCP

Collect: Almighty and everlasting God, who hast given unto us thy servants grace, by the confession of a true faith, to acknowledge the glory of the eternal Trinity and in the power of the Divine Majesty to worship the Unity: We beseech thee that thou wouldest keep us steadfast in this faith, and evermore defend us from all adversities, who livest and reignest, one God, world without end. Amen.
Epistle: Revelation 4
Gospel: John 3:1-15
Post your prayer requests in the comments.
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2023.06.04 21:56 C---D June 5, 2023, Wordle #716

Wordle 716 3/6* Grade: A− (92%)
Guess Result Words Left Answers Left Skill Luck Info Gained Grade
SOARE ⬛⬛⬛⬛🟨 687 119 88 16 37% F
INLET 🟨🟩⬛🟨⬛ 2 1 99 91 100% A+
ENNUI 🟩🟩🟩🟩🟩 Win! 99 100% A+
https://gradle.app/#SM37m583Z6jISnqM
🏆 Golfle 716: Birdie 🐥
🏌️‍♂️ ⏝◦ ⏝◦ ⏝◦ ⛳️
⚪️⚪️⚪️⚪️🟡 🟡🟢⚪️🟡⚪️ 🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢
https://wordle.golf
Ongoing Golfle score (Par = 4 guesses):
Time Period Number of "Holes" Score
April 2023 30 −15
May 2023 31 −18
June 2023 5 −1
What would Scoredle do?
Wordle 716 4/6* Grade: B+ (89%)
Guess Result Words Left Answers Left Grade
SLATE ⬛⬛⬛⬛🟨 942 164 F
DINER ⬛🟨🟩🟨⬛ 11 1 B+
GENII ⬛🟨🟩⬛🟩 1 1 A+
ENNUI 🟩🟩🟩🟩🟩 Win! A+
https://gradle.app/#20nPeOKCnv3NOToi2N6re
What would WordleBot do?
Regular mode analysis: Wordle 716 3/6* Grade: B+ (89%)
Guess Result Words Left Answers Left Grade
SLATE ⬛⬛⬛⬛🟨 942 164 F
DINER ⬛🟨🟩🟨⬛ 11 1 B+
ENNUI 🟩🟩🟩🟩🟩 Win! A+
https://gradle.app/#SM37jXlhtDMrMMT6
Hard mode analysis: Wordle 716 3/6* Grade: A− (90%)
Guess Result Words Left Answers Left Grade
LEAST ⬛🟨⬛⬛⬛ 1033 206 F
DINER ⬛🟨🟩🟨⬛ 5 1 A
ENNUI 🟩🟩🟩🟩🟩 Win! A+
https://gradle.app/#SM34Gb8MO9TTKnZ6
Double-letter tracker for this month:
Days Double-Letter Answers
5 3
Finally gotten under par for Golfle after a slow start for the month. A lucky 2nd guess narrowed it down to a single answer, and I guess it helps that I know some French. The unique letter arrangement of the word also made it easy for the bots to pick out.
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2023.06.04 21:55 Ok-Individual-9005 Mother-in-law's toxic positivity (rant)

My husband and I were staying at his parents' house for the holidays. My husband's brother (35M), who I'll call "Tom" lives with them. We were playing a team card game. I was on Tom's team, and he didn't like the clue I gave and blamed it on us losing the hand. He then started screaming at me and calling me a "stupid idiot". I got up and left saying that I wouldn't participate in the game if that's how I'm going to be treated. (FWIW, we think Tom probably has un-diagnosed bipolar).
I went to the guest room I was staying in and told my husband I rather spend the rest of the vacation alone watching TV. He said he understood and that he'd come hang out and bring me food.
My mother-in-law came to find me and announced that the family would be playing a new game for the rest of the holiday. She called it the "Berenstein Bears". She explained that we were to act so sweet to each other, just like the Berenstein Bears because conflict is upsetting to her. We were to be "sickeningly sweet" (her words). At the end of the holiday, the person who had been the sweetest would get a prize.
My mother-in-law and Tom then started using a sing-songy voice and were annoyingly cheerful. I felt bitter and sarcastic the rest of the time and basically stayed in my room. Tom ended up winning the prize, which was a fun-sized chocolate bar.
Thoughts? Advice?
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2023.06.04 21:55 manny0101-wn-wp-ffn Everyone bothers me from BBT

I'll be getting a lot of hate for this, but I don't care. I just wanna say it.
  1. Bernadette had no business in making that costume for Howard. It's between him and Sheldon. She is a vile person who's always overly hurtful to others. Self righteous woman with a superiority complex and little regard for others.
  2. Amy is a creep. She's overly clingy, manipulative, and downright psychotic. And no, she's not pretty even if most of the people say otherwise. She looks like a goblin.
  3. Howard was a creep, and he really likes to put others down. Even after that, he seemed like the most stable one by the end.
  4. Raj is a spoilt brat who always wants more. Man had a girlfriend but broke up when he merely talked with another girl, already imagining having a relationship with the new girl. What an ass.
  5. Penny was delt a bad hand by the writers. Poor girl had to settle for Leonard and drown herself in alcohol. An unfulfilled life and settling for what was available.
  6. Sheldon definitely has ASD. Not all autistic people are like him, but not all are great as well, like Shawn Murphy. Sheldon was coddled when he was a kid, and his disorder was never addressed by anyone. If it was, he could've been helped. Mary Cooper's helicopter parenting created adult Sheldon.
  7. Leonard is a narcissist. A self-centered, selfish, and manipulative man who would betray his friends for sex. He makes everything about himself. Despite Raj's protests, he hooks up with the guy's sister. If I was in Raj's place, I'd have beaten him black and blue. He had the gall to act betrayed when Raj and Penny seemingly hooked up. He tried to manipulate Sheldon into letting him woo Missy and put the other 2 down.
Cheating, professional sabotage, lying to take advantage of others, forcing himself on Penny when she clearly wasn't interested and even manipulating her into having sex with him, superiority complex, extremely opinionated... Man will do anything for personal gain and pleasure. And, he's absolutely remorseless.
Leonard reminds me of Ed Kemper.
I can't bear to watch the series anymore. When I reach the episode when Penny is trying to get her father off her back by showing she had a boyfriend, and Leonard takes full advantage of that, forcing her to kiss him. It's too much. It's not even funny.
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2023.06.04 21:55 lunargracee I (19f) never told my parents I was on academic suspension and they just found out.

This is a long one, I never post on Reddit but genuinely I don’t know what else to do.
I went to a local 2 year community college after graduating in 2022. My college was completely paid for through financial aid, and even if it wasn’t, my parents wouldn’t pay for it. My dad couldn’t afford it and though my mom had the ability to, she made it very clear she had no intentions of helping me out with college from the get go.
The issue started in the fall of 2022. I was in four classes, two in person, one hybrid, and one online. I did good for a few weeks but quickly the workload became too much for me to handle and I just shut down. I was working part time and was dealing with a lot of family drama with my mom and her husband and I just couldn’t handle it. Looking back, I could’ve done a lot more. There was a point in the semester where I didn’t even check for assignments or anything. It’s embarassing to admit but there was just something stopping me mentally from doing it. I ended up with a warning, meaning I could return for the spring semester with my fafsa but I had to raise my GPA. I decided not to tell my parents about the probation because I genuinely planned on raising my GPA and fixing things. In the spring, I was enrolled in four in person classes. On Mondays, I was on campus from 8:30-5:30 in back to back classes. Wednesday’s, I was there 8:30-2:40 also in back to back classes. The rest of the week I was working, maybe about 15-20 hours a week. At this point, I had enough of what was going on with my mom and her husband and decided to live full time with my dad. It was really emotionally draining for me. I won’t get into details here but it was a lot. I also got into drinking with my friends on our days off. As the semester went on, I just lost touch. I guess it was a mix of everything with my family, long days on campus, working, and then wanting to be with my friends. I fully understand and admit that I could’ve done all these things and still succeeded anyways. I’m not trying to make excuses, just explaining the circumstances around what was going on.
That being said, I knew that I had to raise my GPA or risk losing my FAFSA. It stressed me out a lot but i still chose to skip and not do assignments. I really wish I had a decent explanation for why. I don’t know why I shut down when things get difficult. Everyone I’ve talked to about this says it was just burnout but it doesn’t feel that way. I know I had a lot going on but I still feel like I was just lazy. The semester went on and I didn’t raise my GPA. In May, my dad sat me down and asked me honestly if I was going to class. I told him no, and that I was thinking about taking time off. We made an agreement that while I wasn’t in school I would work full time and help with bills. At this point, I wasn’t sure if I would be suspended academically, but I knew that if I was, I would just be suspended for the summer semester and would be able to return in the fall assuming I could regain my FAFSA. I told my dad that I wanted to take the fall semester off to work and decide on a new major, he said that he didn’t agree but that he supported me and loved me anyways. Shorty after we had this talk, I received an email just like the one I had received in December informing me of my academic probation. It struck me as weird, because I was already on probation and my first warning, therefore the next step would be suspension and losing my FAFSA. I knew in the back of my mind this was some mistake on the colleges part, and that I was on suspension and would be losing my FAFSA. But I held onto hope that maybe I was wrong and had another chance at fixing things. I decided not to tell my dad, as he never knew that I was on probation to begin with. It was probably a good couple weeks before I received another email stating that the previous information was a mistake, I was on academic suspension for the summer and my FAFSA would not be reinstated. I was upset but I knew it was coming. I decided that I wasn’t going to tell my dad, as he already knew I was taking time off. I was going to handle everything myself, appeal my FAFSA and hope I get it back. And in the meantime, hold up my part of the agreement and work full time. I was also informed that I had to pay back part of my FAFSA in order to re enroll, but figured that working full time I would be able to take care of it myself. I did feel guilty about hiding it from him, but I was in so deep I didn’t feel like I could come clean. My dad and I are very close. He has always had my back and supported me and I didn’t want to disappoint him. In my mind, I was an adult and it was my mistakes to fix, and I had planned on fixing them.
This morning, my dad came into my room, visibly angry, and said we needed to talk. He said he was going to give me one shot to be honest about what was going on with school and I told him everything. He said he already knew, that this morning my mom had received a letter addressed to me that informed her of the academic suspension. He is pissed and rightfully so. He said he’s disappointed about school, but more upset that I lied to him. And he’s completely right. He said his first thought was to sell my car that’s in his name and let me figure it out for myself, talking about kicking me out. He asked me a bunch of questions about what happened and I told him honestly. I didn’t tell him about the drinking, but everything else I came clean about. He said everyone else in my family is pissed, and that apparently they told him that they thought I was going down this path, but he defended me to them. It was really upsetting to hear but I deserve to hear it. I have let him down so much and he doesn’t deserve it at all. He told me he wasn’t sure how he planned on punishing me, but that I wasn’t allowed to go out with my friends and I’d only be allowed to go back and forth to work. I will also have to find a full time job as soon as possible, but I was already looking for one. I really don’t know where to go from here. I know this is all my fault, and it’s all a consequence of my own actions, but I don’t know what else to do. I had it really good and I fucked everything up. I don’t think my dad or anyone else in my family will ever be able to trust me again. Im lucky he’s even letting me live here. I don’t know how to make things right and I don’t know what I should do. There’s a lot of detail I’m leaving out, so if I need to elaborate on anything I will.
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2023.06.04 21:55 maroonmallard [26m] bf will not get a better more stable job

My by and I have been dating 11 months now. He has played professional basketball the last 5 years overseas. This came to a stop suddenly in November when he was cut. I know he was heart broken by it, as he loved to play. He kept hoping that another contract would come around, but he has not gotten resigned. At first he decided that he would try to stay in the world of basketball, so he was applying to collegiate associate coaching positions. Without coaching experience, he is struggling to get even a call back. For the first few months of him being unemployed, I did not push him to apply to other stuff, because I wanted to give him space to grieve the ending of a chapter I know he loved. I am all for him chasing his dream, I know he would be a great coach. However, sometimes it feels like I want him to be sucessful more than he does. Currently, he door dashes to make some money, but its really not enough. I like to go out and do things, like try new food sports, go on roadtrips, shop, and it seems like we just cant do that as a couple because of his lack of income. My lease is up at the end of the month, and we were contemplating moving in together, but I am unsure if this is a good choice. He makes enough to cover his part of bills/ groceries with DD, but it would be real tight. I would be less bothered if I saw him actually going to job fairs, applying, etc. but he rarely does that. He will apply to maybe 1-2 jobs a week and that is it. I am not trying to be his mother, so I try to let him learn, but I have been trying to transition from teaching to another career, and from experience I know you need to apply so much more. It is just frustrating to me that he will spend hours a day on video games, but only 5-10 min looking at jobs online. He has never "worked" outside of basketball. His college was paid for by scholarships, and overseas basketball covered all living expenses, and he made enough to have money throughout the off season. I am just wondering if this is just a part of the process, or if this is a peek into my future. All this being said, he is extremely kind and treats me really well. He is thoughtful and does a lot for me, which I have not experienced in other relationships. 1/2 of me thinks there will be a man that has both, can treat me really well, and be more career driven. But also the other 1/2 of me thinks I am being too anxiety ridden, worrying too much, as we are still young. TLDR: boyfriend played professional basketball the last 5 years. Currently only doordashing and not really looking into other jobs. Unsure if just a bump in the road, or a long term issue.
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2023.06.04 21:55 TheHierothot I have to talk to her. I want to tell her why I went NC,but I don’t think she’ll listen.

I (28f) have a narc grandma who was my actual best friend for years and years. I cannot emphasize how close we were. We went shopping, went to movies, went to restaurants, saw plays, cooked together, played cards, and she taught me how to read tarot and make coffee, both of which I do for a living now.
But she’s an alcoholic. She drinks at least a bottle of wine per night, even though she is a type 2 diabetic—she has switched doctors because they told her to stop drinking. And while I never had a physical dependency on alcohol, I certainly had a drinking problem when we were close (sober 3 years now). We both have BPD, but she doesn’t believe the diagnosis is accurate, while I take a high dose of mood stabilizers to manage mine.
Which brings us to the reason I went NC. I went on antidepressants, mood stabilizers, and I finally got diagnosed and medicated for ADHD at age 25. My grandma is STAUNCHLY against medication, even her diabetes meds (she takes them, but “resents the fact that she is dependent on a medication” at all.
This all happened just a few weeks after I gave up alcohol. As the meds kicked in, I started setting boundaries and saying things like “you’re hurting my feelings, please stop”, when her “teasing” went too far (which it often did). Being asked to stop was received with anger and defensiveness, and we grew pretty distant as a result, even though I lived with her at the time.
The last conversation we had before I went NC was a big fight, and she made a comment about me going on medication. I said something to the effect of “can’t you see that I’m happy now, and that I finally like myself?” And she responded with “well I don’t like you like this. You talk back to me too much.”
This really crushed me. She doesn’t know this, but at the time I went on meds, I actively had a plan for ending my life. The only thing holding me back was not wanting her to be traumatized by finding me.
She later went on to write a letter to my psychiatrist (I have no idea how she got her contact info btw), telling her that my meds gave me a “rage problem” and encouraging her to take me off of them. My psychiatrist immediately saw this as a red flag and directly asked me if she was one of the narcissistic family members I’d mentioned. That is what made me send her a “you crossed the line, and I can’t talk to you anymore, I feel unsafe having you in my life and I feel betrayed by someone I thought I could trust” etc. message, and hit “block”.
Now she’s moving out of the house she’s owned since the 1970s. I have a lot of things in her attic storage that I’m just flat-out not ok with losing, like gifts from my late father and mementos from stages in my life that I want to keep for the memories associated. My sister (24f) told me that if I want that stuff back, I better not put it off too long.
I’ve had an anxiety stomachache since she told me. I have no idea how to approach her. I gave her an opportunity to apologize two years ago, and her apology was “I’m sorry for interfering with your life.” She then blatantly refused to actually address any of the issues I wanted to discuss. She also has called me the wrong name (I’m cis, but I just hate my birth name and changed it years ago) via birthday/Christmas cards delivered through my teenage cousin, who, apparently, had tried to tell her that it’s really rude to call me by my old name, but to no avail. OH, ALSO she frequently deadnames my trans relative when he’s not around, which started shortly before the above-described events, as he came out to her a little later than the rest of us.
Wtf do I do. I have no idea what it’s gonna be like, if she’ll be angry or act victimized by my NC, or possibly just treat me with a Customer Service voice and personality—and I’m honestly not sure which would hurt most. We were so tight, I feel like I will cry as soon as I see her. I also know that she makes me feel terrible about myself, disrespects my boundaries, and blatantly told me that she liked me better when I was depressed. Idk what to do and I’m stressing. Any advice appreciated, including bad advice as a jumping-off point.
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2023.06.04 21:54 Expert-Spread-1170 I (18 F) and my bf (19 M) are struggling to keep a healthy relationship and need advice

Idk if this is more of a true of my chest or relationship advice section story but here we go. I don’t really use reddit but i listen to stories all the time. Im in high school in Europe in a country that is not very welcoming to emigrants and have struggled to make friends due to my low level in the country’s language (English is not my first language btw). 3 months into living here i met my (18 F) bf (19 M). I wasn’t ready for a relationship and i told him so but still ended up in a relationship. We had many fights due to me having a broken fairytale view on how relationships should be (we both come from single moms, mine also having a really bad relationship with her family so its just been me and her mostly). He’d do small things that piled up and about 4 months in ended with me seeking validation in one of my friends’ arms. We didn’t go further than kissing and i immediately told him what happened afterwards. I am aware this is an extremely low thing to do and am very sorry about it After that i went on to be an asshole bc i was so scared he’d realise how bad I’m treating him and leave. Somewhere around the 8th month mark i had some problems with my school and realised that all of the work i had put into my grades the past year, finishing 3rd in my class full of fluent people, was for nothing due to an “accident”. This might’ve pushed me to realise how wrong i was and tried to fix everything and gave my all but it was still very hard for me to show my love in a healthy way. Writing this im realising how stupid this whole thing sounds but bare with me. By that time he had already lost all trust in me and about 3 months before our anniversary he started talking to a girl behind my back, I’d find out and get mad then he’d apologise, we’d get back together and he’d do it again. This, missing my home country and the school problems sent me into a deep depression. I had stopped talking to all of my friends and I’d cry multiple times a day. 2 weeks before our anniversary he had asked for a break to focus on school and 2 days later i found out from the friends i had stopped talking to that he was talking to that girl again and even met her. The day he met her i had a gut feeling and asked him, for the first time ever, straight up “are you cheating on me?” which he denied, telling me he was smoking with his friend. After that i decided i have had enough and after a few screaming fits on the phone and the support of my friends and mom i broke up with him. I started seeing other people immediately since i was feeling so low and at the time needed the validation. I kept on seeing him as “friends with benefits”. We met about 2 weeks after the break up, asked him to leave after the deed and when he refused i started gushing about all of the boys that wanted me as newly single. Ik it was very petty of me, there are many red flags throughout this story, as i said we are both teenagers and have deadbeat fathers. He ig didn’t think i had it in me and was taken by surprise and confessed to me he had been miserable without me (sucks for you buddy). This went on to be a very toxic sort of friend ship with benefits? I would lead him on saying “I’m not ready to get back together yet” but secretly doing anything i thought would make me get over him. This went on until Christmas when after one of our fights where he found out i was talking to my ex. He left some of his tabac in my bag and i refused to give it back (again out of pettiness). He texted my mom. She gave it back to him and i blocked him everywhere. A day after i met up with a guy and hooked up on Christmas. A week later, on new years eve it was his birthday and i didn’t resist and texted him. We called he confessed he had seen another woman in this time and after 5 days I’ve decided to give it another chance. I felt like this Christmas hook up opened my eyes to everything i had been doing wrong. I had been either extremely distant or extremely needy and there should be a healthy balance. And he too realised his wrongs. I said we’d try to be loyal to each other for 3 months and see where it goes. He had developed this system where any time I’d get very angry he’ll just poker faced tell me “if you don’t like it leave”. And that would make me crazy. I’d have panic attacks, feel like i can’t get through to him and hurt myself. All of this got better when we had a sleepover, because my mom was out of town, where we realised we both missed each other so much and didn’t have a healthy way to communicate so we’d just argue. Since then our relationship has gotten better, we are not perfect but working to meet each other’s needs and understand one another before jumping to conclusions. Now, i keep on having these nightmares where either him, my mom or my dad would do something bad, i would be rightfully upset and get no answer which would get me again crazy, throwing things, screaming, crying. And still throughout all of this they wouldn’t be able to see how upset i am. Idk if i want advice or just somebody to listening to me? I really love this guy and he loves me, we are working to fight our parents mistakes and be happy together. Ik we have truly made progress and wouldn’t make the same mistakes again. Idk if it’s better to give up, HEAL and start fresh with somebody new when the time’s right? Idk if we can recover from all of this? I want to make this work but i think we are both too young for the level of our problems and need help. I’m reluctant to go to therapy since i have had bad experiences with them but im working my way there. Until then here i am ig Please keep in mind i don’t use the internet a lot to post since I’m scared of bullies and as I’ve said i am a teenager with bad self love so don’t tear up into me too hard. Thank you for reading my silly little thoughts. If this gets good responses I’m thinking about getting his side of the story and how he sees everything but it depends what he is and isn’t comfortable with sharing on the internet.
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2023.06.04 21:54 tinselwooos Tailbone area in pain, possibly caused by seated abductor machine, help!

***I know this is no sub for proper medical advice but I just want to rule out some things and/or hope it will go away on its own just like my hip pain did a while ago without me doing anything. My country's healthcare is shit and I can't turn to anybody so I'm seeking out opinions and experience if someone's had the same issue***
My background: I'm 26F, been weight training for 8mo around 5 times a week, 2 of which are lower body workouts with focus on glutes. I've been grasshopper-skinny my whole life and I weigh just above 51 kgs for my 171 cm frame despite eating 2k+ calories a day and consuming over 100 grams of mostly plant protein daily. I'd been vegan since 2017 but have relaxed a little lately and introduced skyr and non-vegan protein bars into my diet.
The issue: a few weeks ago I was doing my usual leg day, progressively overloading, as one does. My leg days consist of about 6-8 exercises, totaling in about 2hr in the gym or sometimes just a little above 2hr. One of my regular exercises is seated abduction done on the machine. I had no problem with it up until recently. (I did some googling and apparently it's the worst type of abduction and can cause more harm than good but that's another topic. I decided I'mma ditch the machine and do cable kickbacks in the future as an alternative but the pain is the main focus right now).
I started randomly feeling this sharp pain exactly in the tailbone area while nearing the end of each set on the abductor machine. I can't tell if it's just the end of lower back or the very top of the glutes, but tailbone pretty much is where it's at and more precisely, the pain is located JUST to the right side of the tailbone. So not the exact middle, but towards the right.
I was doing the goog, couldn't help myself. But couldn't find anything similar to my situation. The nearest thing I came across is periformis syndrome, but mine isn't that low in the butt and stretching didn't help, so I ruled it out. My pain is definitely not in the muscle since I can't massage it out nor do I feel tension with applied pressure with my fists or knuckles. I can't tell if it's bone or nerve. Walking on my right leg has become uncomfortable and if you give me a closer look, you could tell something's off on the right side of my body because I'm sliiiighly limping. My glutes want to work out and build but this pain is really frustrating and limiting.
Has anyone had this experience? Any advice would be appreciated! Thank you.
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2023.06.04 21:53 TheAnswerIsPuppies 39[F4M] - Ontario/anywhere - I have lovingly been described as “obnoxiously optimistic”

…so it’s not a huge jump for me to look for my person on Reddit. I have a great life, and I’m looking for a partner to share that with (i.e., not trying to fill a void or distract from boredom). I want to hold hands, snort-laugh, take care of each other, have adventures (of the non-skydiving variety), push you to be the best version of yourself and have you do the same for me. I want all of the happy and mundane and silly and sad and frustrating parts of life to be just a bit better cause we’re in it together…that’s not asking for much, right? 😂
Me: 100% single and into monogamy; kind; 🇺🇸 living in 🇨🇦; career in social services; extroverted bookworm; non-smoker; loves learning and trying new things; Jewish; chaotic good; short and voluptuous, curly hair, 1.5 dimples, too expressive for my own good; always striving for allyship with those who are marginalized/oppressed; open to relocation
You: 100% single and into monogamy; kind; 32-46ish; non-smoker; aware of what’s going on in the world and trying to be on the right side of history; willing to take this offline; passionate about whatever your things are (bonus points for: pets you can send pictures of; in Eastern time zone; tolerance for a texting partner who overuses emojis 🙋🏻‍♀️)
Some of my hobbies include: walking dogs at the Humane Society, trying to solve crimes faster than the detectives in mystery novels, leveling up my cooking and baking (currently perfecting my lemon bars), compiling a never-ending list of nicknames for my cat, kicking butt at laser tag and Scattergories, exploring new places (with bonus side quests to find the best local ice cream), planning my next tattoo, sending my friends videos of babies dancing and cats being jerks, balancing my fear of heights with my love of roller coasters, and convincing everyone that manatees are superior to dolphins in every way
What you should do: if you think we might zing, send me a message with a little about yourself and what subject you would choose if you were forced to teach a class about only one thing
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