Physical therapy in amityville

For this scenario, I'd like it to take place before Luz and Amity became friends, so it'd happen after Luz "goes" to Hexside as an abomination but before the Convention, so neither of them would know much about the other. Luz would see Amity as witch who's obbsessed with grades and is a jerk, while, Amity would see Luz as the "abomination" who took away her gold star and got her in trouble. As for how the scenario would play out: After some physical abuse from Odalia, Amity ran away from Blight Manor while wearing a cloak to hide her identity. Meanwhile, Luz was exploring the Boiling Isles until she accidentally bumped into somebody wearing a cloak. The accident caused the hood of the cloak to fall off, revealing Amity with a black eye. I chose this scenario because I'm curious about what could happen? How would Luz react seeing the witch who was mean to her friend and attempted to have her bisected scared, crying and with a black eye? How would Amity react seeing the "abomination" that she attempted to have bisected find her in this state, only to attempt to help her? Stuff like that.

I'm currently in a relationship where my partner seems incapable of personal growth or making any effort to improve themselves. I'm unsure if she simply used me as a source of validation and comfort for her own feelings. I've even encouraged her to strive for personal development, but she hasn't taken any action. Dealing with someone like this seems to hinder my own self-growth, as I become lazy and find myself engaging in the same unproductive behaviors (like staying in bed and neglecting physical activities).

I was surprised that not many are talking about Amber admitting to being physical with her partners. This info has been out for a long time but nobody seems to have discussed it. I've been in the Amberverse for a long while and am just now seeing this.
In this Mr.Snowflake video, he shows an Askfm post of hers from 2014. In this post she openly admits to Pushing, shoving, and scratching her partners "sometimes" and while acknowledging that it's bad behavior she is adamant that if it only happens a couple of times it's not abuse. Another thing he shows in the video is a live stream of Cesey claiming that he once wrote a massage to Amber talking about hoping she won't do the same things she did in their relationship, with Krystel. While he says he deleted the chat he states that Amber replied admitting to hitting Krystal once.
Most of the time abusers don't realize how terrible they are because they either don't see their actions as drastic, because for them it's not a traumatizing event and just another Wednesday. Or they try to minimize responsibility through excuses (aka Bingemonster). We should also not forget her just yesterday stating that she forgives the things people do because of trauma. Remind you she sho longer mad at Destiny's mom for beating her because it may have been a traumatic reaction. She probably thinks like this because this mentality helps her excuse all her wrongdoings.
There are multiple testimonies about her violence from different people, that didn't have contact with each other, and even lots from herself. Do we believe that not only the internet but also her exes are on a witchhunt to make her look bad? Even Becky who wants nothing to do with this is in support of Destiny. I mean we saw some terrible treatment and got to hear about her food aggression whos to guess what happened once the cameras were off.
All of this isn't just he said she said drama. It becomes a pattern of abuse with Amber being the common denominator. I truly do not believe a word of what she says and no matter how much she wants to claim she's grown being an abuser is not something that people should just look over when they talk about you desperately if she has not shown any growth in the last more than 5 years.

To start off I just want to say thank you to anyone who takes the time to read this and also that it doesn't not feel good sharing details of my relationship online but my Gf (Emily for the sake of the story) has encouraged me multiple to share on reddit. So here we go. Emily and I are in a argument today, the start of this was my younger brother(28M) asked if we wanted to join him and his gf(30F "Vicky") to go to the spring fair that the town he and I grew up in holds every year. At first I was apprehensive about this for a few reasons the 1st being that Vicky is an alcoholic with a rather serious problem who has a history of picking fights with anyone when she feels stress and makes scenes in public. For some context my brother has tried extensively to get her into rehab to no avail it just leads to her getting aggressive so he just does his best to keep her from getting blackout drunk everyday he doesn't drink anymore because of her and does his best to keep it out of their house. After mentioning it to Emily she wanted to go so I figured why not at least for the nostalgia of going back to somewhere we use to have fun as kids. So the plan was that we would go grab some fair food watch the derby that stated at 7:15 and check out what else is there. So to me if the derby starts at 7:15 that means get there for at least 7 so we can grab some seats, but to Vicky that meant getting in the car to leave at 7:30. I did not say a word even tho I think it is really rude and selfish, just tried to talk and joke with my brother who I haven't really seen since before Christmas (long story) so we brought the presents we haven't been able to give them yet, since it's June I was shrugging and making a wide eyed face in an awkward joking way when we handed them the gifts which I didn't have to do but was trying to lighten the mood since Vicky was storming around blaming everyone else for her not being ready yet, and then Emily who wasn't really paying attention when I was talking to my brother handed him some laundry detergent that she ordered to much of online and I made the same face. It was not my intention but without saying anything Emily took this to be deeply offensive as she thinks I was making fun of her and refuses to see it any other way. Also while this interaction was taking place Vicky took the opportunity to take a couple shots of Jägermeister when she thought no one was looking. By the time we actually parked it was almost 8 and Vicky was still taking forever to get out of the car and start walking toward the fair grounds because she is yelling at my brother how she needs a smoke when we get to the gate as I'm paying the absurd admission fee of $20 per person I can hear on the PA that the derby is finishing, I am not sure if anyone else heard it but within 30 seconds of getting through the gate Vicky started to have a panic attack. I am no expert but it's always been my understanding that it is best to give someone having panic attack space, not to surround them and repeatedly asked are you okay. So that is what I tried to do and let her and my brother have a moment since it is literally what Vicky was asking for. Emily took offense to this as well and thinks I was being insensitive and uncaring when in reality I was just trying to do what I thought was best in the situation since in the past Vicky seeing me when she gets like this makes things worse. We waited a few minutes for her to settle and feel okay while making it clear we have the option of leaving right then, it's no big deal. She decides no we should at least get some food since we came all the way there and weren't getting our admission fee back anyway. So we went and grabbed a blooming onion from a food truck. After receiving our food Vicky walked over to a corner I thought she was looking for somewhere to sit and eat since there was a bench over there but it was clearly for the food truck employees to have their break area. I asked 4 or 5 times what are we doing over here, do you guys want to go find some where to sit, let's go this way.. no one responded to me, I did not realize Vicky was having another panic attack since she was acting completely differently from the panic attack she had 15 minutes earlier, thinking I guess they're just waiting for me to move since my back was facing the only direction we can walk I see that the Emily is following me but she had already made it clear with her body language she wasn't interested in holding my hand walking through the crowd like we usually would do so I keep walking since 1 I hate being in a flow of crowded people 2 who stops and stands in the middle of where hundreds of people are clearly walking? We get through the crowd and Emily is right behind me but upset because she thinks I was insensitive to Vicky again/ thought I tried to leave her behind. My brother and Vicky were 20 seconds behind us we sat and ate without anyone saying much of anything then after maybe about an hour after getting through the gate we decide to leave. Get back to the car and Vicky is again angrily demanding smokes but also just realized she has no idea where her phone is so my brother and I spend a few minutes looking for it and then stop because it's not the first time she drank to much before leaving and just left her phone at home this upsets her of course but ends up being the case. So driving back home from my brothers place Emily is giving me the silent treatment, get home have a few minutes to unwind still not talking to me, she goes to start playing a game on the computer, I felt that was enough time for her to bring it up on her own and didn't feel like being treated like this again so I asked calmly if she wants to talk about what the problem is, Emily then proceeded to list the things I explained above while accusing me of being the problem and that I am at fault cause she thinks I was angry. It was a pretty bad night but reflecting I do not see how to do things differently in the future at no point throughout the night did I raise my voice, show any type of upset expression on my face, say anything that was rude or combative, I didn't take a deep breath because she gets upset when she can hear me exhale. I apologized for hurting her feelings about the laundry detergent but will not say I did it intentionally because I did not do it intentionally so she stormed off to bed. More silent treatment today until she needs a ride to work even tho I made it clear I'm not going anywhere today and she can drive my car herself since it's only a 5-10 min drive from our place she insisted I drive her. On the way there she tried to tell me an even more elaborate detailing of what she feels I did wrong while also insisting that I did not apologize the night before and I am not allowed to speak on my own behalf, then yelling at me every time I did try to speak which escalated and lead to her stating in a clear voice repeatedly that "now she is going to cry at work" like it is a threat or something. She deals with PTSD from SA by her stepbrother (she has given the green light for me talk about this on here, she did a post herself going into detail about it both to vent and for the sake of awareness about speaking out even when your family tries to tell you that you can't) I have known from the very start of our relationship and have always been as supportive and sensitive as possible when caring for her needs, not to say that I am perfect at it but I always have tried to be supportive in whatever way she says she needs. Like many other people I deal with my own anxiety, I have a different brother who I haven't spoken since I was 18 because he is an addict among other things but because we use to look so much a like I have been jumped twice, almost been stabbed and when I was in high school some guy came into my school with a gun threatened to shoot me in the face over problems with that brother. I don't try to use it as an excuse but the truth is I don't like large social settings, no matter how much I try it is hard to not be a little on edge, I pay a bit closer attention to my surroundings than the average person does and even tho I've explained it the best I can to her she gets upset when she notices I get like that and thinks there is no acceptable reason for my behaviour. We met when I was 19 and she was 17 she approached me at my work and asked for my number. We have been through a lot together and I love her however lately it feels like this is a repeating pattern where if anything goes wrong that negatively impacts her view of a experience it is my fault and keeps defaulting to yelling that I'm an asshole and she thinks I need therapy and tho I have explained repeatedly I have sought out someone to speak to online and the idea of sitting down and paying someone to hear your problems is a concept that I am not very comfortable with she stubbornly and in my opinion aggressively denies I am doing anything and inadvertently repeatedly states that she is "healthy" and I am not which feels really insulting after all the support I gave while she was going through her therapy which she procrastinated on for a year without a peep out of me because I understand it was a hard situation and that forcing yourself to "get help" is not necessarily the best move if your not mentally ready for it. TLDR -- Being called an asshole for how I handled Vicky having a panic attack.

24M. Back in the day I loved being around people and people loved being around me.
Last 4 years I’ve turned into the most self centred narcissist lazy stupid asshole bitch that everybody hates so it’s time for me to go. I’ve lost all of my friends, my family and extended fam hates me, I can hear people gossip about me at work all the time no matter what job they think I’m fucked up (don’t blame them) and even strangers I try to talk to don’t say much and go their own way. I’m done. I don’t give a single fuck anymore, before I was depressed and holding on now I don’t give a fuck and want out. Either gonna get my gun licence and buy a pistol or hit up the homeless camps with cash getting a ridiculous amount of fentanyl I can fall asleep to.
There’s no hope in a world for me where every single person hates me lmao
Obviously theirs something wrong with me to have not even one person like me these days. I’m so far from returning to my old self that it would take months of therapy and rest and restarting over. Everything is way to expensive as it is so I don’t see that being an option. Fuck this world. Fuck this life. I don’t blame people for hating me because I hate myself even more.
It is time to go. My life has been lived already. Watch them all say something once I’m gone… nah don’t even put my name in yur mouth cowards

I am wondering if anyone has had problems adding an MVNO as a second line via eSim when your primary line is from Verizon. I do this because VZ has dead spots and I still have a plan where they throttle feathering, and because I will NOT pay $10/day to use my phone overseas when I can pay $5/trip for an eSim. In case any of you have tried and failed, I think I’ve figured it out and I wanted to share how I did it.
I’m on an unlocked S20 Ultra, and I upgraded early because I bought it before Samsung backed off of their claim that it had an eSim. Turns out, it does have an eSim but they disabled it (even on the unlocked version) if it is running the software that pairs with a Verizon sim. They told me they had no plans to fix that “issue”, so I was left buying new physical sims for each trip. Last year I bought an orange Spain sim on Amazon, and happened to do a software update with that sim installed. All of a sudden, i have an eSim! Better yet, I still had an eSim when I returned to the VZ physical SIM card.
Problem solved? Of course not because, well, I have Verizon. I now (finally) can run a dual sim at home using Red Pocket GSMA and VZ, so I have coverage when VZ is bad. Cue next trip to Europe and I go to ADD an eSim—sorry, Samsung tells me that I can’t add a second eSim without uninstalling the first. Nonsense, but whatever back to the physical sim for Europe (red pocket works there for no extra charge if you use Wi-Fi calling).
So I’m in Europe with a physical sim from Free Mobile and an eSim from red pocket. I’m messing around with the sim manager and accidentally hit add eSim—it worked! No need to uninstall the red pocket eSim anymore, and I’m finally able to use my phone as intended.
So, from what I can tell, the Samsung OS paired with Verizon is programmed to prohibit adding any more eSims than already exist on the phone. If you’re wondering why your Samsung phone makes you restart when you switch the SIM card, that’s to load the software variant specific to the new carrier on unlocked phones. That software version includes things like, for instance, refusing the ability to add any more eSims than existed before (even if that number was zero). Bastards.
So, since I can’t find anything on Google talking about the issue, I wanted to share how to solve it. These steps fully solve the issue, but I suspect you can also duplicate them just by buying a cheap three U.K. sim on Amazon and doing them without first traveling to Europe. However, I can only confirm that they work while actually in Europe.

1. When you have a software update available, switch to an international sim before installing the update. You can buy them on Amazon sometimes for as little as $10, and as a bonus the higher three packages give you a data allowance to use in the US.
2. Do the software update. Once the phone installs it, your eSim magically works.
3. then you MUST install an eSim. You can download them for as little as $4.50. Now if you go back to a Verizon physical sim, you can add an eSim even when the VZ software is running.
4. download and install a spare eSim, so you have two installed at the same time, even if you don’t need two. The only way to get a second eSim is if you don’t run the VZ software.

A few caveats. I have not yet tried to change the second eSim with the VZ sim installed. I won’t have the need to do that until 2024, but if it doesn’t work I can always repeat the steps above. Also, I’m writing on mobile so excuse the formatting.
And a final note: shame on Verizon, and shame on Samsung. This is EXACTLY why I go with MVNOs whenever I can!

Hey ladies,
Happy Sunday! Hope you’re enjoying the absolutely gorgeous weather in the Bay today!
I’d love to make your weekend even better with a massage and oral worship - even though it’s nice outside, there’s nothing I’d rather do than work the stress out of every knot in your body. I absolutely love the intimacy of giving a massage and oral, and figured that given my last posts’ successes, I’d post again.
Me: white collar, well educated professional who had a part-time job as a masseuse during my younger years. I love making other people’s bodies feel good and pay extreme attention to detail. I also LOVE to diligently please a woman orally. A literal kiss ass and an unselfish giver 😊
You: Loves receiving oral and massages; bonus points if you like facesitting!
Physically I’m 5’10, fit with a runners body and some muscle. DDF (recently tested) and fully vaccinated.
I can host at my place in Mountain View / Palo Alto, I can travel to you, or we can get a hotel. I am also happy to grab food and drinks beforehand, or go for a walk.
If you’re interested, please message me and I’m happy to share pictures after we’ve chatted a bit.

Every Sunday, or whenever it is possible, I give a recap of the sermon I heard at church today. I often alternate between Catholic, Protestant and Orthodox churches.
Today's readings:
Numbers 11:16-17,24-29

The Lord said to Moses: “Gather to Me seventy men of the elders of Israel, whom you know to be the elders of the people and officers over them; bring them to the tabernacle of meeting, that they may stand there with you. Then I will come down and talk with you there. I will take of the Spirit that is upon you and will put the same upon them; and they shall bear the burden of the people with you, that you may not bear it yourself alone.” So Moses went out and told the people the words of the Lord, and he gathered the seventy men of the elders of the people and placed them around the tabernacle. Then the Lord came down in the cloud, and spoke to him, and took of the Spirit that was upon him, and placed the same upon the seventy elders; and it happened, when the Spirit rested upon them, that they prophesied, although they never did so again. But two men had remained in the camp: the name of one was Eldad, and the name of the other Medad. And the Spirit rested upon them. Now they were among those listed, but who had not gone out to the tabernacle; yet they prophesied in the camp. And a young man ran and told Moses, and said, “Eldad and Medad are prophesying in the camp.” So Joshua the son of Nun, Moses’ assistant, one of his choice men, answered and said, “Moses my lord, forbid them!” Then Moses said to him, “Are you zealous for my sake? Oh, that all the Lord’s people were prophets and that the Lord would put His Spirit upon them!”

Joel 2:23-32

Be glad then, you children of Zion, and rejoice in the Lord your God; for He has given you the former rain faithfully, and He will cause the rain to come down for you—the former rain, and the latter rain in the first month. The threshing floors shall be full of wheat, and the vats shall overflow with new wine and oil. “So I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten, the crawling locust, the consuming locust, and the chewing locust, My great army which I sent among you. You shall eat in plenty and be satisfied, and praise the name of the Lord your God, Who has dealt wondrously with you; and My people shall never be put to shame. Then you shall know that I am in the midst of Israel: I am the Lord your God and there is no other. My people shall never be put to shame. And it shall come to pass afterward that I will pour out My Spirit on all flesh; your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, your old men shall dream dreams, your young men shall see visions. And also on My menservants and on My maidservants I will pour out My Spirit in those days. And I will show wonders in the heavens and in the earth: blood and fire and pillars of smoke. The sun shall be turned into darkness, and the moon into blood, before the coming of the great and awesome day of the Lord. And it shall come to pass that whoever calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved. For in Mount Zion and in Jerusalem there shall be deliverance, as the Lord has said, among the remnant whom the Lord calls.”

John 20:19-31

The same day at evening, being the first day of the week, when the doors were shut where the disciples were assembled, for fear of the Jews, Jesus came and stood in the midst, and said to them, “Peace be with you.” When He had said this, He showed them His hands and His side. Then the disciples were glad when they saw the Lord. So Jesus said to them again, “Peace to you! As the Father has sent Me, I also send you.” And when He had said this, He breathed on them, and said to them, “Receive the Holy Spirit. If you forgive the sins of any, they are forgiven them; if you retain the sins of any, they are retained.” Now Thomas, called the Twin, one of the twelve, was not with them when Jesus came. The other disciples therefore said to him, “We have seen the Lord.” So he said to them, “Unless I see in His hands the print of the nails, and put my finger into the print of the nails, and put my hand into His side, I will not believe.” And after eight days His disciples were again inside, and Thomas with them. Jesus came, the doors being shut, and stood in the midst, and said, “Peace to you!” Then He said to Thomas, “Reach your finger here, and look at My hands; and reach your hand here, and put it into My side. Do not be unbelieving, but believing.”And Thomas answered and said to Him, “My Lord and my God!” Jesus said to him, “Thomas, because you have seen Me, you have believed. Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.” And truly Jesus did many other signs in the presence of His disciples, which are not written in this book; but these are written that you may believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God, and that believing you may have life in His name.

Acts 2:1-11

When the Day of Pentecost had fully come, they were all with one accord in one place. And suddenly there came a sound from heaven, as of a rushing mighty wind, and it filled the whole house where they were sitting. Then there appeared to them divided tongues, as of fire, and one sat upon each of them. And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak with other tongues, as the Spirit gave them utterance. And there were dwelling in Jerusalem Jews, devout men, from every nation under heaven. And when this sound occurred, the multitude came together, and were confused, because everyone heard them speak in his own language. Then they were all amazed and marveled, saying to one another, “Look, are not all these who speak Galileans? And how is it that we hear, each in our own language in which we were born? Parthians and Medes and Elamites, those dwelling in Mesopotamia, Judea and Cappadocia, Pontus and Asia, Phrygia and Pamphylia, Egypt and the parts of Libya adjoining Cyrene, visitors from Rome, both Jews and proselytes, Cretans and Arabs—we hear them speaking in our own tongues the wonderful works of God.”

John 7:37-52; 8:12

On the last day, that great day of the feast, Jesus stood and cried out, saying, “If anyone thirsts, let him come to Me and drink. He who believes in Me, as the Scripture has said, out of his heart will flow rivers of living water.” But this He spoke concerning the Spirit, whom those believing in Him would receive; for the Holy Spirit was not yet given, because Jesus was not yet glorified. Therefore many from the crowd, when they heard this saying, said, “Truly this is the Prophet.” Others said, “This is the Christ.” But some said, “Will the Christ come out of Galilee? Has not the Scripture said that the Christ comes from the seed of David and from the town of Bethlehem, where David was?” So there was a division among the people because of Him. Now some of them wanted to take Him, but no one laid hands on Him. Then the officers came to the chief priests and Pharisees, who said to them, “Why have you not brought Him?” The officers answered, “No man ever spoke like this Man!” Then the Pharisees answered them, “Are you also deceived? Have any of the rulers or the Pharisees believed in Him? But this crowd that does not know the law is accursed.” Nicodemus (he who came to Jesus by night, being one of them) said to them, “Does our law judge a man before it hears him and knows what he is doing?” They answered and said to him, “Are you also from Galilee? Search and look, for no prophet has arisen out of Galilee.” Then Jesus spoke to them again, saying, “I am the light of the world. He who follows Me shall not walk in darkness, but have the light of life.”

Today is the feast of Pentecost, and the end of the Paschal season which covers Easter, the Ascension and Pentecost. It is the culmination of the event of the resurrection.
In an earlier sermon we discussed why we say specifically “Christ is risen,” and not “Jesus is risen.” We said that it is unremarkable for a man named Jesus, or for instance Lazarus, to be resurrected; as we saw with the latter, this was only a resuscitation to life which still ended up again in death. It is a resurrection to earthly life. But to say Christ is risen has another implication altogether: resurrection to heavenly life.
By His resurrection Jesus teaches us three lessons. Let's review them.
First: Jesus rose from the dead with our very flesh. By His rising from the dead, which is our rising from the dead, Jesus demonstrates the inherent dignity of the human being, which not even death can keep confined. He demonstrates this further by His apparition to Thomas, displaying His very human wounds in His risen body, and by His glorious ascension to the right hand of God by which man is given his place right at the side of God. By His resurrection, Jesus displays the design of God for mankind: to elevate us above everything else.
Second: Jesus puts our humanity above the angels. Indeed, the angels were made to serve not only God but also man. See how the angels advised Abraham (in Genesis 18), saved Lot from Sodom (in Genesis 19), and guided Tobias (in Tobit). As stated in Hebrews 2:5-18, the world was not made to be ruled by angels, but to be ruled by human beings, which Jesus Christ fulfilled in His person. However, Lucifer, the devil, did not accept this, and inflamed himself with pride and revolted because he refused to serve man.
Third: “Christ” means the Messiah, the One sent by God Whom the Jews expected, and today still expect; our belief that the Christ has come as Jesus may be the only thing differenciating us from them, they who are our elder brothers in the faith. To say the One sent by God is risen is to say that God's promise, incarnated and recapitulated in this person, never dies; it remains with us forever, nothing can keep it away from us. This is why, during the Divine Liturgy, we answer to each other “Christ is in our midst—He is and ever shall be.” The Ascension does not contradict this: it is not the farewell of Jesus, but on the contrary the pledge of His everlasting presence. It is the fulfillment of His words in His last discourse (John 16:7): “If I do not go away, the Helper will not come to you; but if I depart, I will send Him to you.”
The Gospel of John often speaks of the Paraclete, which is translated as the Helper but also means the Advocate, Defender, Intercessor. Jesus calls Him the Spirit of Truth. He is the mean by which His words after His resurrection will come true (Matthew 28:20): “I am with you always, even to the end of the age.” The coming of the Holy Spirit is the permanent presence of Jesus with us. As He also told the Apostles (John 14:16-17): “I will pray the Father, and He will give you another Helper, that He may abide with you forever—the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees Him nor knows Him; but you know Him, for He dwells with you and will be in you.”
Therefore the Lord sends us His Holy Spirit and remains with us forever, not in His physical presence but in His spiritual presence. Led and empowered and accompanied by Him, nothing is required of us, except for one thing: to know the Spirit. St. Seraphim of Sarov taught plainly that the aim of the Christian life is nothing else but the acquisition and intimate knowledge of the Holy Spirit. To this end, let us at least pray daily, morning and evening, from Pentecost to Easter, this prayer which during that time opens all our prayers: “Heavenly King, Comforter, the Spirit of truth, everywhere present and filling all things, Treasury of blessings and Giver of Life, come and dwell in us; cleanse us of every stain and save our souls, gracious One.” Let us also always keep everyday in ourselves the promise of Jesus' enduring and permanent presence in and with us, which becomes a fountain of joy and vivifying comfort and consolation for our troubles. Amen.

We agreed outside of court and filed paperwork for 50/50 legal, physical, and parenting time. It was signed by a judge April 30th 2023. Ex has a step up plan with my son, as they don't get along which states, I accompany him on all visits. She lives 3 miles away currently and has not even asked for him to come over during her time. She only wants our daughter. 2/2/3 parenting time.
Now, my son goes to elementary school and gets on/off the bus at my house. I do all the day to day care for him. My daughter is not enrolled in school yet, but I believe it's safe to assume she'd go to the same district as my son.
She informed me by phone call (recorded) that she is moving 70 miles away (same state). She is to move in with her new boyfriend (they met one time. Kids have never met him). And she will be enrolling our daughter in school in this new city.
Both our kids have grown up in our home city, All the family is here. Everything they know is here. Obviously, if she does this a modification needs to occur to the current order.
What do you all think will happen? I will obviously do everything in my power to prevent this. And will ask for sole legal and physically if she does this. What are my chances of that happening? I doubt a judge will allow the children to be split up. And if she wants to move 70 miles away, travel should be on her and maybe she should only get weekends or every other weekend as to not interfere with their schooling. Anyone been through a similar situation?

Bf M(22) and me F(25). We’ve been together for 3 years going on 4.
First off I’d like to input we have horrible communication. Whenever I try to address a concern or really anything my bf doesn’t actually hear me out, he tends to continue to read on his phone, flat out not listens to what I have to say, or he usually tries to address his many problems with me that he builds up so we don’t have to talk about what I’m upset with him about. My bf feels like he’s walking on eggshells with me, that’s what he says. I don’t blame him, I’m quick to anger but I’ve been going to therapy about it and changed the dosage on my medication to help. I’ve taken steps to better our relationship while he has literally done NOTHING. He thinks I’m the problem to why we fight and that my anger is usually the cause of me being the bad guy, because of how I yell and scream and can’t form sentences when I’m really upset about something. He then proceeds to tell me that he’s dating a child that can’t properly address her concerns. Why can’t I address my concerns in a way that doesn’t lead us to fighting? Why does he make me feel incompetent? Why does my bf make my feelings invalid? And yes he told me my feelings are invalid for yelling at him, over him trying to turn the argument onto me when originally I was just trying to address an issue of his where he talks to me as if I’m a little kid and it makes me feel incompetent. Am I the asshole or am I dating the asshole?

Every Sunday, or whenever it is possible, I give a recap of the sermon I heard at church today. I often alternate between Catholic, Protestant and Orthodox churches.
Today's readings:
Numbers 11:16-17,24-29

The Lord said to Moses: “Gather to Me seventy men of the elders of Israel, whom you know to be the elders of the people and officers over them; bring them to the tabernacle of meeting, that they may stand there with you. Then I will come down and talk with you there. I will take of the Spirit that is upon you and will put the same upon them; and they shall bear the burden of the people with you, that you may not bear it yourself alone.” So Moses went out and told the people the words of the Lord, and he gathered the seventy men of the elders of the people and placed them around the tabernacle. Then the Lord came down in the cloud, and spoke to him, and took of the Spirit that was upon him, and placed the same upon the seventy elders; and it happened, when the Spirit rested upon them, that they prophesied, although they never did so again. But two men had remained in the camp: the name of one was Eldad, and the name of the other Medad. And the Spirit rested upon them. Now they were among those listed, but who had not gone out to the tabernacle; yet they prophesied in the camp. And a young man ran and told Moses, and said, “Eldad and Medad are prophesying in the camp.” So Joshua the son of Nun, Moses’ assistant, one of his choice men, answered and said, “Moses my lord, forbid them!” Then Moses said to him, “Are you zealous for my sake? Oh, that all the Lord’s people were prophets and that the Lord would put His Spirit upon them!”

Joel 2:23-32

Be glad then, you children of Zion, and rejoice in the Lord your God; for He has given you the former rain faithfully, and He will cause the rain to come down for you—the former rain, and the latter rain in the first month. The threshing floors shall be full of wheat, and the vats shall overflow with new wine and oil. “So I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten, the crawling locust, the consuming locust, and the chewing locust, My great army which I sent among you. You shall eat in plenty and be satisfied, and praise the name of the Lord your God, Who has dealt wondrously with you; and My people shall never be put to shame. Then you shall know that I am in the midst of Israel: I am the Lord your God and there is no other. My people shall never be put to shame. And it shall come to pass afterward that I will pour out My Spirit on all flesh; your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, your old men shall dream dreams, your young men shall see visions. And also on My menservants and on My maidservants I will pour out My Spirit in those days. And I will show wonders in the heavens and in the earth: blood and fire and pillars of smoke. The sun shall be turned into darkness, and the moon into blood, before the coming of the great and awesome day of the Lord. And it shall come to pass that whoever calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved. For in Mount Zion and in Jerusalem there shall be deliverance, as the Lord has said, among the remnant whom the Lord calls.”

John 20:19-31

The same day at evening, being the first day of the week, when the doors were shut where the disciples were assembled, for fear of the Jews, Jesus came and stood in the midst, and said to them, “Peace be with you.” When He had said this, He showed them His hands and His side. Then the disciples were glad when they saw the Lord. So Jesus said to them again, “Peace to you! As the Father has sent Me, I also send you.” And when He had said this, He breathed on them, and said to them, “Receive the Holy Spirit. If you forgive the sins of any, they are forgiven them; if you retain the sins of any, they are retained.” Now Thomas, called the Twin, one of the twelve, was not with them when Jesus came. The other disciples therefore said to him, “We have seen the Lord.” So he said to them, “Unless I see in His hands the print of the nails, and put my finger into the print of the nails, and put my hand into His side, I will not believe.” And after eight days His disciples were again inside, and Thomas with them. Jesus came, the doors being shut, and stood in the midst, and said, “Peace to you!” Then He said to Thomas, “Reach your finger here, and look at My hands; and reach your hand here, and put it into My side. Do not be unbelieving, but believing.”And Thomas answered and said to Him, “My Lord and my God!” Jesus said to him, “Thomas, because you have seen Me, you have believed. Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.” And truly Jesus did many other signs in the presence of His disciples, which are not written in this book; but these are written that you may believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God, and that believing you may have life in His name.

Acts 2:1-11

When the Day of Pentecost had fully come, they were all with one accord in one place. And suddenly there came a sound from heaven, as of a rushing mighty wind, and it filled the whole house where they were sitting. Then there appeared to them divided tongues, as of fire, and one sat upon each of them. And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak with other tongues, as the Spirit gave them utterance. And there were dwelling in Jerusalem Jews, devout men, from every nation under heaven. And when this sound occurred, the multitude came together, and were confused, because everyone heard them speak in his own language. Then they were all amazed and marveled, saying to one another, “Look, are not all these who speak Galileans? And how is it that we hear, each in our own language in which we were born? Parthians and Medes and Elamites, those dwelling in Mesopotamia, Judea and Cappadocia, Pontus and Asia, Phrygia and Pamphylia, Egypt and the parts of Libya adjoining Cyrene, visitors from Rome, both Jews and proselytes, Cretans and Arabs—we hear them speaking in our own tongues the wonderful works of God.”

John 7:37-52; 8:12

On the last day, that great day of the feast, Jesus stood and cried out, saying, “If anyone thirsts, let him come to Me and drink. He who believes in Me, as the Scripture has said, out of his heart will flow rivers of living water.” But this He spoke concerning the Spirit, whom those believing in Him would receive; for the Holy Spirit was not yet given, because Jesus was not yet glorified. Therefore many from the crowd, when they heard this saying, said, “Truly this is the Prophet.” Others said, “This is the Christ.” But some said, “Will the Christ come out of Galilee? Has not the Scripture said that the Christ comes from the seed of David and from the town of Bethlehem, where David was?” So there was a division among the people because of Him. Now some of them wanted to take Him, but no one laid hands on Him. Then the officers came to the chief priests and Pharisees, who said to them, “Why have you not brought Him?” The officers answered, “No man ever spoke like this Man!” Then the Pharisees answered them, “Are you also deceived? Have any of the rulers or the Pharisees believed in Him? But this crowd that does not know the law is accursed.” Nicodemus (he who came to Jesus by night, being one of them) said to them, “Does our law judge a man before it hears him and knows what he is doing?” They answered and said to him, “Are you also from Galilee? Search and look, for no prophet has arisen out of Galilee.” Then Jesus spoke to them again, saying, “I am the light of the world. He who follows Me shall not walk in darkness, but have the light of life.”

Today is the feast of Pentecost, and the end of the Paschal season which covers Easter, the Ascension and Pentecost. It is the culmination of the event of the resurrection.
In an earlier sermon we discussed why we say specifically “Christ is risen,” and not “Jesus is risen.” We said that it is unremarkable for a man named Jesus, or for instance Lazarus, to be resurrected; as we saw with the latter, this was only a resuscitation to life which still ended up again in death. It is a resurrection to earthly life. But to say Christ is risen has another implication altogether: resurrection to heavenly life.
By His resurrection Jesus teaches us three lessons. Let's review them.
First: Jesus rose from the dead with our very flesh. By His rising from the dead, which is our rising from the dead, Jesus demonstrates the inherent dignity of the human being, which not even death can keep confined. He demonstrates this further by His apparition to Thomas, displaying His very human wounds in His risen body, and by His glorious ascension to the right hand of God by which man is given his place right at the side of God. By His resurrection, Jesus displays the design of God for mankind: to elevate us above everything else.
Second: Jesus puts our humanity above the angels. Indeed, the angels were made to serve not only God but also man. See how the angels advised Abraham (in Genesis 18), saved Lot from Sodom (in Genesis 19), and guided Tobias (in Tobit). As stated in Hebrews 2:5-18, the world was not made to be ruled by angels, but to be ruled by human beings, which Jesus Christ fulfilled in His person. However, Lucifer, the devil, did not accept this, and inflamed himself with pride and revolted because he refused to serve man.
Third: “Christ” means the Messiah, the One sent by God Whom the Jews expected, and today still expect; our belief that the Christ has come as Jesus may be the only thing differenciating us from them, they who are our elder brothers in the faith. To say the One sent by God is risen is to say that God's promise, incarnated and recapitulated in this person, never dies; it remains with us forever, nothing can keep it away from us. This is why, during the Divine Liturgy, we answer to each other “Christ is in our midst—He is and ever shall be.” The Ascension does not contradict this: it is not the farewell of Jesus, but on the contrary the pledge of His everlasting presence. It is the fulfillment of His words in His last discourse (John 16:7): “If I do not go away, the Helper will not come to you; but if I depart, I will send Him to you.”
The Gospel of John often speaks of the Paraclete, which is translated as the Helper but also means the Advocate, Defender, Intercessor. Jesus calls Him the Spirit of Truth. He is the mean by which His words after His resurrection will come true (Matthew 28:20): “I am with you always, even to the end of the age.” The coming of the Holy Spirit is the permanent presence of Jesus with us. As He also told the Apostles (John 14:16-17): “I will pray the Father, and He will give you another Helper, that He may abide with you forever—the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees Him nor knows Him; but you know Him, for He dwells with you and will be in you.”
Therefore the Lord sends us His Holy Spirit and remains with us forever, not in His physical presence but in His spiritual presence. Led and empowered and accompanied by Him, nothing is required of us, except for one thing: to know the Spirit. St. Seraphim of Sarov taught plainly that the aim of the Christian life is nothing else but the acquisition and intimate knowledge of the Holy Spirit. To this end, let us at least pray daily, morning and evening, from Pentecost to Easter, this prayer which during that time opens all our prayers: “Heavenly King, Comforter, the Spirit of truth, everywhere present and filling all things, Treasury of blessings and Giver of Life, come and dwell in us; cleanse us of every stain and save our souls, gracious One.” Let us also always keep everyday in ourselves the promise of Jesus' enduring and permanent presence in and with us, which becomes a fountain of joy and vivifying comfort and consolation for our troubles. Amen.

My year 10 PPEs are in two weeks, and I’m yet to begin revising.
Any tips of how I should revise, and what is the most effective way of revising I can do with the time I have left.
I have 9 exams to do.
My subjects: English lit and lang Maths Physics, chemistry, biology Geography Business RE

I wake up in an unfamiliar place, the color of a light red fills my vision, it’s almost pink as my eyes groggily search the room. It looks almost identical to a stereotypical hospital room aside from the color, and the strange alien technology surrounding me. So I'm not dead, I think as I see a holographic screen displaying imagery of an earth field, with green trees in the background and the occasional car passing by every minute or two, what's that about? The room has a large circular couch, thing, it looks like a couch but the design is off somehow. There is also what looks to be a heart rate monitor and an IV going into my right arm. I look to my left arm when I remember what had just happened, a piece of red metal appears to have replaced my shoulder with a small cylindrical protrusion where the arm would normally begin, the fuck, I reach over and touch the foreign object, it’s warm, not too warm but just like touching skin, aside from the smooth texture and the hard metal.
As I sit there examining myself and the surroundings I hear voices outside a smooth green door, voices I can understand, but they aren't speaking English, or any other human language for that matter “so what the hell happened to this one?” a gravely even voice somewhere between male and female sounding asked.
“Report says one of the newbies took off his left arm after she saw the poor thing with a knife. I feel bad for the male, you can see the utter terror in his eyes on the body cam footage.” This voice is higher but still gravely, assuming they worked the same way, this one is definitely a female.
“That boneless bitch, a fucking knife? Their hand guns didn’t even pierce the breastplate let alone a knife! Even if the man got close enough to stab in the weaker areas, they are stab and slash immune.” I don’t know if I am being pitied or talked down to at this point.
“Well you better make it clear you're on his side, it will be hard for him to realize he’ll have to pay a shit ton or just keep the metal. Good luck, and please give him a good uplift name.”
“I will I will, already have one in mind”
The door slides to the right, into the wall and in slithers an alien who has four eyes with similar positioning to humans, orange skin smooth as ours but with no hair, what looks like a wound down the middle of its face yet you can tell it isn’t in a strange way, it doesn’t have ears or a nose, and it’s wearing a skintight green suit that ends a few inches below the “hips” and a black skin tight sleeve down the rest of its tail? Body? Snakes are always confusing on that. The same species that shot my fucking arm off, no tits though so maybe a male? I will find out soon as much to my dismay, it starts talking. “Hello human, I am Mr. Ullgo, your nurse for the time being, how are you feeling?”
If I’m being honest, physically nothing hurts or even feels odd, my metal shoulder is strange to look at, sure, but it doesn’t feel any different than my normal shoulder, I wasn’t about to give them credit though. “Like hell.”
“I see, that is unfortunate, I can’t imagine what you're going through, I'm sure you have questions, please ask any now.”
“Where the fuck am I and why can I understand you?”
“Firstly: you are in an orbital hospital around earth for treating troops and civilians, and your neurons have been modified in a way that you speak and understand Ikotac, the standard language for the Argochurian Authority.” he sounds very matter of factly
“You did fucking what!” I shout lifting myself up for the first time.
“My dear sir, pride ourselves on a smooth integration and this is the best way to do it.” he says putting a hand on his chest, there are two fingers on each side of the palm, strange
“Real fucking smooth, show up, blast a city into ash, blow a man’s arm off in his own home, kidnap him and mess with his brain, fuck you pal.”
“I apologize for the wretched behavior made by our military but I have no part in it, I just heal the injured.” sounding almost sincere
“Yeah? Then whats with the fucking scar on your face and why did I hear you talking about reports?” I spit out
“What I talk about is none of your concern sir, and it’s not a scar it’s a nose.” that’s weird, maybe it gets translated into the equivalent
“Whatever, can I go home?”
“Likely yes, if you answer my questions.”
“Whatever, shoot.”
“I will not be injuring you sir.” the nurse replies with a confused look
“It means start, you overgrown snake.” they really kinda look like snake people just without the scales
“I see, very well, first question I will know if you're lying, if given the opportunity to leave your world to work and live somewhere else, would you.” he seems like this thing has asked these questions many time
“So long as it’s away from you fucks, sure.”
“Second question, what kind of job would you like to have if you got to choose.”
“I don’t know, my old job on Earth.” what kind of question is that
“And lastly, would you like to stay on your world?” this time he looks me dead in the eyes with a curious look
“If this is what the galaxy is like, then yeah, fuck leaving”
“Alright, thank you, I’m uploading the results now,” a couple seconds pass and he starts to frown, “I apologies sir but, it appears that The Authority needs you off world.”
“What the hell, fuck you no I’m staying on earth!”
“My humblest apologies but nobody on this station can change the results, but as is tradition, you now must receive a new set of names.” he smiles, it’s such a genuine smile like he’s happy for me. Wait, new names what? He places a small and smooth device on my head. “This is just so you remember your new name as your name, which is now, Yagak Grolgem!” there is a sharp shock and hissing sound as he says my name, wait no that's not my name! My name is… is… why can’t I remember?
“What the fuck did you just do you bastard?!” I grab the device and slam it into the floor, and it breaks apart into several pieces
He jumps, as much as a thing without legs can jump, “eep, I’m sorry sir, it’s required to have a new name to unchain you from your past.” he sounds scared, pitiful, confused
Suddenly a 7 foot tall, jacked female alien with red skin and a similar outfit to Ullgo, bursts into the room, and points a vaguely pistol shaped device with a yellow end at me, “stop right there human” she yells, slithering closer to me, “I don’t want to taze a man but I will!”
“Whoa, ok ok” I raise my hand up, I already got shot once by an alien, I don't want to lose another limb.
“Ullgo get behind me.” she commands the male who seems to frown even deeper
“He won’t do anything, plus he’s missing an arm”
“Then what was that crash?” she turns to him but still keeping the gun on me
The male slithers over to the right of the bed and picks up the pieces of the device, “the neural rewriter, I am once again sorry Mr Grolgem, but it is necessary for the uplifting process.”
This bastard, “curl up and die.” I growl with as much venom as I can, “when do I get to leave this place”
“Later this evening, after you get your arm that is, oh and please leave Hogerchek”
“But…” she starts but is cut off
"now” and with disappointment clear on her face she turns and leaves, “apologies, she is jumpy due to the amount of violent patients as of late” he seems genuine at least, “please follow me to the bionics branch, that's where you can get a new arm.”
I nod, at least I’ll get a badass replacement of my missing limb, wonder if I can get a knife on the end of it like the doom slayer, probably not, why would they give me a weapon after mutilating me. I stand up as I take the blanket off of me. I see that I too am wearing a skin tight suit that appears to be made specifically for humans, but not for human males as my bulge is very clearly pronounced on the thin material. I step off the bed and the nurse begins to turn a deeper shade of orange before turning away, “my apologies, we don’t have anything looser so we just gave you a bipedal plantigrade pair of sleeves” he looks very bashful as he stares at the wall. I chuckle at the bizarre display, how is this guy a nurse if he can’t handle looking at someone else’s private bits, oh well, I’m suddenly feeling better about the situation,
“what’s the matter, four eyes? Aren’t you a nurse, you should be used to looking at another man’s dick.” I say vying for a reaction.
“Agrochurian penises stay inside the body when not in use, and I’ve only been dealing with human females so far, not a fellow male.” he slithers over to the door as I follow, “a short walk and you may return to your room,” he already seems to have mostly recovered from a couple seconds ago, what a strange creature.
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Just a compilation of my own, and others theories and ideas in a nice list, feel free to add to it.
The Baba Yaga Mythology: In the John Wick films, John Wick is often referred to as the "Baba Yaga," a nickname associated with the infamous Russian boogeyman or witch. This allusion to folklore adds depth to the theory. In mythology, Baba Yaga is known for her supernatural abilities, including being an embodiment of death and a guide to the underworld. Drawing inspiration from this folklore, it is possible that John Wick embodies the essence of death itself.
Unrelenting Determination: Throughout the John Wick films, John's unwavering determination and unyielding pursuit of his goals are showcased. He possesses an unmatched will to survive and succeed, even against overwhelming odds. This unrelenting nature hints at an otherworldly essence, suggesting that John Wick is more than just an ordinary human.
The Continental: A Gateway to the Underworld: The Continental, the hotel chain for assassins, serves as a vital element in the John Wick universe. It is a neutral ground where assassins can gather without fear of reprisal. However, it is also a place where the rules of the underworld are strictly enforced. The existence of such a clandestine establishment hints at a deeper connection between the world of assassins and the realm of death. As a frequent visitor to the Continental, John Wick may possess knowledge or connections to the afterlife, further supporting his potential embodiment of death.
Healing Abilities: One of the most intriguing aspects of John Wick's immortality is his seemingly accelerated healing ability. Despite enduring numerous injuries, he miraculously recovers in a remarkably short period. This rapid healing could be a supernatural attribute associated with death. In many mythologies, Death possesses the power to both inflict and heal wounds, making John Wick's regenerative abilities an intriguing element in this theory.
The High Table's Fear: The High Table, a secretive organization controlling the world of assassins, holds immense power and influence. They set the rules and have the authority to declare excommunicado status on individuals like John Wick. However, even the High Table fears John Wick. This fear could be a result of recognizing his connection to the realm of death or his embodiment of an unstoppable force beyond their control.
The Unending Cycle: In the John Wick films, there is a recurring theme of a never-ending cycle of violence and death. This cyclical nature could symbolize John Wick's eternal existence as an agent of death, destined to engage in unending battles and enforce equilibrium. Just like Death itself, John Wick may be bound to repeat his violent encounters indefinitely, unable to escape his role in maintaining balance in the world of assassins.
Mysterious Origins: The films provide limited information about John Wick's past, leaving his origins shrouded in mystery. This ambiguity allows for speculation about his true nature. It is plausible that John Wick is not an ordinary mortal but rather an immortal being, perhaps a deity or a supernatural entity temporarily taking human form. This would explain his exceptional combat skills, endurance, and resilience.
Symbolism and Imagery: Symbolism and visual cues throughout the John Wick films contribute to the theory of John Wick embodying Death. Scenes often feature imagery associated with mortality, such as skulls, gravestones, and references to the afterlife. These visual elements reinforce the idea that John Wick represents the inevitable specter of death itself. (Far fetched)
Convergence of Fate: In the John Wick universe, it seems as though the forces of fate conspire to ensure that John Wick remains entangled in a world of violence and death. No matter how hard he tries to escape, circumstances always bring him back into the fray. This recurring pattern suggests a deeper cosmic purpose, potentially tied to his role as Death incarnate. His relentless involvement in the world of assassins could be seen as a necessary balancing act between life and death.
Anachronistic Skills: John Wick displays an array of skills and knowledge that span various eras and cultures. From his expertise in firearms to his proficiency in martial arts, he possesses a wide range of capabilities typically associated with historical and mythical figures. This suggests that he has accumulated knowledge and abilities over an extended period, further reinforcing the notion of his immortality and timeless existence. (Far fetched)
Inevitability and Finality: Death is often seen as the ultimate inevitability, the final destination for all living beings. John Wick's pursuit of vengeance and his encounters with adversaries seem to represent the inescapable nature of death itself. He is the embodiment of finality, the force that eventually catches up with everyone, no matter how powerful or elusive.
Quantum Consciousness: One scientific perspective that can be applied to the theory is the concept of quantum consciousness. According to this theory, consciousness is not solely confined to the brain but can have a quantum origin or influence. If John Wick possesses a unique form of consciousness, intertwined with quantum processes, it could explain his extraordinary abilities and his connection to the concept of Death. His consciousness may be able to tap into the fundamental aspects of reality, allowing him to transcend mortal limitations.
Energy Transference: Death, in many mythologies, is associated with the transference of energy from one state to another. From a scientific viewpoint, John Wick could harness this concept through advanced energy manipulation. He may have the ability to absorb and redistribute energy within his body, utilizing it to heal, enhance his physical capabilities, and even prolong his life. This energy transference would explain his resilience and longevity, reinforcing his connection to the essence of Death.
Quantum Entanglement: Quantum entanglement is a phenomenon where particles become correlated in such a way that their states are inherently linked, regardless of the distance between them. Applying this concept to John Wick, he could be entangled with the fundamental nature of existence itself, perhaps through a unique arrangement of subatomic particles within his body. This entanglement would grant him exceptional abilities and tie him closely to the fabric of life and death. (Extremely far fetched)
Multiverse Theory: Exploring the theory within the framework of the multiverse hypothesis, it is conceivable that John Wick exists across multiple parallel universes simultaneously. Each version of John Wick would represent a different aspect or manifestation of Death. Through a rare convergence of events, these different iterations of John Wick may have converged into a single timeline, embodying Death's essence within a single individual. This would explain his unparalleled skills, resilience, and unique (Borrowed idea)
Rapid Cellular Regeneration: John Wick's unparalleled healing abilities could be attributed to an accelerated cellular regeneration process. While his wounds appear as bloodstains on his clothing, the underlying tissue is swiftly regenerated, restoring him to a healthy state. This extraordinary cellular regeneration occurs at a rate much faster than the removal of the bloodstains, leading to the visual evidence of his injuries persisting despite his internal healing process.
Blood as a Catalyst: The presence of bloodstains on John Wick's clothing could play a significant role in his healing process. Blood contains various factors, such as growth factors, platelets, and clotting agents, which can facilitate tissue repair and regeneration. In John Wick's case, the blood acts as a catalyst, initiating and accelerating the healing process. The bloodstains remaining on his clothing symbolize the remnants of the injury, while his body rapidly heals beneath them.
Quantum Healing: Drawing upon the principles of quantum mechanics, John Wick's healing process could involve quantum entanglement at the subatomic level. Through quantum entanglement, the information and energy associated with his injuries are transferred or shared with a parallel reality where the injuries have already healed. This entanglement enables John Wick to rapidly assimilate the healing information from the parallel reality, resulting in the accelerated recovery of his wounds. The bloodstains that persist on his clothing represent the remnants of the injuries in this reality, despite the healing that has occurred through the entanglement. (Building upon multiversal theories and Quantum Entanglement)
Symbolic Reminder of Mortality: The visible signs of pain, bleeding, limping, and physical revulsion serve as symbolic reminders of John Wick's mortality and vulnerability. These visible indicators humanize him, making his actions and victories all the more impressive and relatable. They emphasize the immense challenges he overcomes and the sacrifices he endures to achieve his goals, adding depth to his character and the narrative.
Supernatural Bargains: In the John Wick universe, it is possible that John has made supernatural bargains or deals with powerful entities to gain his exceptional abilities and resilience. These agreements may have come at a price, binding his fate to a higher power or even to the concept of Death itself. The visible reminders of pain and suffering serve as a constant reminder of the cost he has paid, a reminder of the deal he struck to achieve his extraordinary capabilities.
Baba Yaga's Curse: As the legend goes, Baba Yaga, the mythical figure associated with John Wick's nickname, is known for her ability to curse and inflict suffering upon her enemies. It could be speculated that John Wick has become entangled in Baba Yaga's curse, which manifests as the visible signs of pain, bleeding, limping, and physical revulsion. This curse serves as a reminder of his connection to the world of shadows and his perpetual struggle against the forces that seek to claim his life.
Karmic Balance: Another hypothesis is that John Wick is bound by a karmic balance, where his actions and victories come at a cost. The visible signs of pain and suffering symbolize the equilibrium that must be maintained in the universe. For every life he takes, every act of violence he commits, a portion of his own life force is depleted, resulting in the visible reminders of his mortality. This karmic balance ensures that he remains grounded in his humanity despite his exceptional skills and accomplishments.
John Wick, through various scientific and speculative explanations, is depicted as a character who possesses extraordinary attributes that elevate him beyond the limitations of mortals. He may be seen as an embodiment of Death or closely connected to the concept of Death itself.
From a scientific standpoint:
John Wick's abilities could be rooted in concepts such as quantum consciousness, energy transference, quantum entanglement, multiverse theory, and information-based reality. His healing abilities could be attributed to rapid cellular regeneration, blood acting as a catalyst, energetic residue, quantum healing, and metaphysical representation.
Regarding his visible signs of pain, bleeding, limping, and physical revulsion:
These symbolic reminders humanize John Wick and make his actions and victories more impressive and relatable. They emphasize the challenges he overcomes and the sacrifices he endures in pursuit of his goals. They could be explained by his ability to suppress mortal limitations, adapt his pain threshold, maintain mental fortitude and focus, adapt regenerative processes, and possess an indomitable spirit.
Additionally, we explored further hypotheses that add depth to his character and the narrative:
Supernatural bargains or deals with powerful entities, such as deals with the devil or curses from Baba Yaga. The concept of karmic balance, where his actions come at a cost to maintain equilibrium in the universe. The idea of sacrificial resilience, where the visible signs of his mortality represent the sacrifices he willingly makes. Metaphorical redemption, where the pain and suffering symbolize his journey towards redemption and transformation.
...but hey that's just a theory XD

A few times I've had a very lucid dreams that I was high on dph in the dreams I'm in the room I am in physically except a few differences I pass out in my dreams and it feels like blacking out in real life I get up and pass out again or wake up to my dad shaking me or to look around the room I don't realize I'm in a dream and even after I dream I can't tell if it was a dream or not I asked my dad if he was shaking me awake and he said he didn't come into my room at all it's a very strange experience if anyone knows why this happens please let me know

New account because I don’t like talking about personal things on my normal account and Al of this makes me self conscious.
This ended up being so much longer than I expected and I apologize for that. Thank you to anyone who makes it through this. As a bit of a TL;DR for anyone who doesn’t want to read my book, I submitted a fully developed claim with nothing supplemental because I put this off for over 5 years and just wanted to feel like I did something. I had C&P exams and now am having an ACE medical records review on my bipolar claim that was deferred. Should I now submit the service records I have relating to it or should I just let it take its course and submit the records later to contest the decision if it is not favorable. Thank you to anyone who takes the time to respond!
Just a little backstory:
While I’ve never filed any claims before my doctors at the VA as well as other in my life have pushed me to for quite awhile. One because I know it would legitimately make a huge difference in my life but also to help pursue a discharge upgrade. The whole thing has made me very self conscious for two main reasons. It’s hard for me to justify getting the same kind of benefits as the people who I walk past in the VA who have very serious physical injuries. I also still harbor a lot of shame and am extremely self conscious about the fact that I received a general discharge for problems during my service due to a mental health condition. I was actively seeking medical care and a diagnosis and am also still a little jaded about the fact that the people who pretended to care about me clearly didn’t. It was extremely evident that things behind the scenes were a bit different than how they were portrayed after getting out and receiving my service records along with just how quickly I ended up being pushed out. I was lied to by the medical professional I was seeing for the condition who told me that he never told me certain things the day I told him I found out I was recieving an administrative discharge because of how broken it made me feel. I also had a master sergeant comment to me “I really hope you aren’t lying about all of this” during my out-processing. There are a few other specific examples but I feel like that kind of gets the point across. Part of the reason I put this process off so long is because of how painful of a time this was in my life. I requested and received my medical documents in 2016 but proceeded to put them in a drawer and never looked through them until about 3 weeks ago because it’s just not something I could get myself to do or wanted to relive.
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Items claimed: Hearing loss Tinnitus Shoulder injury Bipolar
More on topic to the C&P claim:
After about 6 years of being out I finally have put in some claims and am partially through the process. I originally opened an intent to file in 2019 that I just never followed up on. In February of this year I just decided to do it and start and submitted a fully developed claim (at least I think that’s what I selected) without submitting anything additional. I know that they are able to access military records if you follow some additional steps but while I’m able to do work that requires a lot at one time when I’m in a particularly good mood or place, I just am not good on things that require a lot of follow up.
Knowing that if I didn’t just do something, I would never get anywhere I just said fuck it and submitted it anyways. I proceeded to add absolutely zero information myself and did not seek out help from anyone. At the very least I wish I would’ve found this subreddit first because it has been a wealth of information and I want to really thank the people who both put all of these amazing guides together. I also want to thank the people who just participate and post their questions and experiences here. I’ve learned a ton about things I maybe should’ve done and should do in the future.
I had all of my C&P exams in the last 2-3 weeks now and was and have been stressing out a ton. This last Friday I had a claim letter posted and the hearing loss was listed as not service connected, I was rated at 10% for my tinnitus, 20% for my shoulder, and my bipolar claim was deferred. From this subreddit I learned and expected not to get anything for the hearing loss though I would still like to get it service connected should it get worse later in life. The tinnitus was the 10% I expected, again from this subreddit. I was surprised at the rating for my shoulder however. While the issue was further aggravated during regular duty, I initially injured it on leave while out visiting high school friends at college. Due to that I did not really think it would be covered BUT I was 100% honest about what happened initially both in the claim and with my C&P examiner. I’d love to get as high of a claim on everything I can to a point that’s fair but I have absolutely no interest in misleading anyone about any detail for obvious reasons.
Currently the largest thing impacting my life is the bipolar and due to the fact that I’ve been seeing my psychiatrist at the VA for about 5.5 years now, it was the only thing of my claim I thought would go smoothly. I went to medical for pretty much nothing during my time in the service because, as most others have experienced, that’s just not encouraged. I was lucky to have a pretty great doctor do my exit evaluation and had my write quite a few things down that I didn’t even realize during that outprocessing appointment which I think will be helpful now and for future claims. I have the military records sorted and ready to be scanned to be submitted but I am really unsure at this point if I should be doing anything preemptively or just waiting to see what happens with their decision after the ACE review and responding from there.
While I have been going to the VA fairly consistently there was about a 6 month period of time in the in the 5.5 years where I went through a rough patch and went off of my medication. I have been back on track since but that period concerns me for the review. I also try to be very open and honest with my psychiatrist but I am the type of person that downplays things to try and be positive. I find that the times I don’t and focus on the negatives it really puts me into a downward spiral. That also now makes me concerned that maybe the review could be due to the fact that maybe they feel what I described in my C&P exam does not align with my doctors notes. I still did not even do a very good job of fully addressing my symptoms in the C&P exam if I’m being honest due to my poor preparation. Had I found this subreddit before the exam, I would have taken notes so that I wouldn’t have missed things to mention that I struggle with.
My biggest thing at this point is that I really want to get my discharge upgraded to hopefully get rid of the shame that I’ve struggled with for so many years. Even just getting these few things that were approved service connected have really lifted my sprits. I guess it’s just the fact that it’s officially recognized that these problems I have are real things even though I already personally knew they were. The biggest thing for me is the bipolar claim though. Not only does has it had a huge impact on my life but I want to be able to point to the service connected claim of it when submitting the paperwork for the upgrade.
While overall I’m kind of upset with myself with how this has gone so far for not just doing this sooner, I’m trying to stay focused on the fact that I did finally do it and I am moving forward with it. I’m trying to just push my life forward in general and get seen for things that will improve my life. I recently had a sleep study done and was diagnosed with sleep apnea and have a CPAP appointment with the VA soon. I’m pretty excited at the idea that I may actually wake up feeling good though I’m obviously not happy about actually having sleep apnea.
Thank you again to anyone who took the time to read what ended up being a much longer post than I expected. It was kind of cathartic to get all of this off my chest and put it out there. I appreciate any advice or input anyone can provide and I’ll be sure to provide updates to this post and in future posts as to how my process goes as I continue to work my way through it. I know how much the older posts in this subreddit have helped myself since finding this place and I hope I can do the same for those who come later.

There are so many things in my life that I used to enjoy, but right now I feel like they’re doing more harm than good. It’s absolutely ridiculous, and I hate everything about myself and my life right now, so even with escapism I can’t help but go down this rabbit hole of “why not me?” And there’s so much regret involved, how many things would be different if only I had done X different, but also so many things that will never happen to me because they are either insane or only exist in fiction. Like the scenarios we all create in our heads, mine are actively making me more depressed about all the things that can never happen to me. I feel like I’m starting to cross mental a line in how I feel about parasocial relationships, and it’s making me sad, so I really want to take a step back before I go insane. Like, I’m not delusional and I’m not doing anything, but the impossibility of so many things is making my depression worse. Taylor Swift announced that she will be performing in my country in November, and although I have money, I wonder if I should get my hopes up about getting a ticket.
Last time I was excited about something the rug was pulled out from under me; I was happy about my new job, doing something I enjoyed, not feeling burnt out 24/7, I actually enjoyed my job and the company, I was excited to maybe open myself up to relationships (romantic and new friendships), get my own place and move out from my parent’s place, start seriously looking into traveling internationally like I’ve always wanted, and for the first time ever I saw a future that I enjoyed and that was possible for me, but then, without warning, I get fired; this was in January but I still haven’t found a new job yet. Nothing is bringing me joy anymore, I’m not excited about life anymore, I don’t have plans anymore, I don’t hope for anything anymore. Job hunting is extremely frustrating and doesn’t help how I feel.
I’ve never felt lower, I’ve never felt worse. I’m just tired of “it gets better”, because it does, but then it gets worse, so much worse than ever before. I feel like I’ve never been allowed to just be happy, to just enjoy something without the rug being pulled, it’s always only having downs and never any ups. I’m really tired. I’ve been dealing with depression for over 10 years now, meds and therapy on and off, but I’ve never felt so awful. When you think you’ve hit rock bottom the hole just gets deeper.

So in the first place, I met this guy who was 36 on a hookup site. I wouldn't date somebody with that big of an age gap, but I thought that hey because this is just a hookup, I didn't really mind the age gap. We met up, and we really really liked each other. We bonded so quickly.
We've been together since mid December last year, and are still together now. We aren't an official couple, I specifically said that when we were starting to catch feelings for each other that this is a purely casual relationship, because we can't date with such an age gap. He agreed with me, and we even said that we are allowed to date other people and have sex with others etc etc. But neither me or him have this entire 6 months. We have done loads of fun things like going to nearby cities, going to the seaside, binge watching my favourite TV shows, etc. It's been amazing honestly. Besides that, physically he is totally my type and I am totally his type.
Now, I'll be going to uni soon, and I just recently said to him last week that when I go to uni, I will most likely not meetup with him until 6 months have passed, so that my heart can move on, and then we will continue our relationship but as friends, without romantic or sexual involvement. We would still text during these 6 months. He seemed upset about it as was I, but we both accepted that this is what we should do. I am the type of person where I can only romantically love one person at a time, and I worry that I won't be able to move on from him if we do meet up again after those 6 months. And even the texting, would I be able to let go of my feelings if I'm still in contact with him? This is my first ever relationship, and I feel ashamed that I'm even in this silly position in the first place.
The most ideal situation would be that we text for 6 months, meetup every now and then as friends, with all my romantic feelings gone so that i can date someone my own age. But I don't know if that's how it works, or if I just need to cut him off completely. But I really really don't want to do that, because I really like him, and he's been there for me when I really needed the emotional support.
But then again, even if he was closer in age to me, I don't think we would make a good couple. He's very anxious and we offset each other a lot. We have quite dramatic arguments then really passionate love after to make up for it, but I don't think that's right either. He can play the silent treatment a lot which rubs me up the wrong way.
So, does anybody have any advice?
TLDR; I have been in an unofficial relationship with an older guy, and we have agreed that we are going to try and be friends instead when I go to uni. However, I am afraid that I might still have feelings if we do that

Hi everyone. I've watched videos that describe traits of bpd and I'm not entirely sure that describes me. I grew up in a home where my mom, who likely has bpd, kind of picked on me out of all my siblings. I was made to feel unattractive, unintelligent and unwanted. She called me names, said that no one would ever want me. Things like that. My siblings received different levels of her abuse but mine was always a little extra. I was also physically abused amid accusations of being a bad kid/person. My mom exhibits most bpd traits. She often threatens suicide if we don't toe the line. She has unstable relationships with all of us, explosive anger etc
As a 40 year old woman, I realise now that I have never trusted my own internal voice. I don't think I'm attractive or Intelligent or even someone others would want to be with.
I struggle with making friends because I have social anxiety. I have friends from high school and college I'm in contact with but I struggle with phone conversations and keeping in contact. Partly because, although I have a nursing degree, I feel i have not realised my full potential because I do not currently work as a nurse. I feel there would be some stigma related to not working at my earning potential. And partly because social interactions wear me out. I'm terrible socially. I'm not American, although I live here in the states, and I often feel like I say the wrong thing with friends/neighbors or I don't react appropriately to jokes etc. So I try to avoid social interactions.
I do not have suicidal ideations. I'm not necessarily more afraid of abandonment than others. My husband has said I react weirdly to situations in the sense that I'm calm in situations he would expect a reaction from then get upset when it's unnecessary. I'm not impulsive. It literally takes me forever to make decisions because I doubt myself so much. I do get upset at things more than i think i should because I often read meaning into what people say. Usually after the conversation has happened. I used to not be vocal about things that made me upset, I only just recently, at my husband's urging, started to say when and why I was upset. I used to just keep it in and wallow in perceived or real hurts.
I have a poor sense of esteem and self worth. I can never understand what people see in my and why they want to be with me. When people LIKE me I stress about it and the perceived responsibility of making sure they keep liking me and then it all implodes because I can't keep things together and I push them away. In my teens I felt so unlovable that I dated people who hurt me and stayed in those situations because they told me no one else would want me and I believed them. I'm terrified for my two kids because I often get touched out by them and I feel smothered in their needs and affections. It's so hard to keep it all together. I want to be a good mother but I'm overly critical of myself and I often feel like I'm already failing them. This is a lot. I appreciate anyone who read through this and gives input
TLDR: Not sure if I have bpd. I have social anxiety. No suicidal ideations, not really impulsive, no abandonment issues, emotions somewhat unstable, unstable interpersonal relationships due to what I think is social anxiety, poor self worth

Background
Demographic: White, male, age 29, 5' 5", 175 +/- 5lbs.
Lifestyle: Active (workout 3-4x per week), Desk/Physical work 80/20%.
Complaint: Abdominal injury and pain (9 months since injury), presently inconsistent pains.
Medication: No consistent medications, no allergies.
Drug use: alcohol (1-3x per month), non-smoker.
History of the Injury
Late August of 2022, I hurt myself doing a kip on horizontal bar outdoors. Right after raising my feet to the bar and kicking my legs out I felt a sharp pain in my abdomen.
Bar kip example: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YRPFWdelsDY
I couldn't stop slouching and crunching my abdomen. Stretching backwards and straightening my posture was very discomforting. The severe pain subsided in a day but in the following months I couldn't stretch my stomach and had to sleep on my back with pillows under my knees to keep a flexed/crunched posture. Sleeping on the side was discomforting, because the stomach would hang to the side, bringing up the pain.
In 3 months, I felt better. However, there were always some flare-ups on pain.
Pain Description: The pain felt like it always was in "horizontal lines", on 1-3 locations at a time (the sensation varies from time to time). Through my personal touch/observation, these horizontal lines of pain were always along tendinous inscriptions of the ab structures. Sometimes I feel lower 1 or two lines in pain. Other times it’s one of the upper line(s).
Tendinous inscriptions image: https://test.usabcd.org/courses/lk-native-ld2-basic-ugra/lessons/lknative-rectus-sheath-block/topic/3-anatomy-the-rectus-abdominis-muscle/
Causes of Pain: Pain flare-ups happened when moving heavy objects, pulling something heavy from ground, stretching the abdominal area, or a day after the occasional exercise. Twisting my torso side to side could also make pain worse, stretching one side of the abdomen, especially if twisting in my full range. Slight turns were okay.
Flare-ups also happened immediately after eating specific foods (sunflower seeds, nutty bars, and when a bit bloated from eating. I have had some pain relief often immediately after having bowel movement.
Medical history of the Injury and Other Notes
- Within a week of the injury, ruled out hernia at a clinic.
- 3+ months of slow pain relief, with flare ups. Mostly sedentary life and very little physical activity.
- Late December through early February 2023: Doctors visit, abdominal ultrasound, and physical exam. No specific conclusions on either physical injury or gastric issues. No diagnosis.
- February to present day, June 2023:
Slow increase in physical activity and exercise. Some running. With a good warm up, stretching the abdominal area isn't painful (though I don't stretch too much there for now.)
Rare ab exercises can feel discomforting, and some pain returns the day after.
Jumping high or landing can have pain sensation return (inconsistently).
- Bloated stomach, or consumption of some foods (as mentioned above) can feel discomforting or even painful along 1 or more " horizontal lines". Bowel movement often relieves discomfort and even pain.
Self-medication: On a few occasions, I tried to apply heat or cold, which didn’t help with pain much. But the cold helped numb things down. Heat helped to warm the abdomen and make some movements easier for a short time.
Rare/inconsistent instances of ibuprofen use (around 400-600 mg). Can't remember how effective pain relief is.
Massage/poking: Generally, I do it when I feel pain or discomfort along the horizontal lines. Massage, poking, deep massage does NOT reduce the pain for me. Sometimes even makes me feel the pain more. But mentally feels good to do and feel out where I feel it.
Present day condition (June 2023)
Some pain flare-ups with physical activities, infrequent feeling of discomfort in the mornings or after food (for both, often relieved through bowel movement).
Concern: While things have gotten better in 9 months, I am not certain what I should and should not do, given there is no diagnosis. The occasional pain increases made me curious if someone had an experience with pain like this.
Thanks in advance for any feedback!!!